Ten dropped his usual charming-guy act, his eyes hardening. “I’ll take that once, Knight, because I think you just figured out how much you fucked up your own life, but don’t try it again. You won’t like the outcome.”

“Knight, you will stand down!” Nigel got between the two of them, his face a bright red. “I told you it was a bad idea.”

“I was trying to protect her.” He couldn’t let Baz have her. He couldn’t allow it. Since Baz seemed determined to take everything Damon gave a damn about, he couldn’t keep Penelope. Baz had killed Jane without a thought, but he would likely torture Penelope. He would make her hurt.

“You protected her by ripping her heart out and stomping all over it in front of everyone?” Ten asked.

“I had to. You don’t understand her. She wouldn’t have left me.” Penelope would have stood by his side no matter what the cost. She was brave and smart, and for some reason, she’d started to love him. He wasn’t a fool. He knew she was attracted to him. He’d used it to his advantage, but it wasn’t until a few moments ago that he realized how deep her feelings went. She’d declared to everyone that Baz couldn’t break them up, that she was here for him.

He believed her.

Which was why he had to let her go.

Ten snorted, his hand rubbing along his jawline. “It didn’t occur to you to talk to her about the situation? To sit her down and give her your logic?”

“She wouldn’t have left me.” She would have found a way. She hadn’t left him in the Tube station despite his direct orders. Baz could have taken her out while she held his unconscious body.

“Well, I doubt she’ll give a damn about you now.” Nigel moved back to his desk. “What a bloody mess. We need her. Do we know how thoroughly compromised we are?”

Ten glared his way but took a seat across from Nigel. “He doesn’t specify which operation he’s targeting, but he mentioned Afghanistan and Pakistan. We have twenty operatives in those countries under various covers. Some of them have been working their way into terrorist cells for years. If we have to pull them, it’s a massive setback.”

“That’s unfortunate.” Damon couldn’t sit. He was too tightly wound. He’d wanted Ten to hit him back, wanted a brutal fight. His hands were still clenched in fists thinking about Penelope sitting out there alone. She’d gone pale. He’d thought for a moment she might faint. “You’re going to have to pull them all. SIS doesn’t negotiate with terrorists.”

“That’s not your call, Knight.” Nigel leaned back. “He’s threatening our operations, too.”

“Do you still think he’s working for the Chinese?” Damon couldn’t resist the gibe. “Do you think the Chinese are behind any of this?”

“I think it doesn’t matter who he’s working for. It could all be a bluff, but after realizing our tech department’s been compromised, I can’t call him on it. I need you to meet with him. You have to figure out what he wants and if it has anything to do with the operation on the boat. Given that he’s planning on meeting you somewhere in Northern Europe, I would say he does have something to do with this whole Nature’s Core mess.”

“He told me he wanted to talk about the operation when he cornered me in the Tube.” And if Baz was involved, then The Collective was involved. How was The Collective involved with an environmental group?

“All the more reason to run the operation as planned,” Nigel explained. “Beyond that, I need you to give me time to figure out what he knows.”

“And when we have everything we need on him?”

Nigel’s eyes narrowed, staring right into his. “Then I need you to kill him.”

Finally someone was talking sense. “Of course.” That was a forgone conclusion. He would make it his life’s mission to see Baz in the ground. “But Penelope is out of this. And I want those photos destroyed.”

His vision had misted over with a red haze of anger when he’d seen the photo Baz had left with his directive. Tell Damon I want to talk to him or this continues. I’ll get him instructions on time and place. And he should bring his whore with him.

The photo had been grainy, a still from a video. The bug on her bag had caught them in the act. Penelope’s legs were spread, his hand on her pussy, her pretty face open. The moment of her orgasm. It was ingrained on his brain. He would very likely die thinking about it. It was their intimate moment, the first time he’d been with her.

And Baz had put it out there for everyone to see. Like it was a porno.

That was what he planned for Penelope. Humiliation and death. He couldn’t allow it to happen. She was more than an asset. She was…

He wasn’t even sure of what he felt. He simply knew that she wasn’t safe around him. His first job was to protect Penelope. Somehow she’d become important.

“She’s going on the op, Knight. Nigel promised my bosses that you would take care of this.” Ten glared Nigel’s way. “Get control of your people. I’m going to talk to Tag, but I fully expect that blonde out there on Knight’s arm when he goes to meet Champion. Losing those agents would set US intelligence back by years.”

“It won’t be a party for us either,” Nigel shot back. “We will take care of it.”

Ten stopped, staring at Damon for a moment. “He screwed the girl over. I doubt she’s going to help us out.”

“She will,” Nigel replied with surety. “She’s been with SIS for a long time. She’ll do her job. Miss Cash is loyal.”

Yes, she was. Which was exactly why he’d had to break with her in a way that would bust her loyalty to him.

She would have walked beside him into hell, and he couldn’t allow that. “She’s not coming with me. I won’t do the job with her. Do you understand me? I will not work with that woman.”

“Is there any way we could find someone who looks like me? I would be willing to spend time with her so she could get my mannerisms down.” Penelope stepped into the room, the folder against her chest as though she thought it was a wall to protect her. “If Mr. Knight won’t deign to work with me, I’ll do whatever I can to help out. I understand how important this is.”

