When she said nothing, Beck turned her by the shoulders. She felt his hands moving on the back of her dress, slowly exposing her skin, her laces, and her shift to him.

“Let me.” He knelt before her and drew off her half boots, then untied her garters and rolled down her stockings. Sara’s hands of their own accord winnowed through his hair then slipped over his jaw before he sat back.

He had shaved recently—for her?

Her mind started adding to that earlier list: the feel of his hair in her fingers, the rhythm of his breathing as he grew aroused, the skim of his hands anywhere on her person.

“Now up.” Beck drew her to her feet, slid her dress up, her shift and stays off, and just like that, Sara was naked before him in the candlelight. His gaze traveled over her slowly, his expression starkly reverent. He dropped the pretty nightgown over her head and stepped back.

When Sara met his gaze, he spun one finger in a slow twirl, and Sara obediently turned in a circle. The nightgown made her feel feminine and graceful, billowing softly with her movement then settling against her skin. When she met Beck’s gaze again, his hands were on his falls, one eyebrow arched in question.

The kind thing to do, the decent, appropriate, honorable thing to do, would be to kiss his cheek, thank him sincerely, and get the devil back to the safety of her bed.

The lonely, cold, empty safety of her bed.

Fourteen

“My turn, sir.” Sara saw approval, anticipation, and all manner of lusty things in Beck’s eyes. Her fingers shook slightly as she slid his sleeve buttons from his cuffs, and shook even more as she undid his falls. When she knelt to take off his slipper boots, his hand glanced over her hair, and she had to concentrate, focus her mind, and think to draw her next breath.

She rose and leaned in, pressing her forehead to Beck’s sternum. “I shouldn’t let myself do this.”

“You shouldn’t deny yourself this,” he countered, stroking his hand down her braid. “Not tonight. With me, not ever.”

Ever with Beckman could end any day, given how his father was failing. On the strength of that thought, Sara started on his shirt buttons. When she’d worked her way up from the bottom button, she parted the linen and pushed it to the side so she could lay her cheek over his heart. His hands settled on her shoulders, kneading gently, and she felt the tension of the day ebbing.

Beck kissed her cheek. “Enough thinking. I believe you were in the process of undressing me.”

She pressed a kiss to his bare chest and slipped the shirt off, then ran a fingertip down his sternum. “In just the few weeks you’ve been here, you’ve put on muscle, and you were in fine condition when you arrived.”

Beck drew in a breath at her touch. “As long as you like what you see, I won’t complain about resembling a stevedore.”

Sara wanted to linger, to inspect and tease and play at sophisticated games having to do with pleasure and anticipation.

More than any of that, though, she wanted to kiss him. She stepped in close, wrapped a hand around the back of his neck, and stretched up on her toes to touch her lips to his. His arms closed around her in earnest, and he sealed his mouth to hers with a growl.

“Breeches,” Sara whispered against his neck a moment later. “Have to get you out of them.”

He took her hands and set them on his waist, but didn’t stop the progress of his lips over her eyes, cheeks, chin, and brow. Rather than look down, Sara found his waistband and pushed his clothes off him. He stepped back only long enough to free himself from them altogether then swooped in to resume kissing her.

“Bed,” Sara reminded him.

Beck scooped her up, tossed her onto the bed, then climbed in behind her. “God above, how I’ve missed you.”

Sara did not want to talk with him, or rather, she wanted to talk too badly, to lay her burdens across his muscular shoulders. Beckman would accept those burdens—he was a man in the habit of accepting burdens—but he’d want answers first.

Sara lay back and lifted her knees, feet spread on the bed.

“Don’t make me wait, Beckman.”

* * *

A man who’d traveled to many a foreign port developed both an ability to observe his environs and an instinct for when something, some small detail was out of place. Beck had learned to listen to that instinct.

A nervous horse could signal that ambush lay around the bend of a sleepy provincial road. A serving girl a little too friendly might be a hint that the fancy English gentleman’s wine had been drugged.

Sara’s responses, hesitant, then eager, and now nearly desperate, were setting off an indistinct alarm in Beck’s mind. She hadn’t explained two weeks of apparent indifference, hadn’t apologized for it, hadn’t assured him there would be no more of the same. She hadn’t made any reference whatsoever to his failed proposal either—though he knew damn well she hadn’t taken it as a jest.

Those silences on her part should matter, though Beck’s body wanted them to matter later. Sara brushed her fingers up his erection, sending a cannonade of pleasure over the deck of Beck’s thinking brain. She took him in her hand, then, a broadside to his reason, and tried to tug him closer to her body.

He resisted. “Tell me you missed me.”

“I’ve missed you, Beckman Sylvanus Haddonfield,” Sara whispered near his ear. “I missed the feel of you.” She tugged on him again. “In my hands, in my body. I missed the scent of you, the taste of you. I missed the feel of your hands on me, missed the sound of your voice in the dark.”

He needed desperately to ask her why, if she’d missed him, she’d held herself at such a distance and not even considered his proposal.

He needed more desperately to join with her again. She undulated against him, a bodily plea for consummation that echoed his own dearest desire. Her hands ran over his back, hips, and buttocks while her teeth scraped up his neck.

“Please.” Sara arched up and hugged him to her.

“Easy,” Beck cautioned. “No rush.”

“Want you.”

Love now, talk later. “I’m right here, love.” He gave her the first increment of penetration, then stilled and waited for her body to accommodate him. When her breathing slowed and he felt her sigh softly against his neck, he let himself glide another half inch deeper into the glory of her heat.

