“You’ve been here the whole time?”

Pia nodded.

“Why?”

Pia regarded KT curiously. “Because I wanted to be.”

“I don’t understand.”

“Don’t you?” Pia slowly reached out and brushed the back of her fingers over KT’s cheek. “You need to eat a little bit, and then we should get you into the shower.”

KT grimaced. “You’re right about that. I’m disgusting.”

“How do you feel?”

“Pretty ragged.” KT tried to take the bowl of soup that Pia extended to her but was unable to manage it. Her left hand was useless and her right hand shook so badly she couldn’t even hold the spoon. With a sigh, she dropped her head back against the pillows. “I’m not really hungry.”

“Yes, you are. Besides, you need to get something into your system after everything you’ve tossed out in the last eighteen hours.” Pia spooned up a small amount of soup and brought it to KT’s lips. “Come on.”

Obediently, KT sipped. After a few minutes, she lay back, exhausted. “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.” Pia set the bowl aside. “Think you can make it to the shower?”

“Probably. Yeah.” KT rested her fingers on Pia’s knee. “I don’t want you to stay any longer. I appreciate everything you’ve done. Another twenty-four hours and the worst will be over.”

“It’s going to be a difficult twenty-four hours.” Pia saw no reason to pretend other than the truth. KT knew what was coming, and she knew that Pia knew. Addiction to pain medication was not that uncommon, especially in patients whose physical injuries required prolonged physical therapy and whose pain level was high for extended periods of time. Fortunately, the withdrawal from such drugs was intense, but short-lived. Thirty-six to forty-eight hours was usually the extent of the severe symptoms, and KT was almost halfway through.

KT was about to say she would be okay when her stomach gave a warning rumble.

“Oh, fuck,” KT muttered as she pushed off the bed, swayed unsteadily for a few seconds, and then lurched into the bathroom to lose the small meal she’d just eaten. She held one hand behind her back to ward off Pia’s assistance. “Stay out there. I don’t want you to see this.”

“KT,” Pia protested gently from the bathroom doorway.

“Just give me a few minutes. I’ll be out as soon as I get cleaned up.”

When Pia finally relented and closed the bathroom door, KT pulled off her clothes and dropped them on the floor. She turned on the shower, staggered into the stall, and leaned against the wall, shivering beneath the hot spray. When she’d managed to wash her hair and soap away twenty-four hours of sickness, she stepped out and brushed her teeth. Finally feeling clean, she reached for the robe that usually hung behind the bathroom door and realized that it was somewhere in the bedroom. It was almost impossible to wrap a towel around her body one-handed, but she finally managed to cover the essentials. When she reentered the bedroom, she saw that Pia had changed the sheets on her bed.

“Thanks,” KT said, heading toward the bed. The slight effort of getting cleaned up had exhausted her.

“Here,” Pia said, lifting up the top sheet so that KT could slip inside. She held out her hand, “Let me have that towel. It’s wet and you can’t get into bed with it.”

KT hesitated, and then realized that there was no point in being modest. Pia had already seen her humiliated and pathetic. Naked was the least of her concerns. She pulled the towel off and held it out to Pia

Carefully, Pia kept her eyes on KT’s face as she took the towel. Nevertheless, she couldn’t help but look down as KT settled onto the bed and tried to get her injured arm into a comfortable position. The quick glimpse of the nude form confirmed what Pia had felt as she’d held KT in her arms. KT was muscular and firm, with subtle curves at her breasts and hips. Her body was every bit as beautiful as her striking face, and Pia knew that the image would stay with her always.

“Try to get some sleep,” Pia said as she placed a pillow beneath KT’s splinted left arm. “This hand has been dependent too much of the time for the last day. Your fingers are swollen. How do they feel?”

“Without the benefit of the Oxycontin, they hurt like hell,” KT confessed. She was too damn tired and too damn sick to pretend she didn’t hurt. “Once my stomach settles down, I can try taking some nonsteroidals.”

