"You knew from the beginning, both of you," Zenobia said.

"I knew. Bab suspected, although she hoped her suspicions would come to naught. Once we had talked we both understood the truth of the matter."

"Does he know?"

"No," Longinus said. "I thought it best he did not."

"You thought it best?" Her voice was chilly, but he was not intimidated.

"What happened was the result of your shock over the king's death; and then your mind blocked out the incident. I could not tell you the truth of the matter for fear of endangering your health or that of the child. You are Queen of Palmyra. It is what you were born for, your destiny! I do not know if he can readily accept that if you become lovers."

"It was not your decision to make!" Zenobia said furiously.

"You could not make it!" he countered. "I but sought to protect you and the young king! Would you really give this all up simply to lie beneath your lover? I do not think so, Majesty. You may love him, but first and foremost you are Zenobia, Queen of Palmyra."

"Can I not have both?" Her eyes were fast filling with tears.

"That depends on Marcus Britainus, Majesty. You, I know, can both love and rule. It is he who must love you despite the fact you are the queen. I do not think it will be easy for him, Majesty."

"He must know that Mavia is his daughter," Zenobia said.

"Mavia?" they both exclaimed.

"My daughter," was the queen's reply. "I have decided to call her Mavia."

"Is it really necessary to tell him?" Cassius Longinus looked distressed.

"Oh, Longinus, you fret too much," Zenobia said softly. "I cannot keep such a thing from him, and besides, she looks like him. Her hair is reddish, and her eyes quite blue."

"All babies have blue eyes," Longinus said hopefully.

"Not this color blue. Mavia's eyes are the same blue as her father's, even to the same expression."

"He cannot publicly acknowledge her. Even now there are yet those who would discredit you, and remove you from the regency."

"I am sure that Marcus will be as anxious as we all are to protect Mavia, Longinus." She turned to old Bab. "Is Marcus Britainus within the palace tonight?"

"Aye, my baby. He is even now sleeping in his apartments."

"Fetch him secretly, Bab. When he is safely here you must bring my daughter to me."

"I will go," the old woman said, and hurried out.

"What do you plan?" Longinus asked.

"He must acknowledge her as his child before you and Bab. If anything should ever happen to me then Marcus Britainus must see to his daughter in my stead. Surely you approve?"

Longinus nodded. "You are wise, Majesty."

"Longinus, you are my best friend! What should I do without you?"

"You will never have reason to wonder, Majesty," he said fervently. "I will ever serve you!"

The chamber door opened to admit Marcus Britainus. It was obvious that he had come quickly, for he wore only a short tunica interior. His eyes sought hers, and she said quietly, "Leave us, Longinus. Wait outside with Bab. I shall call you when I want you."

Longinus left without even a backward glance, and hearing the door close behind him, Marcus slowly approached the bed where Zenobia lay propped up by several pillows. His eyes never left her face, and his heart leapt with hope when he heard her say in a soft voice, "I remember, Marcus. I remember all."

He didn't know what to say, and so she patted the bed, encouraging him to sit by her. "I remember," she repeated, "and I regret nothing."

"Then my prayers are answered, beloved," he said.

"The child is yours."

"What?!” His face was a dual mask of shocked surprise and incredulous delight. "How?"

She bit her lip in amusement. "Don't you know?" she teased him lightly.

"I mean, how can you be sure?"

"I had not been with Odenathus in many months, my darling. Mavia, for that is what I have chosen to call our daughter, was conceived on the night of Odenathus's death. You cannot, of course, publicly claim her, Marcus. My enemies would use such knowledge to destroy my dynasty, and I cannot, nay, I will not allow that to happen! Will you, however, in the presence of my faithful Bab and my good Longinus, accept her as a true Roman father would?"

He heard both the queen and the woman in the request. A daughter. He was the father of a daughter! "I will acknowledge her, beloved," he said.

"Thank you, Marcus," she answered him. "I know it will not be easy for you, for everyone will believe her to be Odenathus's child."

"May I see her?"

"Only if you will kiss me, Marcus Britainus. You see, I am really a terrible woman, for I will exact a penalty from you for what should be your right."

A slow smile lit his features, crinkling the corners of his deep blue eyes. A large hand cupped her head, while the fingers of his other hand tenderly re-explored her face. She sat very still as he moved over her eyelids, down the bridge of her nose, across her high cheekbones, and gently touched her petal-soft lips. As he did she kissed his fingertips. Then his head descended to cover her mouth with his own. The sweetness that flowed between them brought tears to her eyes. Feeling the wetness on her cheeks, he raised his head and gazed deeply into her eyes.

"Beloved, why do you weep?"

"Oh, Marcus, haven't you ever known a woman to weep from pure joy? I am so happy!"

"Do you love me, Zenobia?"

"Yes," she said simply, and without hesitation. "I love you."

"Let me see our daughter," he said, and she called to old Bab and to Longinus, who re-entered the room. In her arms Bab carried the sleeping infant, whom she laid at Marcus's feet. Immediately he took the baby up into his arms, and by that simple act acknowledged Mavia as his own. Whatever happened now the baby girl was admitted to all the rights and privileges of membership in a Roman family. No one, however, should ever know this, for Mavia would be believed Odenathus's posthumous daughter, and Princess of Palmyra.

Marcus Britainus looked down at his child, and his face softened. "She is beautiful," he said softly so as not to awaken her. He almost trembled so great was his emotion. This tiny bit of humanity was his daughter; created by the gods as proof of his love for Zenobia. He looked up from the child and at its mother. "Marry me," he said quietly. "Your period of mourning is almost over. We love each other."

