Grace Burrowes - Ethan: Lord of Scandals

She blinked up at him, but burrowed back into his embrace without saying a word. As her mind calmed and she absorbed the quality of his embrace—sure, uncompromising, and snug—she realized something else: Ethan wasn’t disappointed in her. His words assured her of it, but more fundamentally, so did the quality of his touch.

“Why did you stay away, Ethan? I waited for you to fetch me home, and you didn’t.” She’d been waiting years for somebody to fetch her home, in fact.

He brought her knuckles to his lips for a lingering kiss. “Why didn’t you come home? I waited for you to come to me, and you didn’t.”

Alice nodded, accepting the validity of his point.

“Heathgate asked me if I’d heard what Collins said,” she offered. “I did, but it hardly registered. You seem so… in charge of your own life, not knocking about from one obscure post to another just to hide from your past.”

“Sometimes, we need privacy to get our bearings. We each hid differently, but I was as determined to have my obscurity as you were.”

“Thank goodness for little boys and their games,” Alice said. “They consumed more chocolate in five minutes than I’ve had since leaving Sussex.”

Ethan brushed a kiss to her temple. “They play kidnapping a lot. I’ve decided, because they always vanquish their foes, not to forbid it.”

“They’ve gotten good at it,” Alice observed wryly. “I sit before you, thoroughly kidnapped.”

“And it must be a tiring experience,” Ethan countered, running a finger down her cheek. “Are you resting, Alice?”

“Not well. You?”

He shook his head, his expression grave.

Alice had already, with no dignity whatsoever, told him she missed him, and she didn’t want to leave. Her recent confessions notwithstanding, his recent confessions notwithstanding, she still didn’t know where she stood with him.

Ethan rose and went to the window. “I want to put a question to you.”

“Ask me anything.” She didn’t like that he’d moved away, but framed by the window light, she could see he’d dropped some weight too, and there hadn’t been any fat on him to lose.

“It’s uncomfortable to ask this,” Ethan said, glancing over his shoulder at her. “I’d rather put it off.”

“Ask, Ethan. You put Hart Collins where I needed him to be, and for that, I would grant you any request.”

He turned and frowned at her in earnest.

“That won’t do,” he murmured. “You see, I want to ask you to marry me, and I am not jesting, Alice. I cannot have you marrying me out of some misplaced gratitude, or you’d be better off accepting Argus’s hoof in marriage. He’s the one who sent Collins to his Maker.”

“You want me to marry your horse?” Alice sat on the couch, trying to understand what he was asking, but a buzzing had started up in her ears.

Ethan shook his head. “No, love. I want you to marry me. I want you to belong to me and to the boys and to Tydings. I want…” He sighed and offered her a crooked smile. “I want children with you, little girls who look like you and peer down their noses at all things male and silly. I want babies, and great strapping lads who tease their sisters and drive us to distraction with their noise and ruckus. I want to someday drag my family off to Belle Maison in a parade of carriages and take over every inn we stay at along the way. I want you in my bed every night for the rest of our lives. I want you…”

She still said nothing but watched his mouth as if she could see his words.

“But most of all, Alexandra, I want you to be happy.” Ethan paused and swallowed. “I stayed away because I thought that’s what would make you happy. But you’re here now, and I don’t… I can’t… Don’t go, Alice. I’ll never bother you again. Please, just… don’t go.”

He turned his back, leaving Alice bereft of the truths in his eyes. He’d no sooner braced his hands on the windowsill than a missile pounded into his back in the form of a silent, fierce Alice, intent on getting her arms around him.

“I won’t go,” she said, holding him tightly. “And you won’t send me away.”

“Never.” Ethan turned and caught her to him. “Not ever. You belong to us, Alice, and I desperately want us to belong to you.”

“You do.” Alice laughed a little through her tears. “Oh, Ethan, you do. You and Joshua and Jeremiah and their ponies and Waltzer and Argus and Tydings and all of it. You’re mine, and I will never let you go.”

His chin came to rest on her crown, and they stood there, holding each other, until a solid knock on the door disturbed them.

* * *

She was going to stay. This fact alone allowed Ethan to step back when some fool who did not value his wages knocked on the library door.

“I did not ring for tea.” Ethan kissed Alice’s nose before he let her go. “Come in.”

Joshua barreled in. Jeremiah followed more cautiously.

“You found our prisoner.” Joshua beamed. “Hullo, Miss Alice.”

Jeremiah frowned up at his papa. “You made her cry. She won’t like us if you do that.”

Ethan’s instinct was to sweep both children up in a hug and not let them go until Christmas.

And yet, being a father called for discipline of one’s impulses.

“I do not like little boys who ride off without supervision,” Ethan said in his most imposing-papa tone. “I do not like little boys who turn a game into more than it should be. I do not like little boys who make hogs of themselves at the neighbor’s tea table.”

