“All systems go.” Hollis pushed up to a sitting position. “Really, I’m fine. I just got caught by surprise, that’s all.”

“Well, we better put some ice on it.” Honor cupped Hollis’s chin and tilted her face up, studying her intently. “I think you’re going to have a shiner.”

“Oh, that’s ridiculous.” Hollis pushed to her feet and swayed, a little bit dizzy.

“Whoa.” Robin grasped her arm. “You sure you’re okay?”

“Yeah, really, I am.” Hollis felt like an idiot, happy now that Annie wasn’t there. How uncool could she be?

“Well, at least sit in the shade and I’ll get some ice,” Robin said.

“No, I can get it. You have a game to win.” Hollis gave Robin a little push toward the field. “I don’t want everybody on our side to go hungry just because I wasn’t paying attention.”

“If you’re sure,” Robin said.

“I’m sure. Really, I’m fine.” Hollis hurried off the field so the game could continue and spied Callie staring at her with an uncertain expression. She knelt down beside her. “Hi, Callie. I wasn’t watching the game and I got smacked with the ball, but I’m okay.”

“It knocked you down.”

“Yeah, it did.”

“Does it hurt?”

“Well, it stings a little bit, but it’ll be fine. Where’s your mom?”

“She had a baby call last night. I stayed with Suzy and Dan and Gillian and Mark. I came with them.”

“Having fun?”

“Yes. I’m going swimming soon.”

“That’s great.” The wave of disappointment was back, stronger than before. Hollis didn’t know what to make of it. She liked Annie and looked forward to seeing her, but the intensity of her reaction wasn’t like her. “I’m going to go get some ice. You have a good time today, okay?”

“Okay.”

Hollis found an empty lounge chair and, after securing a few ice cubes in a plastic bag, stretched out and pressed the makeshift cold compress to her forehead. It helped with the sting, but not the embarrassment. She couldn’t believe she’d let herself get smacked by the ball. Her head throbbed, but she actually felt pretty good. The exertion had been a welcome switch-up from her usual workout on the bike, and she’d enjoyed being part of the team. She closed her eyes and drifted in the sunshine. When a weight on the lounge signaled someone had settled beside her, she opened her eyes. Annie smiled down at her. Hollis’s heart gave a little jog.

“Hi,” Hollis said.

“Hi yourself.” Annie pushed the cold compress away from Hollis’s forehead and studied her seriously. “Callie told me you got hurt. Are you all right?”

“I’m not really hurt,” Hollis said hastily, dropping the icepack on the grass by the chair. She pushed her damp hair out of her face. “Just a silly accident. Nothing much.”

“Hmm,” Annie said, lightly tracing the bruise on Hollis’s face. “I think you might be understating things. You’ve got a lump on your forehead and your upper eyelid is starting to turn purple.”

Hollis held very still. She didn’t want Annie to stop stroking her. The light caress sent tendrils of heat streaming through her. “All from a friendly backyard game.”

Annie laughed. “I’ve been watching some of that game. If I didn’t know they were all friends, I wouldn’t believe it. Talk about competitive.”

“Well, I guess you have to consider the crowd. Pretty much everybody here is competitive by nature.”

“I’m glad it’s not more serious.” Annie dropped her hand and leaned away. “Have you had anything to eat?”

“I didn’t get around to it before Robin commandeered me to play.”

“I was just about to fix myself and Callie a plate. I’ll get you one too. Anything you can’t eat?”

“No, believe me, anything you bring will be welcome.” Hollis rubbed her stomach. “I’m actually starving.”

“Me too.”

“Callie told me you got called out last night. Were you up all night?”

“Not quite,” Annie said noncommittally. “I got a little sleep this morning.”

“Just another typical Saturday night, then,” Hollis said.

Annie nodded. “I guess you know what that’s like.”

“Oh, absolutely. I can have the quietest week in the world, but as soon as Friday afternoon comes around, it gets busy. Babies just seem to know when the sun goes down, especially if it’s a weekend.”

“You’ve got that right.” Annie stood abruptly. “Well, let me get you that food.”

Hollis watched her wend her way through the crowd to the table, take plates from a stack, and start filling them, quickly and efficiently. No one ever waited on her unless she was home. No one worried if she’d had enough sleep or enough to eat or had a chance to decompress after a big case. She liked things that way and hadn’t missed it. Until now, when Annie reminded her how nice it was to have someone who cared.

Chapter Ten

Annie stared at the plate. She’d piled nine chicken wings onto it without even noticing. Glancing around, relieved no one was watching, she redistributed the wings between the three plates. She’d examined hundreds of patients in her life—women she cared about, women she’d come to love—and she’d never felt anything like the brief brush of her fingers over Hollis’s forehead. Heat as bright as summer lightning had flashed through her hand, up her arm, and struck somewhere around her heart. Her body still pulsed. The dark blue depths of Hollis’s eyes still threatened to pull her under. She was afraid to think of what her reaction meant. Her mind conjured answers, but her emotions, her heart, recoiled from the obvious explanation. She had no experience with something so simple that moved her so much. She’d thought she’d understood passion and desire and love when she’d been with Jeff, and she’d learned the hard way she’d been totally wrong. Now she didn’t trust anything she felt, especially when she had no good reason to feel that way about someone she wasn’t even sure she knew. When she looked at Hollis she saw two women—the one from her past who was tangled up in disillusionment, disappointment, and overwhelming loss, and the other, a stranger she had just met who stirred her in ways that defied common sense. Both Hollises were dangerous, and she vowed to be more careful about crossing boundaries.

“Mommy?” Callie tugged at Annie’s hand. “Are we going to have potato salad? And what about corn? And Jell-O?”