"I cannot," she said quietly. "I am Queen of Palmyra, and if we married then we should endanger Vaba's monarchy. If I remained regent there would be those who would claim that you-Rome-influenced me against Palmyran interests. More likely, however, would be my removal by the Council of Ten from the regency. I cannot trust anyone else to guide the city's destiny for my son."

"And when Vaba is a man, Zenobia? Will you then release the reins of power to him and live for yourself?"

"Do not quarrel with me, my love," she said, avoiding his question. "Are you not my husband in all but the formal sense? You love me, I love you, and we have a child."

He looked at her, and she could see the pain, the hurt, the anger, the resentment, and the resignation all swirling about in his eyes. "So, I am to be known as the queen's lover instead of the queen's husband," he said softly.

"It matters not," she answered him as softly, "if I am your legal wife, for even if I were you should still be my lover, Marcus. Is it so terrible a thing?"

Longinus had been right, Marcus thought bitterly. The woman he loved put her duty above all. He could not have her to wife, nor could he have his own child. Still, he loved Zenobia, and if having her meant swallowing his own male pride then swallow it he would. When he thought on it he realized that her attitude to duty was actually no different from his own. "Am I your lover?" he asked.

"You will be," she said with certainty, looking directly at him.

He felt a chill of desire sweep over him. "When?" he demanded, the smile returning to his eyes and once more crinkling the corners.

"You must give me time to recover from Mavia's birth, my darling."

As if recognizing her name, the infant opened her eyes and looked up at the great man who held her. Making small noises, she instantly attracted his attention, and looking down again on his daughter, Marcus was enchanted. Gently he touched her pink cheek, and Mavia turned her head, her small bud of a mouth opening.

"Give her to me," Zenobia said. "She is already hungry. Longinus, go back to bed. We will speak in the morning. Bab, do you mind waiting in the antechamber until Mavia is ready to return to her cradle?" Reaching out for her daughter, Zenobia put her to her plump breast, not even seeing Longinus and Bab leaving. At first the baby was not certain of what to do, but the queen, all mother now, carefully forced her nipple into the baby's mouth, and pressed gently to expel some of the clear fluid already flowing from her breasts. The second the baby tasted the nourishment, instinct took over and she began to suck, tentatively at first, more vigorously as she met with continued success and became surer.

Marcus watched, fascinated. He was enchanted by the sweetly maternal picture Zenobia presented; and yet at the same time he felt a strong tug of hot desire watching the child as she nursed. In the months since the infant's conception he had found himself unable to enjoy the beautiful and skilled whores for which Palmyra was famous, and finally had stopped trying. Now celibate for many months, he watched as his daughter suckled on his beloved's plump golden breasts, and he found himself consumed by a lust that had become highly visible beneath his short interior tunic.

Transferring the baby from one breast to the other, Zenobia saw his state. "Oh, my darling," she sympathized, "I will send a slave girl to your bed."

"No!" he almost shouted through gritted teeth, and the baby started, giving a little hiccough before settling back down again to nurse. "I cannot… I mean I don't want anyone else but you."

"Are you telling me that there has been no one since that night?"

"No one," he said.

"Oh, Marcus!" The baby cradled in one arm, she reached out the other to take his hand in hers, and they stayed thus bound together until Mavia, sated at last, fell asleep against her mother's breast.

"If I were just a woman," Zenobia said quietly, "I should be so proud to be your wife. I could not say that while Longinus was in the room, for he would fret so. You know what he is like, my darling."

"We could wed in secret," he suggested.

"Marcus, there will come a day when I will marry you if you still want me. When that day comes it will be done with much pomp and public show; and you will escort me through the streets of Palmyra to your house, as befits an honest man. I will be your wife for all the world to see, and I shall not be ashamed. Until that time we will be lovers, and I shall not be ashamed of that, either. For now my duty is to the memory of Odenathus Septimius, his son-my son-Vaballathus, boy king of this city; and to Palmyra itself. I will not shirk my duties, Marcus. It is not my way."


***

In an isolated part of the palace she set aside a private apartment where no one but old Bab and himself were permitted to enter; although he rarely saw the queen's old nurse. It was one large, square, bright and airy room that she transformed into a retreat of sensuality where they might play with each other and be safe from prying eyes.

The floor of the room was made of great blocks of pale-gold marble, carefully fitted so that they appeared to be one piece. Near the entrance was a sunken black marble bathing pool filled with tepid scented water sprayed by the distended male organs of four mischievous gold cupids. To the left was a large, beautifully carved standing cabinet for storage, and beyond that a round table-in fact the very one of African cedar that Zenobia had bought from Marcus many years before-with two rounded backed chairs with carved arms and legs. Bright peacock-blue silk cushions had been placed on each chair.

In the far left corner of the room was a large, square sleeping platform that sat upon a dais set up two steps. An enormous striped mattress made of coral and gold silk, and filled with the finest, purest white lambswool was placed upon the sleeping platform. The dais and the platform had been overlaid with several layers of gold leaf. Upon the mattress were spread peacock-and emerald-colored silk pillows.

On the wall opposite the sleeping platform were seven marble pillars, gold-colored, veined in red, and between them hung sheer silk curtains of palest gold shot through with gold thread, which blew gently in the soft evening breezes. On the coldest days the silk would be replaced by heavy woolen draperies of an earthy gold color.