“No, I don’t want you to do that,” Bri protested, meaning it. “Save your money to come home for the holidays. You have to come home then.”

“Are you ready for your test?” Caroline asked, changing the subject.

“I don’t know. I think so. If Reese thinks so, then I guess I am.” Bri brushed a hand across her chest, toying unconsciously with a nipple. When it hardened beneath her fingers and her stomach clenched again, she moved her hand away. “I’ll be ready by the time the test comes.”

“You’ll tell me when and everything, right?”

“Sure.” Bri stifled a yawn. “I better go, baby. I just wanted to hear your voice.”

“You be careful this weekend, you hear?”

“Don’t worry, I’m always careful.”

“Be extra careful. I love you.”

Caroline made a small kissing sound and Bri smiled. “I love you bad, baby. Good night.”

“Good night,” Caroline said softly.

Bri waited for the final click, then set the phone down. She curled on her side, cupped one hand between her thighs, and closed her eyes, imagining Caroline’s face and the sweet sound of her voice as sleep claimed her.

KT stared at the ceiling. Her arm throbbed, her stomach rolled with the faint swell of nausea, and sweat streaked her face. The early September night was hot, and despite the air-conditioning, the room was stuffy. It felt as if a weight sat astride her chest, heavy and dark. It might have been loneliness, or sadness, or merely the fact that she’d awakened with the overwhelming urge for one of the small white pills. She turned her head and glanced at the red numerals on the cheap plastic clock radio by the bedside. 3:41 a.m. In less than six hours, she’d need to be at Pia Torres’s for her first therapy session.

In less than six hours, the pain she was feeling now would double. Physical therapy was a difficult road, and she’d need her pain medication then. She had to wait.

Her mind raced. She tried not to think about the conversation with Tory. At least not beyond the fact that she would have a job. It wasn’t the money she needed, but the sense of being valuable. Of doing something worthwhile. Her entire adult life, even before she could have truly been considered an adult, she had equated achievement with self-worth. The youngest child in a family of notables, she had set out to be the best at her chosen field because anything less would have made her less. In the eyes of her family, in her own eyes. She’d succeeded. In everything. In everything except in her relationship with Tory.

Tory. She’d gone for years barely thinking of her. She’d been so busy with work, and when she wasn’t, she could easily fill the void that Tory had left behind in the arms of some other woman. There was always some other woman. Until she’d gotten to the point where the women became interchangeable and the temporary solace she found in their arms slipped away. Before the interlude with Vicki earlier that afternoon, it had been months since she’d been with anyone.

Tory. When she thought of her now, she remembered the bright-eyed, optimistic young woman she had been. The women they had both been. She thought of their lost dreams Tory’s of Olympic gold, hers of the pair of them taking the medical world by storm, co-chiefs of emergency medicine, battling death and winning. Always winning.

Well, I’m not winning now.

KT pushed herself up with her right arm and swung her legs over the side of the bed. In the tank top and briefs she’d been sleeping in, she crossed the room, opened the sliding glass door, and stepped out onto the deck. The moon was high, the sky clear, and in the distance through the trees she caught a glimmer of the harbor. The water was black, streaked with silver from the running lights of the boats moored on its glassy surface. The faint breeze dried the sweat on her face. She cradled her injured left hand against her chest and tightened the fingers of her right around the wooden railing that edged the deck. Moments of quiet were extraordinarily rare in her hectic life, and even now, surrounded by exquisite beauty, there was no peace.

She thought back to her interview that morning. Tory had obviously been surprised to see her. The anger still simmered in her eyes, but she had managed it well. But it wasn’t the anger or the distance that KT remembered most clearly. What she remembered was that when Tory had mentioned Reese and Regina, she had looked beautiful. Beautiful and happy. KT searched her heart and could not find it there to resent Tory the peace she had so clearly found.

Turning from the soul-wrenching view, KT walked into the bathroom and shook another pill from the small orange plastic container. Even more than she needed sleep, she needed respite from her thoughts.

Pia Torres, dressed casually in a short-sleeved turquoise blouse, tan slacks, and sandals, opened the side door of her cottage at five minutes to nine on Saturday morning. She looked up at the slightly taller woman who leaned against the porch column in a shaft of morning sunlight. Dr. O’Bannon wore jeans and a white oxford shirt, the right cuff rolled to midforearm, the left unbuttoned and hanging loose over the molded splint. Pia couldn’t help but register what a striking picture she made, but noted the shadows beneath her dark eyes and the faintly haunted expression on her face.

“Good morning,” Pia said warmly, “Did you knock?”

KT pushed herself upright and shook her head. “No. Not yet.”

“I don’t stand on ceremony, Dr. O’Bannon. Please, just”

“It’s KT. Remember?”

Pia smiled. “Yes. And the next time, KT, just knock on the door, or better yet, stick your head in and holler.” She pushed wide the screen door and gestured with her head toward the interior. “Please, come in. How are you feeling?”

KT stiffened, then forced herself to answer evenly. “Fine. I’m looking forward to getting started.”

“Yes, I can imagine.” Patients approached physical therapy with very different attitudes. Some resented it, feeling that they could do whatever needed to be done in terms of rehabilitation on their own. Some feared it, especially the possibility of pain. And others, and she suspected that Dr. O’Bannon would be one of those, approached therapy as a battle to be waged and a war to be won. Unfortunately, there was no standard time period for a particular campaign, as every individual needed to progress according to the particulars of their injury, their age, their pain tolerance, and their ultimate goal. A surgeon with a hand injury, like a musician, was one of the most difficult of all patients to treat. It wasn’t just that incomplete recovery would make it difficult for Dr. O’Bannon to return to her profession it would make it impossible. Most skilled laborers could still work with dysfunctional digits, but that was not going to be the case here.

