Bertrice Small - Love Wild and Fair

She could feel herself slipping away into that golden world of sweet fulfillment that she had been unable to attain since last being with him. As the delicious ache began to spread through her lower belly, his hardness thrust into her, and she cried aloud her happiness.

Afterwards-almost immediately-they both fell into deep contented sleep, still joined, their bodies intertwined. When she awoke it was to find him awake too, and watching her. She smiled and touched his cheek gently. He caught her hand and tenderly kissed the palm and the inner wrist. Their eyes met, and she trembled, so great was the depth of his emotion. That two people could love as deeply as she and Bothwell loved terrified her.

Propping himself on one elbow, he ruffled her dark-gold curls. "What happened to yer lovely hair?" She told him the story of her meeting with the king, and he shook his head wonderingly. "Ye defied him for me? Christ! How that must hae hurt Jamie!" He put his arms about her. "Yer my wench, and have been from the start, haven't ye? My God, how am I going to survive wi'out ye? I have nae done well so far."

"I dinna want to think about it, Francis. Not today. Not now when we are together again."

"How long can ye stay wi me, my darling."

"As long as yer at Huntley. Glenkirk is in England until the spring."

"How damned convenient," murmured Bothwell. "However when he promised we might see each other again, I dinna think he meant ye should live wi me for any length of time." The border lord's eyes were brimming with amusement.

"I will do as I please, Bothwell! If I thought the Leslies could escape Jamie's wrath I would flee to France yi ye now! Both the king and my husband know that. Unfortunately I am bound to the Leslies. They hae all been at me since my return. My Uncle Patrick, the old Earl of Sithean, died two years ago, but his wife has nae stopped her whining that my shameless behavior endangers her precious Earl Charles, who is married to Glenkirk's sister, Janet. When I told my mother the truth of my estrangement from Patrick, she chided me for not making him understand the great honor done me by James Stewart. She, who was a virgin till her wedding night, and who has never known another man in her entire life but my father, chortled about the 'honor' of being the king's mistress! They make me sick! All of them! And yet-I am bound to them, and I must sacrifice my happiness for their safety. But, my love, my very life-I will nae sacrifice this¹ time wi ye. When ye leave Scotland, I shall never see ye again. I know it! I feel it! We are surely doomed to be separated, but I will hae this time wi ye!"

His arms tightened about her. "I know I hae never done anything in this life to deserve love such as yers, my sweet Catriona Mairi."

The clock on the mantel struck five, and she said, "Good Lord! We're going to be late for dinner! What will the Gordons think?" Reaching out, she yanked the bellpull. Disengaging herself from his grasp, she stood up.

He caught his breath at the perfection of her body. Without her long hair the beautiful line of her back was visible. He had made love to many women, but none could hold a candle to her. He was not a man to take pride in his ownership of a woman, but he was very proud that she loved him.

Susan arrived and modestly set up a screen for her mistress to dress behind. The Gordon valet assigned to serve Lord Bothwell rushed to cover the earl's private parts as he rose from the tumbled bed, but Susan's flaming cheeks told him that he had been too late. Unable to resist, Bothwell winked at the little maidservant. She almost swooned.

"Damnit, Francis! Stop teasing Susan! Ye've made her all thumbs. No, child. The pendant!"

Bothwell had dressed in a kilt, and Cat's gaze swept him. "Damn me, Francis," she said teasingly. "Ye've the handsomest pair of legs I've ever seen in a kilt."

He grinned wickedly at her. "And ye, madame, hae the handsomest pair of-" He was stopped by her warning look, and he laughed and said, "Well, ye do, my darling!"

She laughed helplessly. "Yer a most impossible man! Take me down to supper."

They descended from their tower to the hall below, where George and Henriette Gordon waited for them alone. The Earl of Huntley had been sure that Both-well and Cat would not welcome company, so there was none.

George Gordon, called the Cock of the North, was related to the king. Cat had met him at court. He had wisely kept his wife from court. Henriette Gordon was petite, with soft hair the color of a daffodil, and enormous golden-brown eyes. She was elegant, and educated, and had charming Gallic manners and a warm heart. It did not take long for her to become friends with Cat Leslie.

Knowing that Bothwell would be with them through the winter, she had asked Cat to stay. Then she ascertained that though Cat's boys were no longer at home, her daughters were, and she invited them to Huntley for Christmas and Twelfth Night. When Cat demurred because she did not want to leave Meg alone, Henriette said she would invite the dowager as well.

The end result was that Bess, Amanda, and Morag were coming for the holidays. But Meg had been asked to Forbes Manor to stay with her youngest son, Michael, and his wife, Isabelle. She did not often get to see them, and she felt that this was the perfect opportunity. There was, she wrote, one complication. The twins would have to go to Huntley. Meg did not want them left alone at Glenkirk with the servants.

Bothwell was wild with excitement. "Our bairns!" he said. "I shall get to see our bairns!"

"Ye canna admit to their paternity," she cautioned him. "The world has never doubted that Patrick Leslie is their father. I will allow no one-even ye-to endanger them."

It was a new side of her that he saw-this fierce and protective mother. He put an arm about her. "Fate has nae dealt kindly wi us, has it, Cat?"

"We're together now, Bothwell," she answered him.

The unspoken questions-"For how long?" "Until when?"-lay between them, but neither Cat nor Francis could ask those questions.

So while the autumn deepened about them, they accepted the Gordons' hospitality. It allowed them a tranquil place to rest in their last months together. For just a brief time they might forget the public controversy that raged about Francis Stewart-Hepburn and the private one that raged about them both. When the future arrived they would face it courageously. But for now, they basked in their good fortune.

