sex, grade inflation, vandalism—would have been blown up and distorted, told and told again until they reached cinematic proportions. What did Amy Feldman think of Brenda now? Would she pass the screenplay on to her father, or would she throw it into a Dumpster? Or burn it, in effigy, on Champion’s campus?
Brenda typed until her back was stiff, her butt sore from sitting.
Occasional y, the other people in the cottage checked on her. People passing to and from the outdoor shower, for example.
TED
How’s it going?
BRENDA
Fine.
BRENDA stops, looks up. She is eager to get some of her eggs out of Amy Feldman’s basket.
Hey, do you have any clients who are in the movie business?
TED
Movie business?
BRENDA
Yeah. Or made-for-TV movies?
One hundred and twenty-five thousand dollars, BRENDA thinks. She can’t be picky about medium.
Or just regular TV?
TED
Mmmmmmmmm. I don’t think so.
VICKI
(touching BRENDA’s back)
How’s it going?
BRENDA
Fine.
VICKI
Can I bring you anything?
BRENDA
Yeah, how about a pile of money?
BRENDA clamps her mouth closed. She hadn’t said anything to anybody about the money and she won’t until she is desperate. She isn’t desperate now; she is working.
VICKI
(laughing, as though what BRENDA said was funny)
How about a sandwich? I can make tuna.
BRENDA
No thanks.
VICKI
You have to eat.
BRENDA
You’re right, Mom. How about a bag of Oreos?
MELANIE
How’s it going?
BRENDA
BRENDA stops typing and looks up.
Fine. How’s it going with you?
There was the outlandish assertion by DIDI-from-admitting on the day of VICKI’s CT scan—BRENDA, unbeknownst to anyone, had cal ed the hospital administration to complain—and ever since then, BRENDA had been watching MELANIE closely, especial y when JOSH was around. But she saw no interaction between them. They barely spoke. When MELANIE walked into a room, JOSH walked out.
MELANIE
(taken aback by BRENDA’s sudden interest)
I’m okay.
MELANIE’s voice is melancholy. It harkens back to their first days in the house, when MELANIE moped al the time. There had been some recent phone cal s from Peter, but MELANIE spoke in a clipped tone and ended the cal s quickly.
I’m bummed about the end of summer.
BRENDA
Wel , that makes two of us.
MELANIE
What are you doing after we leave?
BRENDA
(focusing on the computer screen, ruing her decision to engage MELANIE in this much conversation) That remains to be seen. How about you?
MELANIE
Ditto.
There is a long pause, during which BRENDA fears MELANIE is trying to read the computer screen.
MELANIE burps.
MELANIE
Sorry, I have heartburn.
BRENDA
You’re on your own there.
JOSH
How’s it going?
BRENDA
Fine.
JOSH
Do you think you’l sel it?
BRENDA
I have no idea. I hope so.
BRENDA thinks, Hell, it can’t hurt.
You don’t know anyone in the business, do you?
JOSH
Wel , there’s Chas Gorda, my creative-writing professor at Middlebury. The writer-in-residence, actual y. He had his novel, Talk, made into a film back in 1989. He might know somebody. I could ask him when I go back.
BRENDA
Would you? That would be great.
JOSH
Sure.
BRENDA
When do you go back?
JOSH
Two weeks.
BRENDA
Are you looking forward to it?
JOSH
(staring into the cottage, where—by chance?—MELANIE sits at the kitchen table reading the Boston Globe) I guess so. I don’t know.
BRENDA
(thinking, Horrible Didi was right. Something is going on between them. Something the rest of us were too self-absorbed to notice.) BRENDA smiles kindly at JOSH, remembering back to when he lent her the quarter at the hospital, remembering back to when they kissed in the front yard.
Maybe someday I’l be adapting one of your novels.
JOSH
(looking at BRENDA but diverted by something—someone?—inside the cottage)
You never know.
BLAINE
(eating a red Popsicle)
Popsicle juice drips down BLAINE’s chin in a good approximation of blood.
What are you doing?
BRENDA
Working.
BLAINE
On Dad’s computer?
BRENDA
Yep.
BLAINE
Are you working on your movie?
BRENDA
Mmmhmm.
BLAINE
Is it like Scooby Doo?
BRENDA
No, it’s nothing like Scooby Doo. Remember I said it’s a movie for grown-ups?
BLAINE reaches out to touch the computer.
Ah, ah, don’t touch. Do not touch Dad’s computer with those sticky hands. Go wash.
BLAINE
Wil you play Chutes and Ladders with me?
BRENDA
I can’t now, Blaine. I’m working.
BLAINE
When you take a break, wil you play?
BRENDA
When I take a break, yes.
BLAINE
When’s that—
BRENDA
I don’t know. Now, please . . .
BRENDA checks the cottage. She wonders, Where’s Josh? Where’s Vicki? Where’s Ted?
Auntie Brenda has to work.
BLAINE
How come?
BRENDA
Because. (in a whisper) I have to make money.