“That should help some.” Pia stood and stretched the sore muscles in her back. “I’ve got some ibuprofen at the house. I’ll bring it over for you.”

“Go home now, Pia. I’m going to be all right.”

“I just want to stay until you fall asleep.” You ‘re going to have a difficult night, and I’m not going to be able to sleep worrying about you.

“It’s not”

Both women jumped at the distant sound of a knock on the door.

“I’ll go see who that is,” Pia said.

A minute later, she pulled open the door and came face to face with a very surprised Tory King.

Chapter Nineteen

“Tory!”

“Pia?”

“Uh, hi.” Pia stood in the doorway, uncertain of what to do next. She saw the questioning look in Tory’s eyes, saw her gaze travel from the damp towel that Pia still held in her right hand to the rumpled appearance of her clothing, and saw an uncomfortable expression cross Tory’s face. Although KT hadn’t said so explicitly, Pia had gotten the definite impression that KT did not want anyone at the clinic to know what was wrong. Awkwardly, she asked, “What’s up?”

“I stopped by to see how she’s doing.” Tory knew from personal experience that subterfuge was not something that Pia was very good at, and Pia’s discomfort was apparent. From the look of things, it seemed that she’d just interrupted an intimate moment, and although she didn’t doubt KT’s powers of seduction, she couldn’t quite believe that KT had managed to get Pia into bed. Still, something was obviously going on. Feeling that she needed to explain her presence, although not entirely clear why, she said, “She didn’t look sick yesterday, so I was concerned.”

Pia considered her options, which were few. She could lie and say that KT was asleep and doing fine, or she could let Tory evaluate the situation for herself. Her better judgment suggested the truth, because she feared that KT would need more than a comforting hand before this ordeal was over, and Tory was a physician as well as a friend. She pulled the door wide. “Come on in. She’s in the bedroom.”

“Thanks.”

Pia led Tory to the bedroom. “KT? Tory’s here.”

KT made an effort to sit up, and failing that, tried for a smile.

“Hey. Making house calls now?”

Tory hid her shock as she approached the bed, her clinical eye swiftly taking in KT’s obvious weakness and debilitated state. Considering her fragile physical condition and the fact that Pia had obviously been there all day, it didn’t require much deductive reasoning to conclude that there was more than a stomach virus at work here. She looked from KT to Pia. “What’s going on?”

Pia backed toward the bedroom door. “I’ll leave you two alone.”

“KT?” Tory repeated again as she reached down and rested her hand against KT’s forehead. “You look like hell.”

“Thanks, Vic.”

“Don’t try to put me off,” Tory said sharply. “You’re sick as a dog, and I want to know what’s going on.”

“Would you believe” KT was suddenly taken with another round of severe cramps and began to shiver, barely able to finish her sentence. “A really…bad…hangover?”

“No.”

Shaking violently, KT gasped, “Too much Oxycontin. Time to quit.”

“Like this? Are you crazy?” Tory looked closely at KT’s eyes and then pressed two fingers lightly to her carotid artery. “Your heart rate is at least 120. Are you having any chest pain?”

“No,” KT said with a groan. “Just muscle cramps.”

“When did you last take any kind of medication?”

“I don’t know. About twenty-four hours ago.” Moaning, KT curled on her side. “I think I’m going to vomit again.”

Hurriedly, Tory looked around the room and grabbed the wastepaper basket just in time. Supporting KT’s head while she vomited, she called over her shoulder, “Pia!”

Pia appeared almost instantly. “Oh, no. Again?”

“How long as this been going on?” Tory asked abruptly.

“Since last night.”

“Why didn’t you call me?” Tory eased KT back against the pillows, watching her rapid breathing with a frown. “She doesn’t have to suffer like this.”

“She didn’t want me to call.”

Tory whipped her head around, her eyes flashing, “Do you really think she’s capable of making that decision?”