He stared down at his sons, who looked abruptly shy and uncertain, but then Jeremiah’s jaw set, and he put his hands on his hips.

“I do not like papas who mope around all day,” Jeremiah announced, “and Miss Alice was moping too—Heathgate said, and he wouldn’t lie. I do not like that you were going to get us a different governess, and you didn’t even ask us. I do not like that you were packing up to go to London, and you didn’t even give us your ‘behave while I’m gone’ lecture.”

Ethan’s brows rose, and from the corner of his eye, he saw Alice was just as surprised as he.

And that—the wonderful, unthinking, reflexive gift of being able to measure this moment with a woman who cared as much for his children as he did—warmed his heart beyond words.

“Apologize to Miss Alice for kidnapping her.”

“You apologize to her for making her cry.”

Ethan took Alice’s hand and discarded the notion of going down on one knee before his children, lest there be weeks of imitation. “I am humbly and sincerely sorry for making you cry. For any time I’ve made you cry. Hurting you is the last thing I want to do, ever.”

“Apology accepted,” Alice said softly, leaning in to kiss his cheek.

Ethan quirked a brow at his sons. “Jeremiah?”

“I’m sorry we kidnapped you,” Jeremiah said, his gaze on Alice’s face in exact imitation of his father. “But you were going away, and Papa was going away, and Heathgate said we should do something, so we did. And Davey went to visit his brother, so we were supervised, and Lady Heathgate offered the chocolates, and we said please and thank you.”

“We’ll have a word with the marquis,” Ethan said. “And his lady.”

“Apology accepted.” Alice spoke over him, suppressing a smile.

“I’m sorry too,” Joshua said.

“So you’ll stay?” Jeremiah asked, bravado gone. “Even if Papa made you cry?”

“Sometimes a lady cries not because her heart is broken, but because it’s mending.” The look she sent Ethan would have illuminated the dimmest corners of the coldest heart—and his was by no means cold. “I will stay, and I will marry your papa, if I have permission from my favorite gentlemen.”

Jeremiah sent his father a very stern look. “You won’t make her cry?”

“Never on purpose.”

“You’ll read us stories?” Joshua asked Alice, his tone wistful. “Papa tries, but he just can’t get the wolf quite right.”

“I will read you stories.”

The boys exchanged brother-looks, and Jeremiah spoke for the pair of them. “That’s all right, then. You marry Papa, but Joshua and I aren’t wearing any stupid Sunday clothes and carrying around flowers and nonsense like that.”

“I believe we have an agreement.” Ethan’s eyes lit with humor as he gazed at his prospective wife. “And we also have at least one little kidnapper who’s overdue for his nap.”

“C’mon, Joshua.” Jeremiah pulled his brother by the arm. “They’re going to kiss and carry on. Aunt Leah explained it to me when we visited Belle Maison.”

Joshua let himself be pulled from the room, and Ethan and his bride did, indeed, kiss and carry on, every day and night for the rest of their lives.

Thanks go, as always, to my editor, Deb Werksman, for being willing to publish this tale of a less traditional hero and heroine, and for juggling more plates than is humanly possible to see it done as part of a suite. To Skye, Cat, Susie, and Danielle, the same thanks apply. There ought to be a shortage of plates somewhere at the rate these ladies can keep them aloft.

Thanks go as well to Emily, Abby, Max, Leah, and the other ladies at Wax Creative, Inc. They are the talent behind my beautiful (if I do say so myself) website, and their know-how and guidance have also kept my nose above water in the social media sphere. As each book has hit the shelves, the Wax Creative team has been just out of the readers’ view, yelling encouragement, good ideas, and commonsense advice to me far above and beyond the call of duty.

With people like this to work with, being an author is the best, most enjoyable job in the world.

New York Times and USA Today bestselling author Grace Burrowes hit the bestseller lists with both her debut, The Heir, and her second book in The Duke’s Obsession trilogy, The Soldier. Both books received extensive praise and starred reviews from Publishers Weekly and Booklist. The Heir was also named a Publishers Weekly Best Book of The Year, and The Soldier was named a Publishers Weekly Best Spring Romance. Her first story in the Windham sisters’ series—Lady Sophie’s Christmas Wish—received the RT Reviewer’s Choice award for historical romance, was nominated for a RITA in the Regency category, and was a New York Times bestseller. She is hard at work on more stories for the Windham sisters, and has started a trilogy of Scottish Victorian romances, the first of which, The Bridegroom Wore Plaid, was a Publishers Weekly Best Book of 2012.

Grace lives in rural Maryland and is a practicing attorney. She loves to hear from her readers and can be reached through her website at graceburrowes.com.