Naturally, she’d heard the worst. And his stupid cock didn’t care that he’d blown their relationship to hell. His idiotic dick just knew she’d walked in the room and called him Mr. Knight in her soft, polite voice, like he was some character out of a bloody Jane Austen novel. He wanted to hear her call him Mr. Knight while he shoved his cock in her arse.

But she wouldn’t let him do that now. Before, he could have taken her in every way it was possible to take a woman. She’d been his from the moment he’d asked her to work with him. That was gone now. He wouldn’t meet another Penelope. He’d met his match, and it was done.

“We can put a blonde wig on someone. She’s right. Someone else would be better.” Anything to keep her far away.

“No. She’s going to stay with you for the duration.” Nigel sighed. “You’re like two children. I have to play the father figure. You will work together. You will play your parts. There will be no substitutions. There’s too much at stake. Penelope, you will not walk away from this operation. You will go on the cruise with Knight and you will aid him both in finding the terrorist and discovering what Champion has to do with all of this.”

She shook those blonde curls he loved to sink his fingers into. “I’ll be what you need.”

So fucking brave. She could have been his. All that strength would have been his had fucking Baz not screwed him over. His fists tightened. His. Fucking his. She belonged to him as no female ever had before and she wouldn’t look at him.

Because he’d burned that bridge, and he knew damn well no one got second chances.

She was far from him. No matter how close, she wouldn’t allow him to touch her. Wouldn’t allow him access to her. She’d spread her legs before and welcomed him. She’d tossed aside her every inhibition for him. She’d been his in every way that had mattered.

Now she wouldn’t look at him and his insides hurt. Baz had shot him but the fact that Penelope wouldn’t look at him was worse.

She stood apart. There was no chair for her. He and Ten were taking them up.

Damon practically leapt out of his seat. She should expect courtesy. From him. From every bloody man in the world. She was a woman. It didn’t matter if the man wasn’t fucking her. She deserved his chair, his protection.

She didn’t move to the seat. It was empty. He felt empty, too.

He wanted to hold her. She’d been so bloody perfect in his arms. She’d fit against him like he’d been missing a piece of himself and he’d finally been made whole.

He’d lost everyone. But just for a moment, he’d thought he would be okay. He would never get over the loss of Penelope Cash. A flash went through him. She was the one. He didn’t believe in love in a tangible sense, but he did think that there were rewards the universe gave out. For surviving, for bravery, for saving those who couldn’t help themselves.

She’d been his prize, and he’d lost her.

Like he’d lost everything else.

“I would like to talk to you alone,” Nigel said. He wasn’t talking to Damon. Bloody hell. An hour ago, it wouldn’t have happened. He would have told Penelope no, and she would have stayed at his side so Nigel would have treated them like a team. Unbreakable.

They were so broken now.

“Of course, sir.” Her words were a brutal monotone. Nothing like her usual lyrical speech. He loved the way she talked. Her ebullience made his heart beat faster, but there was none of it now. Staccato. She spoke in hard rhythms.

“Excellent.” Nigel pulled his chair up. He turned to Damon. “Damon, you will continue with the operation as though nothing has happened. Everything must appear normal. I’ll let you know when we get the information on the meet spot. It will likely be at the last minute so we have absolutely no chance to send in a team.”

He would wait until they stopped in a foreign port and pull them from their assignment. There would be no time for protection. He would be on his own. He would have to shelter her.

He would have to stay with her. Train her. Protect her.

She would have nowhere else to go. How the hell would he keep his hands off her?

Nigel frowned his way. “I believe I explained I need to speak to Miss Cash alone.”

“I would rather stay.” He sent Nigel a look he should recognize. It was his arrogant look. The one that said he would accept nothing less than absolute control. He was in control of Penelope Cash. He’d been her handler. He’d been willing to give up everything for her. A man got one girl. One woman who understood him. One woman who could change his destiny. Penelope was it. And Baz had fucked him.

He didn’t deserve her. He had to find a way to get her to walk away.

“No.” Nigel’s frown told him everything he needed to know. “I want to talk to her on my own. She’ll be with you in a moment.”

Damon stood. He couldn’t humiliate her again. Couldn’t argue his place with her. He’d blown that.

He schooled his expression. “If Penelope wants it, then yes.”

“I do.” A quick comeback.

Fuck. She hated him now. But it was all right. She would have hated him the moment she truly knew him. She would have found out how cursed he was. She didn’t need to be in his life. He would only bring her hurt and sorrow.

It was better this way.

Perhaps Nigel would explain the world to her. She would understand and walk away. Then things would be the way they should.

He nodded her way and he and Ten stood and walked out.

He had no place with her.

* * *

“He’s broken, you know.”

She looked up at Nigel, a bit surprised at his words. “Are you talking about Damon?”

Stupid question. Who else would he be talking about? Damon, who had casually ripped her heart from her chest. Or had it been so casual?

“Do you know how we came to recruit him?”

She shook her head. She wanted to tell him she didn’t care. It didn’t matter to her, but it did. Because he was Damon. He was her love.

He might never return it. She might move on. But he was her first real love. He mattered. She’d sat at her desk and a few things had occurred to her.

Damon was different. He risked his life every day. He was a hero. It didn’t matter that he couldn’t love her. At the end of all of it, she didn’t matter beyond what she was willing to sacrifice. She had her place. Her stupid heart was insignificant. “It doesn’t matter, sir. What do you need of me?”