“You.” Sara kissed the side of his neck, and her body relaxed further, her trust in him manifest in her willingness to give him unilateral control of this most precious intimacy. He gave a slow hitch of his hips and gained another half inch, then another.

He advanced and waited, advanced and waited, his arousal a steady burning in his whole body. Even so, he could spend an eternity just joining his body to Sara’s and know no frustration; it felt that right to be making love with her.

When he was hilted inside her, he went completely still and gathered her against him. To have this closeness with Sara was sweet, dear, and more overwhelmingly precious than anything Beck could recall. He tried to find a name for what he felt, for the sense of being in the one place, with the one person, he was supposed to be.

Homecoming.

The term settled in his mind, and he began to move in her. Slow, steady thrusts that had Sara groaning softly beneath him and undulating in counterpoint to him. He plied her with monumental patience and self-restraint, bringing her to orgasm easily then letting her recover while he barely moved. When she’d found her balance, he eased her up again, then let her recover once more.

“I’m being greedy.” Sara brushed his hair back from his forehead and stretched beneath him. “We both need our rest.”

Beck nuzzled her shoulder. “Are you complaining? Are you suggesting I’ve kept you awake, Sara Hunt?” Though he had, and she needed her rest.

“I’ve kept you awake, but I feel boneless now, Beck. Light and warm and…”

“And…?”

“Happy,” Sara conceded. “It makes no sense, but I feel happy.”

He kissed her cheek and wondered why happiness in the arms of a lover should make no sense. “I will endeavor to make you happier still.”

The tenor of his lovemaking shifted, became more… serious.

“Beck…” In her breathless whisper, Beck felt Sara’s body gathering for yet another bout of pleasuring. “I’m content, beyond content. More would be too much… Beckman?”

“Hush.” He levered up on his arms and gazed down, frankly staring at the place where their bodies joined. “I say when it’s too much, Sara. Trust me.”

He picked up the tempo by increments, watching her face in the glow of the candles, then watching the thick, glistening length of his cock sinking into her heat.

“Beck…” She arched up and wrapped her arms around his neck. He capitulated this time, folding down over her, thrusting into her with banked force.

“Too much…”

Never too much, not with her. Beck drove himself into her, even when her body seized around him, even when she dug her nails into his back and moaned against his shoulder. Her contractions became deeper and stronger; then she fisted around him in one interminable spasm that sent him over the edge.

Beck felt his orgasm start in that drawing-up sensation at the base of his spine; then pleasure swamped him, running right up his center and off into the infinite reaches of his body. He heard someone groan—him?—and bucked and throbbed as his seed left him, heard another groan as he tried to draw in air to sustain him while the pleasure built and built.

It didn’t end, it just… diffused, becoming more and more softly focused until every particle of him was light and warm and… happy.

God, yes, he was happy.

“Don’t move.” Sara patted his buttocks, and that made him happy too, a little stroking caress Beck felt all over.

“Can’t move,” he murmured against her shoulder. “Not yet.”

“Good.”

The infernal woman found other ways to touch him. Ran her tongue along his neck, drew her toe up his calf, and nuzzled his ear, but they were little touches, the gestures a woman thoroughly wrung out by passion could offer.

“I’m crushing you.”

“I love the weight of you. It’s comforting, when my body feels so overcome it might float away.”

He didn’t believe that, not when there was fifteen stone of him comforting her like so much filleted mackerel. Sending up a sincere prayer for strength first, Beck levered up on his forearms. “You all right?”

Sara brushed his hair back. “You ask me that when you’ve pleasured me witless. I am fine. Witless, but fine.”

“Good.” He kissed her nose and carefully extricated himself from her body. “I’m fine too. Don’t move.”

“As if I could.” Sara lay on her back, knees bent, gaze on him as he crossed to the hearth.

He scrubbed himself off briskly, taking in the sight of her sprawled without a lick of modesty—or worry—then did a much more careful job with her.

Sara watched him as he hung the cloth over the edge of the basin. “Next time, I will tend to this washing-up business.”

So there was to be a next time?

Beck blew out all but one candle and crawled over the mattress to cover her again with his body. “Next time, I will pleasure you so witless you won’t be able to speak, much less move when we’re through.”

He braced over her, tucking her face against his collarbone and laying his cheek on her crown. “You’re truly fine? I become enthusiastic at times.”

“You become…” Sara kissed his throat. “Breathtaking, spectacular, unbelievable. You truly ought to be the subject of a royal proclamation.”

He rolled them so Sara was atop him.

“Maybe I won’t pleasure you out of your speech.” Beck buried his fingers in a fistful of her hair. “You spout such flatteries, and a man needs to hear them sometimes. Particularly when the woman in his arms is so very breathtaking herself when she’s about her pleasuring.”

And when she’s not.

“Ah, Beck…” Sara tucked herself against his chest. “You are the sweetest man, the most dear, and the most dangerous.”

Sweet and dear were flattering. When he’d unplaited her braid and indulged himself with a long session of stroking her hair, Beck fell asleep wondering if being dangerous in Sara’s mind was really a good thing.

He came awake slowly, convinced Heifer had found his way to the bed and was flicking his tail over Beck’s cheek. When his eyes opened, though, the single guttering candle revealed North’s saturnine features as he used a lock of Sara’s hair to brush against Beck’s nose.