Before Pia could answer, KT grasped Tory’s hand with unexpected strength. Although her voice was weak, her tone was forceful. “Tory, let it go. It’s not Pia’s fault.”

“God damn it, KT.” Tory covered KT’s ringers with her own, rubbing the back of KT’s hand with surprising gentleness. “You are so frigging hardheaded.”

A faint smile curled KT’s lips as she took a shuddering breath. “Yeah. You just noticed?”

“I’m going to go back to the clinic for some Catapres and a couple of bags of saline,” she said, turning to Pia. “Can you stay with her until I get back?”

“I wasn’t planning on leaving,” Pia replied evenly.

“I’m sorry for jumping on you.” Tory met Pia’s eyes. “I don’t know how it’s possible, but for a few seconds there, I forgot just how stubborn she is.”

“That’s putting it mildly.” Pia glanced at KT tenderly, unaware of just how revealing her expression was, before giving Tory a smile. “It’s okay. I’m glad you’re here. Maybe between the two of us we can handle her.”

“Maybe. Just.” As Tory passed Pia, she grasped her hand and squeezed lightly. “I’m honestly sorry.”

Pia shook her head, her voice low as she walked out into the hall with Tory. “It’s really all right. It’s hard, seeing her like this.”

“Are you okay?” Tory asked gently. For the first time, she noticed the circles under Pia’s eyes.

“Yeah.” She pushed a hand through her hair and shook some of the tension out of her shoulders before leaning back against the wall. “I’ve been watching her carefully. I would have called you if things had gotten worse. She’s just…so proud, you know?”

The corner of Tory’s mouth lifted into a weary smile. Another barrier that she had tightly constructed around her heart to bury the memory of what she had once felt for KT fell away. Surprisingly, the only thing she now felt was gratefulness that Pia had seen past KT’s facade. “Yes, I know.”

“This is all so terrible for her the damage to her hand, the constant pain, and now this.” Pia’s eyes drifted back to the bedroom. “I just didn’t want to make it any worse.”

Tory realized with a sinking feeling that she had seen KT every day for weeks and hadn’t noticed what she had been going through. Hadn’t really allowed herself to see KT’s struggles or her pain. My God, I missed a drug addiction in my own colleague, A woman I once knew as well as I knew myself. Is that what my anger has done to me?

“You haven’t made anything worse. On the contrary.” Tory slid her arm around Pia’s shoulders and gave her a hug. “I think you being here is just what she needs.”

Pia blushed, suddenly aware that they were discussing Tory’s ex-lover. “I’ll wait until you get back. Then if you want to stay with her…”

“Actually, Reese is picking Regina up from Kate’s, so I’ve got a little time. I’ll get the things from the clinic, and then we can decide.” She tilted her head and regarded Pia seriously. “Do you need a break?”

“No. I just want to stay with her.” As it was, even being out of the room was making Pia uneasy. What she really wanted to do was climb back onto the bed and hold KT. She didn’t bother to analyze her feelings. She was too raw emotionally to even try. All she knew was what she felt, and what made her feel right was having KT in her arms.

“Then you should stay. You can always call me if there seems to be a problem. Once she’s hydrated and we counteract some of the adrenergic symptoms with the Catapres, she’ll be more comfortable.”

“I hope so. I can’t stand seeing her like this.”

Tory gave Pia’s hand another squeeze. “Go on back to her. I’ll run over to the clinic and get what we need to make her comfortable.”

“Thanks,” KT said quietly as Tory finished taping the intravenous line to her right arm. She looked down and lifted both hands an inch off the bed before letting them fall back. “Well, now I’m well and truly fucked.”

“As soon as a second bag goes in, Pia can put a cap on this IV line, and you’ll be able to use your arm a little bit more freely.” Tory began removing the detritus left on the bed from the containers that had housed the IV tubing, intravenous catheters, and the bag of normal saline. She stopped moving when KT caught her wrist.