“The treatment room is this way,” Pia said as she led the way down the narrow hall to a large, sunny screened-in porch at the rear. Another garden, more luxurious than the small flower patch in front of the house, filled the entire yard behind the cottage. The flowers, a riotous panoply of color, danced in the breeze beneath the bright, clear sun.

KT didn’t notice the beauty. All she saw were the strain gauges, the neurosensory filaments, and the goniometers arranged on a stand next to a picnic table with benches on either side that apparently was the treatment table.

“Should I take my splint off now?” KT asked as she sat on one side of the long, narrow table. A clear sheet of Plexiglas covered the top.

“In just a minute,” Pia responded. “Let me review your medical history for a few minutes, and then we’ll taut about where we’re headed.”

After KT confirmed Pia’s understanding of her injuries, she listened politely as Pia laid out the treatment regimen, but she wasn’t really absorbing the details of the plan. She’d slept fitfully the remainder of the previous night despite the sedating effects of the oral narcotic and had awakened inexplicably disturbed and agitated. Now, unexpectedly, Pia’s voice, musical and rich, soothed her into a comfortable lassitude.

“Where are you from?” KT asked, struck by the barest hint of an accent underlying Pia’s mellifluous voice.

Pia stopped abruptly in the midst of explaining the theory and practice of dynamic splinting. “Right here in Provincetown.”

“Really?” KT barely noticed as Pia began to disengage the elastic bands attached to the ends of her fingers that protected them from unexpected motion.

“Mmm-hmm,” Pia said as she worked carefully and efficiently to remove the Orthoplast splint. “My father was a fisherman, descended from some of the original Portuguese settlers. My brother still goes out on a fishing boat every day. My mother came here for the summer with her family thirty-five years ago, met my father at a party one night, and never left.”

“I take it she was weal ah, damn.” KT flinched as a muscle in her forearm spasmed and an electric shock stabbed through her hand.

“What?” Pia asked quickly.

“Paresthesias,” KT grunted, referring to the abnormal sensations commonly experienced after a nerve has been severed or badly injured. In the last few days, she had started to experience pins and needles, shooting pains, burning discomfort in her fingertips, and all other manner of abnormal nerve discharge as the damaged nerves in her hand attempted to heal. While in one respect it was encouraging, because it meant that the nerves in her fingers were starting to regenerate, the unexpected and often severe pain was wearing.

“It’s about time for that.” Pia cradled KT’s hand in both of hers, examining the location of the incision, the texture of the skin, the condition of the muscles, and the adequacy of the blood supply to the injured fingers. She gently traced her fingertips over the healing laceration. “This looks good.”

KT stared at the slightly raised, thick red ridge across her palm, remembering the instant when she’d held her hand out to ward off the blow and had felt the knife slice to the bone. She shivered and fought down a wave of nausea. “Yes. It’s coming along.”

“You understand that for the next few weeks we’ll simply be concentrating on range of motion and scar desensitization. You can’t flex your fingers actively or attempt any resistive exercises. The tendon repairs are still far too delicate to risk rupture.”

“I understand.”

“Good,” Pia said with a smile. “I’m going to range each digit now. I’m sure the joints are stiff, so you can expect a little bit of discomfort.” She cocked her head and studied KT’s face. She was pale. “Have you eaten anything today?”

“I…uh…” Caught off guard, KT fumbled for an answer.

“These first few sessions are going to be difficult. It’s been my experience that you will tolerate therapy much better if you’re rested and not otherwise stressed. Breakfast…” She stopped when she saw KT smile. KT’s lips were full and sensuous, and her smile might have been beautiful had it not been curved ever so subtly downward with bitterness. “What?”

“I was thinking about stress, I’m starting a temporary job at the East End Health Clinic today. It’s not what I’m trained to do, but it’s all that I can do. My hand is completely dysfunctional and might not improve significantly. I may never operate again. Somehow, I don’t think a bagel is going to help.”

“Yes,” Pia said calmly. “I suppose you might be right.” She held KT’s eyes, her own gentle and without reproach. “But we won’t know until we try, will we?”

We. It wasn’t a concept that KT was used to contemplating. Even when she’d been in a long-term relationship, she’d always felt as if she were doing battle alone, Tory had supported her in her quest, but there had been only so much she could do to help. When it came down to succeeding or failing, the outcome had always rested squarely on KT’s shoulders. KT stared at her hand still resting between Pia’s long, deceptively delicate fingers. Her own hand, lifeless and pale, looked forlorn nearly as forlorn as she felt. Nevertheless, Pia’s darker, stronger fingers appeared capable. More than capable. Certain and sure. KT felt a flicker of hope and raised her eyes to Pia’s, “I promise not to show up again on an empty stomach.”

“Good.” Pia resumed her gentle ministrations and, as she carefully massaged and manipulated the stiff joints in KT’s fingers, continued the interrupted conversation. “My mother was a society debutante, I guess you could say. She’d just had her coming-out party the summer she arrived here.” Pia laughed. “She always says she hated that party, but was glad she’d gone because it gave her a pretty good idea of the kind of man she didn’t want to marry.”

KT smiled. “I guess your father wasn’t one of those guys.”