"In the back of that illogical mind of yours lurks the possibility that I'll eventually leave you," he explained. "Just like Nathan and Harry did. You're still afraid."


"I'm afraid?" she stammered out.


He nodded. "You're afraid of me."


He thought she'd argue over that statement of fact. She surprised him by nodding. "Yes, you make me very afraid," she admitted. And I can tell you, sir, I don't like that feeling one little bit. It makes me…"


"Vulnerable?"


She nodded again. He let out a patient sigh. "All right, then. How long do you suppose it's going to take you to become unafraid?" His voice was so gentle, his expression so serious.


"How long before you get tired of me?" she asked, her fear apparent.


"Are you deliberately misunderstanding?"


"No."


"Then in answer to your absurd question, I will never get tired of you. Now tell me how long it will take you before you trust me?" he ordered again. His voice wasn't at all gentle now. It was as hard, as determined as his expression.


"I told you I loved you," she whispered.


"Yes, you did."


"I repeated the vows before you and God." Her voice had risen an octave. He could also see her panic, her insecurity.


"Well? What more do you want from me?"


She was shouting now, wringing her hands together. Caine decided she still wasn't ready to surrender wholeheartedly.


He felt like an ogre for upsetting her. "Jade…"


"Caine, I don't want to leave you," she blurted out. "I do trust you. Yes, I do. I know you'll keep me safe. I know you love me, but there's a part of me that still…" She stopped her explanation and lowered her gaze. Her shoulders slumped in dejection. "Sometimes the feelings locked inside me since I was a little girl do get in the way of being logical," she admitted a long minute later. "I suppose you're right. I'm not at all logical about this, am I?"


He pulled her into his arms and held her close. The hug was more for his benefit than hers. In truth, he couldn't stand to see the torment in her eyes.


"I want to tell you something, sweetheart. The first time you tried to leave me… when Harry told me you'd left, it threw me into a panic. I've never had such a god-awful feeling before, and I sure as hell hated it. Now I'm beginning to realize that you've lived with that feeling a long time, haven't you?"


She mopped her tears away with his shirt before she answered. "Perhaps."


"And so you learned how to make it completely on your own," he continued. "You've been teaching yourself not to depend on anyone else. I'm right, aren't I?"


She shrugged against him. "I don't like talking about this," she whispered, trying to sound disgruntled

and not terrified. "I love you with all my heart," she added when he squeezed her. "And I know you

love me now, Caine. Yes, I'm sure of that."


Neither said a word for a long while after she'd made that statement. Jade used the time to calm her racing heart. He used the silence to think of a logical way to ease her illogical fears.


"What if we make this a short period?" he suddenly blurted out.


"What?" She pulled away from him so she could see his expression. Surely he was jesting with her.


The look on his face indicated he was quite serious. "You want to make our marriage a short union?

But you just told me you loved me. How can you…"


"No, no," he argued. "If we just make this commitment to each other for six months' time, if you can

just promise me you'll stay with me for that length of time, won't some of your panic ease away?"


He sounded so enthusiastic, looked so arrogantly pleased with himself. She realized then he was quite sincere in this absurdity. "You already said you'd never leave me. Now you're telling me six months…"


"I won't ever leave you," he snapped, obviously irritated she wasn't embracing his plan wholeheartedly. "But you don't believe I mean what I say. Therefore, you have only to promise to give me six months, Jade."


"And what about you, husband? Does this promise hold for you as well?"


"Of course."


She threw herself back into his arms so he couldn't see her smile. She didn't want him to think she was laughing at him. Odd, too, but she suddenly felt as though a weight had been lifted from her chest. She could breathe again. The panic was gone.


"Give me your word, wife."


The command was given in a low growl. "I give it," she replied.


"No," he muttered. "It won't work. It's too short a time," he added. "Hell, if I ever forgot, you'd be gone before I… I want a full year, Jade. We'll start from the day we were married. I won't ever forget our anniversary."


He squeezed her shoulders when she didn't answer him quickly enough. "Well? Do you promise not to leave me for a full year?"


"I promise."


Caine was so relieved, he wanted to shout. He'd finally come up with a way to keep her happy; He'd

just given her the edge he was certain she needed. "Say the words, wife," he ordered, his voice gruff.

"I don't want any misunderstandings."


The man really should have become a barrister, she decided. He was so logical, so clever, too. "I'll stay with you for one year. Now you must promise me, husband."


"I won't leave you for one full year," he announced.


He tilted her chin up with his thumb. "You do believe me, don't you?" he asked.


"Yes, I do."


"And you're relieved, aren't you?"


She didn't answer him for a long minute. The truth wasn't at all slow in coming, either. It hit her like a warm bolt of sunshine, filling her heart and her illogical mind all at once. He would never leave her… and she could never leave him. The vulnerable childlike feelings hidden inside her for so many years of loneliness evaporated.