“Jell-O definitely—after dinner.” Annie stroked the red-gold waves that fluttered around Callie’s innocent face. She’d do anything to preserve her trust and faith, even though she knew she couldn’t protect her innocence forever. “And yes—salad and corn too. Come here.” Callie lifted her arms and Annie scooped her up. “Can you reach the big spoon? You put the salad on the plates.”

Callie carefully scooped salad onto the three big red plastic plates.

“Excellent.” Annie set Callie down and finished filling the plates. “Here’s yours.”

“Can I go eat with Mike and Jack and Sandy?”

Annie searched for Callie’s friends. Robin and Linda sat at a big picnic table with a handful of children not far from where Hollis stretched out on the lounge. “Yes, but don’t leave that table. I’ll be right over there with Hollis.”

“Okay.” Callie hurried away, her plate balanced carefully out in front of her.

Annie started toward Hollis, her face warming when she realized Hollis was watching her, a somber, intent expression on her face. Annie felt exposed and didn’t know why. She smiled and put on her sociable face. “I hope you’re as hungry as you said.”

Hollis smiled too, but her eyes held questions. Fleetingly, Annie wondered if Hollis could see through her mask of confidence and polite distance. Everyone else accepted her self-sufficient, self-assured façade so readily. Hollis made her feel naked, as if her innermost thoughts and feelings were displayed on her face like images on a big blinking billboard. She was alternately uncomfortable and attracted to the sensation of being so open. So seen. Searching for something to distract Hollis’s unwavering focus from her, she gestured to the plate. “I went a little overboard.”

“Good.” Hollis sat up straighter and put her legs on either side of the lounge chair, making room for Annie. “I’m starved.”

When Annie sat, she was very nearly in Hollis’s lap, but she couldn’t think of a good way to change position without making it obvious. So she carefully kept her bare knee away from Hollis’s leg, even though Hollis wore jeans and probably wouldn’t notice the glancing contact. She would notice. Just being this close to Hollis had electrified her to the point she feared sparks would dance from her skin.

“I didn’t get us anything to drink,” Annie said, putting her plate on the grass. She had to move. “I’ll go get something now.”

Hollis grasped Annie’s arm. “Stay, it’s my turn to hunt and gather. What would you like? Beer, wine…?”

“Just sparkling water, or if they don’t have that, any kind of diet soda.” Annie’s muscles turned to stone—she couldn’t move now if she’d wanted to. And she didn’t, even though her head screamed Run. Hollis’s fingers were strong and warm. The slight pressure from her fingertips harnessed all the errant electricity racing through Annie’s body and sent it streaking straight to the pit of her stomach. The tingling in her depths blurred her reason, and all she knew was she didn’t want it to end.

“You don’t drink?” Hollis asked, her fingers loosely clasping Annie’s wrist.

“No.” Annie stared at Hollis’s hand. No one had touched her so intimately in years, and Hollis didn’t even know what she was doing. Annie gently drew her arm away. “Or smoke. Although I pretty much indulge in all the other taboos—dancing, music, fornication.”

Hollis regarded her solemnly. “I thought your…sorry, I don’t know the term.”

“Community is good. Or sect.”

“I thought your community was less restrictive than the Amish.”

“In general, yes, but religious communities tend to become isolated, and as they do, they also become more insular. Ours was a community of only a few hundred people, and the elders were very rigid about many things, including gender roles. Women were meant for bearing children and tending to their men’s needs.”

“It must have been frustrating,” Hollis said.

Annie laughed softly, surprised. “That’s the first time anyone’s ever put it that way. I don’t talk about it very much—what’s the point? The few people who know have tried to understand, but most of the time I get the feeling they’re more repulsed. And silently blaming—as if I should have rebelled sooner.”

“I don’t feel that way,” Hollis said. “I can see how much you’ve accomplished, and I can only imagine what it must have been like for someone as bright and outgoing and eager to make a contribution as you to be held back. I’m glad you found your way.”

Annie looked away, her throat tight. If Hollis only knew how badly she’d lost her way, she wouldn’t be so kind. But she didn’t want to tell her of the mistakes she’d made. “I wish I were the person you seem to think I am.”

“What part did I get wrong?” Hollis asked softly.

“I wasn’t strong or smart or even brave. I was naïve, senselessly innocent. And, I’m a little ashamed to admit, overwhelmed by the world when I finally realized how much there was of it.”

“You can’t blame yourself for that. You didn’t have a chance to prepare. Anybody would be off balance.”

“Yes, but most people wouldn’t have lost all sense of reality. I ended up grasping at the first anchor I could find—just to keep my balance. My foolishness, my weakness, could have cost me everything.”

Hollis put her plate aside. “What do you mean?”

Sighing, Annie sought Callie sitting at the table with the other children. She was laughing, a white plastic fork in one hand and a pink tumbler filled with milk in her other. She was bright and joyful and miraculous. “I met a man and thought I was in love.”

Hollis followed Annie’s gaze, saw Callie with the other children. “Callie’s father.”

“Yes,” Annie said, swinging her gaze to Hollis’s. Meeting her eyes directly. “He was one of my teachers.”

Hollis clamped her jaws together, keeping back an oath. She could only imagine how lost Annie must have felt, coming from an environment where she’d had no choices, no exposure to men except in rigidly controlled circumstances. “And you fell in love with him.”

“I thought I had,” Annie said, no bitterness in her tone, only resignation. “I know now what I really felt was need and gratitude—that a man like him would pay attention to someone like me—”

“Someone like you?” Hollis couldn’t keep quiet. “You’re kidding, right? You’re beautiful. You’re bright and warm and sexy. Who wouldn’t be attracted to you?”