Brenda finished typing in the screenplay for The Innocent Impostor on the third day, in the middle of the night. She was sitting on the sofa with Ted’s computer resting on Aunt Liv’s dainty coffee table. There was a breeze coming in through the back screen door. ’Sconset was quiet except for the crickets and an occasional dog bark. Brenda typed in the last page, the scene where Calvin Dare, as an older gentleman with his career behind him, enjoys an afternoon of quiet reflection with his wife, Emily. Dare and Emily look on as their grandchildren frolic in the yard. The scene was taken directly from the last page of the book; it was the scene that gave critics pause. Was it right for Dare to enjoy such bliss when he had al but coopted the life of the man that he had al but kil ed? Brenda meant to include some kind of questioning imagery in her cinematography notes—
but for now, dialogue and direction were . . . DONE! She stared at the computer screen. Fade out. Rol credits. DONE!
Brenda pushed Save and backed up the screenplay on a disc. It was twenty minutes after one, and she was wide awake. She poured herself a glass of wine and drank it sitting at the kitchen table. Her body ached from so much sitting; her eyes were tired. She cracked her knuckles. DONE!
Euphoria like she thought she would never feel again. This was the way she’d felt when she finished her dissertation; this was the way she’d felt when she finished grading final papers her first semester at Champion. Job completed, job wel done. Tomorrow she would worry about what to do with the damn thing; for tonight, she would just savor the euphoria.
She finished the glass of wine and poured herself another. The house was fil ed with the sounds of people breathing, or so Brenda imagined.
She thought about Walsh—then blocked him out. She found her cel phone on the side table and carried it and her wine out to the back deck. She scrol ed through her numbers.
What was she doing? It was quarter to two; any normal person would be asleep. But Brenda couldn’t afford to let that matter. She was excited about her screenplay now; in the morning, when it was printed out, she might find flaws, she might question its big-screen potential.
She dialed Amy Feldman’s number and tried, in the split second of silence before their lines connected, to remember everything she could about Amy Feldman. Brenda had now spent enough time with Blaine to know that Amy Feldman looked like Velma from Scooby-Doo. She was short and squat with a grandmotherly bosom, she had short hair, she wore square glasses with dark frames, and she kept the glasses on a chain so that, when the glasses were off, they rested on her bosom. Amy Feldman was like an intel ectual beatnik from forty years ago, and this, somehow, translated into her being cool, or if not cool, then at least accepted. The other girl-women in the class had seemed to like her; they’d listened respectful y when she spoke, though this may have been because of her father, Ron Feldman. Brenda’s class had been, she saw now, a class of aspiring actresses, playing themselves up not only for Walsh but for Amy Feldman. Amy Feldman was majoring in Japanese. What was she doing this summer? Was she traveling in Japan? Had she stayed in New York? If only Brenda had known that she would be fired, and sued, and then in the hole to the tune of a hundred and twenty-five thousand dol ars and hence dependent on the proceeds of a screenplay she had to sel , she would have paid more attention to Amy Feldman. As it was, what stuck in her mind were the glasses on a chain and the Japanese.
Like a thunderbolt Brenda recal ed overhearing Amy Feldman talking to Walsh about sushi, a place cal ed Uni in the Vil age that absolutely no one knows about, that was undiscovered and completely authentic. Just like the sushi they have on Asakusa Road in Tokyo.
You’ve been to Tokyo? Walsh, fel ow world traveler, had asked.
I was with my father, Amy said, in a voice that was meant to impress. On location.
Amy Feldman, quite possibly, had been in love with Walsh, too.
Three rings, four rings, five rings. Brenda wondered if she was cal ing Amy Feldman’s apartment or her cel phone. If she got voice mail, would she leave a message? A message was too hard to ignore, Brenda decided; Brenda wanted to connect with Amy Feldman in person.
“Yes?”
Someone answered! The voice was male, older, and overly pleasant, as if to say, in the nicest possible way, Why am I answering the phone at two o’clock in the morning?
“Hi,” Brenda said, in what she hoped was a sprightly voice, to let this person know that she was neither drunk nor an obscene cal er. “Is Amy there?”
“Amy?” the man said. Then, in a curious voice to someone else, he asked, “Is Amy here?” The other voice, female, murmured a response. The man said, “Yes. She’s here, but she’s sleeping.”
“Right,” Brenda said. Hold it together, Brenda thought. This was not Amy Feldman’s cel phone, nor was it her apartment (insofar as Brenda meant “apartment”: some col ege dive with roommates, laundry in the basement, and a hot plate). This was Amy Feldman’s home number, her family home, probably some extremely fine pad overlooking Central Park. Amy Feldman lives at home, Brenda thought. And I am now talking to her father, Ron Feldman.
Ron Feldman said, “Would you like me to leave Amy a message?” Again, his voice was so pleasant that there was no possibility he was sincere.
“This is Brenda Lyndon cal ing,” Brenda said. She was speaking very quietly because she didn’t want to wake up anybody in the cottage. “Doctor Lyndon? I was Amy’s professor last semester at Champion.”
“Ohhhh-kay,” Ron Feldman said. “Do I have to write this down or can you cal back in the morning?” It was clear he would prefer the latter, but Brenda was as shameless as a telemarketer. She had to keep him on the phone!
“Would you mind terribly writing it down?” she asked.
“Al right,” he said. “Let me find a pen.” To his wife, he said, “Hon, a pen. It’s a professor of Amy’s from Champion . . . I have no goddamned idea why.” To Brenda he said, “What’s your name again?”
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