"Sweetheart? You are relieved, aren't you?"


"I trust you with all my heart," she whispered.


"You aren't in a panic now?"


She shook her head. "Caine, I want to tell…"


"I took the panic away, didn't I?"


Because he looked so supremely pleased with himself, she didn't want to lessen his arrogant satisfaction. A man had to have his pride intact, she remembered. "You have made me sort this all out in my mind," she whispered. "And yes, you have taken my panic away. Thank you, Caine."


They shared a long sweet kiss. Jade was shaking when Caine lifted his head away. He thought his kiss had caused that reaction.


"Do you want to go back upstairs, love?" he asked.


She nodded. "After you've fed me, Caine. I'm starving."


He took hold of her hand and started for the dining room.


"Do you know, husband, I have the oddest feeling now."


"And what is that?" he asked.


"I feel… free. Do you understand, Caine? It's as though I've just been let out of a locked room. That's ridiculous, of course."


Caine held out the chair at the table for her, then took his own. "Why is it ridiculous?"


She immediately looked disgruntled. "Because there isn't a locked room I can't get out of," she explained.


Caine ordered their breakfast, and when Anna, the servant, had left the room, he asked Jade to tell him about some of the adventures she'd had. "I want to know everything there is to know," he announced.


"You'll only get angry," she predicted.


"No, no," he argued. "I promise I won't get angry, no matter what you tell me."


"Well, I don't mean to boast," she began. "But I do seem to have a natural ability for getting in and out

of tight spots. Uncle Harry says I'm a born thief and liar," she added.


"Now, sweetheart, I'm sure he didn't mean to criticize you," Caine replied.


"Well, of course not," she returned in exasperation. "Those were compliments, husband. Uncle's praise meant all the more to me because he doesn't usually give compliments to anyone. He says it isn't in his nature," she added with a smile. "Harry worries that others will find out the truth about him."


"And what might that truth be?" Caine asked. "That he's actually a little civilized after all?" "How did

you guess?"


"From the way you turned out," he explained. "If he was such a barbarian, you wouldn't have become such a lady." She beamed with pleasure. "It is good of you to notice," she whispered. "Uncle is very intelligent." "He's the one who taught you how to read, isn't he?" She nodded. "It proved fortunate, too, for his eyes started failing him. At night I would read to him." "From memory?"


"Only when there weren't any books available. Harry stole as many as he could get his hands on."


"The way he speaks," Caine interjected. "That's all part of his deception, too, isn't it?"


"Yes," she admitted. "Appearances, after all. He doesn't even use proper grammar when we're alone, fearing he'll slip up in front of his men, you see."


Caine rolled his eyes. "Your uncle became a bit of a fanatic about his position as leader, didn't he?"


"No," she argued. "You misunderstand. He enjoys the deception, Caine." She continued to talk about

her uncle for another few minutes, then turned the topic to some of her most memorable escapades. Because he'd promised not to get angry, Caine hid his reaction. His hands were shaking, though, with

the true need to wring good old Uncle Harry's neck, by the time she'd finished telling him about one particularly harrowing incident.


He decided he didn't want to know all about her past after all. "I think I'd better hear these stories one

at a time."


"That's what I'm doing," she countered. She paused to smile at the servant when the woman placed a

tray of crusty rolls in front of her, then turned back to Caine. "I am telling them one at a time."


Caine shook his head. "I mean I want you to tell me one every other month or so. A man can only take so much. I promise you I'll be thinking about the story you just told me a good long while. Hell, Jade,

I can feel my hair turning gray. You could have been killed. You could have…"


"But you aren't getting angry," she interjected with a smile. "You did promise."


Caine leaned back in his chair. "I think we'd better change the subject. Tell me when you realized you love me," he commanded. "Did I force you?"


She started to laugh. "You can't force someone to love you," she said. "I believe, however, that when

I read your file, I was already falling in love with you."


She smiled over the astonished look on his face. "It's true," she whispered.


"Jade, I'm not very proud of some of the things I had to do," he said. "You did read the entire file, didn't you?"


"I did," she answered. "You were determined, methodical too, but you weren't inhuman about it. In every accounting, you were always so… reliable. People depended upon you and you never let them down. I admired that quality, of course. And then I met you," she ended. "You were a little like McKindry, because you snuck up behind me and stole my heart before I even realized what was happening. Now you must tell me when you realized you loved me."


"It was during one of our many heated debates," he said.


It was her turn to look astonished. "We never debated," she said. "We shouted at each other. Those

were arguments."


"Debates," he repeated. "Loud ones but debates all the same."


"Are you telling me you fell in love with my mind first?"


"No."


She laughed, delighted by his honesty. "Shouldn't your man be here with us? It might look suspicious

if he stays in the country, Caine."


"Sterns never comes to London with me," he explained. "Everyone knows that. Sterns hates London, says it's too cluttered."