Thea Devine - Fascinated

Connor's clothes. Muhamed's clothes.

Muhamed's clothes. Connor's clothes.

He was a eunuch, nothing would ever change his condition.

How could he put aside the last forty years as if they did not exist?

How could he ever have any peace if he did not?

How could Megan have slipped out of his arms and his bed and his room and his life as if they had not shared an intimacy that neither had ever before experienced?

He glanced down. And tried to choose.

To live as an Englishman, or to continue as an Arab.

Megan ignored the leering innkeeper. Heart outpacing her feet, she climbed the narrow stairs.

The hallway was a mile long; the worn wool carpet had turned to molasses, sucking at her feet.

He had given her no indication he wanted her to stay. Why was she embarrassing both him and herself by putting him in this position?

Her husband had rejected her.

What if this man did, too?

Thirty-six hours ago she had thought the hardest thing she had ever done was lift her veil and show her age to an Arab who had procured a whore. This was far, far harder.

Megan lifted her black-gloved hand and knocked.

A lifetime passed, waiting for him to answer.

She was overcome with a sense of déjá vu.

Thirty-six hours ago she had knocked in just such a manner. And waited…

Suddenly the door swung open.

Her eyes widened.

The man who answered the door was not the man who had allowed her entrance the night before.

"You… you're wearing trousers," she said.

His answer was not encouraging. "Yes."

Her gaze lingered on the white turban covering his head, drifted down to his black eyes, his chiseled features.

His face was tense, as if he, too, waited…

For her acceptance?

Or for her to leave?

In his black wool trousers, vest and frock coat he looked English, but…

"You've covered up your hair," she blurted out.

"There is only one woman whom I wish to look upon it," he said shortly, black gaze stoic.

"I do not require marriage," she said in a burst of emotion.

"My family would be shocked if I visited them with a concubine," he replied tersely, very much the man who had opened the door thirty-six hours earlier.

Her stomach somersaulted. "Are you asking me to marry you?"

"I am not an easy man."

"So you have said."

"I cannot erase the years I have lived in Arabia."

"I would not have you do so."

"I am a eunuch."

"If you are a eunuch, then I daresay many women wish their husbands were such."

His dark features tightened.

"I do not know if there is a place for me in Cornwall."

"I would enjoy seeing other parts of England"-could she live in Arabia, where women mutilated women and men castrated men?-"or other countries."

"I do not know if trousers will suit me."

"I prefer you in your robe."

"Thobs."

"I beg your pardon?"

"It is called a thobs, not a robe."

"I'm sorry."

"Yes," he said.

Megan blinked. "Yes, what?"

"Yes, I am asking if you will marry me."

How could happiness be as painful as heartbreak?

"Shall I call you Muhamed, or Connor?"

"You may call me whatever you wish."

He might be Connor in public, but in private he would always be Muhamed.

"I want to learn how to speak Arabic," Megan said firmly.

"I will teach you."

"I want to shave off my private hair."

His black eyes suddenly gleamed. "I will shave you."

"In that case, sir, I will marry you."

BERTRICE SMALL is the author of over twenty-four novels of historical romance. She is a New York Times bestseller, and the recipient of numerous awards. In keeping with her profession, Bertrice Small lives in the oldest English-speaking town in the state of New York, which was founded in 1640. And because she believes in happy endings, she's been married to the same man, her hero, George, for thirty-six years.