GREEN and gold September gave way to a rainbow October. The trees about Huntley were clothed in their traditional brilliant colors. November was a gray-and-brown month, startling in contrast to the beauty of the previous month. The first snow fell late, on St. Thomas' Night, and the Leslie children arrived that day.

They had come, Bess riding a gentle brown mare, the other children and their attendants in carriages, escorted by Conall and fifty men-at-arms. Twelve-year-old Bess Leslie strove to appear grown-up. She wore an elegant riding habit of claret-colored velvet, a matching cloak trimmed in sable, and a small hat atop her dark, neatly braided hair. Cat had never seen her eldest daughter with her hair up.

"She is très chic," murmured Henriette.

"And very young yet," replied Cat with a catch in her throat.

"She does not approve of you," laughed Henriette behind her plump, beringed white hand. "The young- especially young virgins-are so terribly intolerant."

"Aye," smiled Cat in agreement. "I was at her age. Poor Bess! She likes Francis. She canna help it, but she loves her father, and feels it is disloyal to him to be polite to Bothwell. She canna understand why I no longer care for her father, and I dare not tell her the truth, so I evade her questions, which only hurts and confuses her more."

"She would be more hurt, my friend, if she did know the truth. Come, Cat, do not fret. Let us go and meet your children."

Bess' serious young face lit up the moment she saw her mother. Forgetting dignity, she tumbled off her horse into Cat's arms. "Mama!" Cat hugged the girl to her. Then, releasing her, she admonished gently. "Bess, yer manners! Make yer curtsy to Lord and Lady Gordon, and Lord Bothwell." Blushing a rosy color, the girl turned and curtsied beautifully to the other adults.

Henriette Gordon kissed the girl on both cheeks and welcomed her warmly, and George Gordon murmured an appropriate welcome. But then Bothwell stepped forward and, taking the young girl's hand, raised it to his lips and kissed it. "I am delighted to see ye again, Lady Elizabeth," he said. His blue eyes twinkled at her. Damn him, thought Bess. I dinna want to like him-but I do!

And for the briefest moment, Bess caught a glimpse of the man that so fascinated her mother.

Amanda and Morag Leslie descended the carriage to make pretty curtsies to their host and hostess. Cat kissed each of her daughters in turn. At last the Kerr sisters exited the second coach, each clutching a twin.

"Ahhh," said the Countess of Glenkirk. "Look, everyone! My littlest bairns." She drew back the cover from Jane's bunting, revealing auburn curls peeping from a lace-edged bonnet, and dark lashes resting on pink cheeks. The baby slept. Ian, however, was wide awake. Cat was startled by the familiar expression in his dark-blue eyes.

"Art awake, lovely?" she crooned at the boy, and took him from Sally. "Now here's my wee laddie. Madame et monsieurs. Je presente le seigneur Ian Leslie." She turned. "Here, Bothwell! Ye take him while I get my Jane from Lucy." She briskly handed him the child, scolding him, "Christ, Francis! He's nae wet! Dinna drop him!" Taking the baby girl from Lucy, she said, "Let's go indoors. 'Tis too raw out here for the bairns."

Francis Hepburn, looking nervous but pleased, followed her. He was admiring the clever way in which she had arranged for him to hold his son. Bothwell sat down by the fire in the Great Hall and held the child in a sitting position on his knee. "Hello, Ian, my small son," he said softly. The child looked back at him seriously and then, reaching a fat fist up to the bending man, grabbed a handful of hair, and yanked. "Owwwww!" roared the Earl of Bothwell, but a small chortle from the baby turned his outrage to mirth. "Yer a wee devil, lad," he chuckled, but Cat knew he was pleased with the boy.

"Best to gie Ian to his nanny now, Francis," she said quiedy. He obeyed her. "What do ye think of his sister, my lord?" Bothwell looked at Jane, who was now awake, and smiled down at the baby girl. To his delight the child smiled shyly back. "She looks a bit like ye," he said. "Aye," replied Cat, "but she's got red hair. Meg says her coloring is Stewart, but the Leslies have red hair too."

For just a moment longer Bothwell gazed hungrily at the two children. In his secret heart he cursed James Stewart. His son and his daughter would grow up Leslies, never knowing him or their true heritage.

He wanted these children desperately. Sadly he watched as the Kerr sisters removed the twins to the Gordon nurseries.

Christmas Day dawned cold and gray. Bothwell, who had always moved back and forth between old and new kirk as politics dictated, attended mass with the Gordons' Catholic household. As he knelt with his mistress on the cold stone floor of the estate church he wondered again why there was this battle over the way to worship. Did God, if there was a God, really care?

Looking at Cat's face, he revised his thinking. Aye, there was a God. The only trouble was that God seemed to be on the king's side, though why God should approve of James was beyond him. It showed a great want of taste.

In Scotland, New Year's and Twelfth Night were the gayest celebrations of the winter season. On New Year's Eve there was to be a great celebration with a feast that had kept the cooks busy for three days. The 31st of December was bitterly cold, but clear. Cat and Francis had gone riding.

Returning late in the afternoon, they found the stableyard deserted. Everyone, from the lord to the lowest retainer, was out gathering wood for tonight's midnight bonfire. Neither Cat nor Bothwell was stranger to the art of horse care. They led their mounts into the stable, unaware that Bess watched from the loft above.

Several hours after her mother left that morning, Bess had decided that perhaps she would like to ride. After an hour, the cold having forced her back, she returned to find the grooms gone. Leading her mare into its stall, Bess unsaddled the animal, rubbed it down, and fed her. Then, curious, she climbed to the loft to see what she could see. From the loft of the Glenkirk stables you could-on a clear day-see all the way to the loch, and to the towers of Sithean.