"I'd already realized that, but I'm not his current mistress."

"No, but you are closer to him than a mistress could ever be. You are his betrothed by royal decree, which is as binding as any marriage. In his eyes, Princess, you are already his wife. It only lacks a ceremony to make you believe it. "

It was not the first time Sasha had made mention of Stefan being the royal one, rather than Vasili. In fact, since Stefan had made his confession before they sailed, all of them, the crew and captain included, now spoke of Stefan as their king. Vasili had even made the remark that it had been tedious on his part, trying to be something he was not. Tanya had choked back her laughter, for the man was as arrogant and patronizing as ever. If he had pretended to kingly qualities, she couldn't imagine what they were.

The Cardinians had shown her some very officious-looking documents, shoved them in her face, actually, the day after they sailed, when she had made some caustic comment that betrayed her skepticism over Stefan's confession. The papers were clear testimony that Stefan Barany was the new reigning King of Cardinia. Any government would have rolled out the red carpet were it presented with such credentials. Tanya had suggested the documents could have been stolen, or merely faked, and three men had stared at her in offended outrage, which they continued to display to a lesser degree for a good week.

But after she thought about it, really thought about it, she realized how much easier it was to believe that Stefan, rather than Vasili, could be a king. After all, they had all, always, deferred to Stefan, followed his lead, even looked to him occasionally for silent permission before doing something. And it was Stefan who gave the orders, not Vasili. They had tried to tell her the reason was because he was the older cousin, but that had never rung true, and that, combined with the rest, was why she couldn't believe Vasili was their king, and so couldn't believe the rest of their tale either.

But then she recalled the time Lazar had asked her if she would prefer that Stefan were king. And even Stefan had asked her once how she would feel if she had another choice besides Vasili. Why, unless it was so? And it was Stefan who had taken charge of her from the beginning, as if it were his right — or as Sasha said, he already thought of her as his wife.

And how would she feel about it if she finally accepted everything they'd told her? It was actually much harder to consider marrying Stefan than Vasili. With Vasili there was no question. She simply refused. But with Stefan — she was probably as divided in her feelings as he was. There was the powerful attraction she felt for him while hoping it was all true, that he was going to be her husband. Then there were all her doubts while she hoped that even if it was true, she wouldn't be forced to marry him in the end.

The doubts, of course, took precedence. They were just too numerous. Incompatibility, hostility, the fact that the only thing they had in common was some distant relations she knew nothing about. Then there was marriage itself, the very thought of which she despised. To be under the control of a normal man would be bad enough, but Stefan wasn't a normal man, he was an allpowerful king, for crying out loud. And she'd already had a thorough taste of just how controlling he could be, with her own wishes being consistently ignored.

And she mustn't forget Stefan's baffling attitude toward her. He wanted her but wished he didn't; thought she was beautiful but wished she weren't. And his wanting her was only for one time. He'd admitted as much and was probably of the same opinion as Vasili, that royal marriages were political, not personal, and didn't require much intercourse of any kind between the couple. But where would that leave her? Still wanting Stefan with no hope of ever having him? Would she willingly put herself through that kind of hell? She'd have to be as stupid as they seemed to think she was.

As she would have done with Vasili, she'd have to refuse to marry Stefan — if it were all true. And unfortunately, she was nearly convinced that it was. And then she learned how naive she was about what she could or couldn't do. Stefan had said it once himself — that as a subject of Cardinia, she would have to obey the king just like everyone else. She had assumed that meant obey or get thrown in a dungeon or some such distasteful alternative. Again it was Sasha who enlightened her when they were having another of their daily talks.

It began when she asked how Stefan had received his scars. For once the little man didn't want to answer her and said as much.

"Stefan should be the one to tell you about it, if he chooses."

"It's been a peaceful voyage, Sasha. " Her tone was as dry as parchment. "Do you really think I should change that by requesting an audience?"

He chuckled. "It is nearly five weeks since you have seen each other. Perhaps you could now manage a few minutes alone, only a few, mind you, without cutting each other to shreds. You haven't missed him?"

"Not even a little," she said with absolute certainty, but only for Sasha's benefit.

Actually, she did miss Stefan a little, or more exactly, the stimulation of being in his presence. What she didn't miss was the insults, and even Vasili was being on his best behavior now that they suspected she was starting to believe everything, even that she was a genuine princess.

"Has he said anything," she continued, "that would lead you to think he — ah — misses me?"

Sasha smiled at her hesitancy, but shook his head, saying, "The truth, your Highness, is that since he has been away from you, he has reverted to his normal habit of keeping his feelings strictly to himself."

"He's brooding?" she asked with interest.

"No. He simply speaks of nothing of a personal nature."

"You mean he hasn't even asked after me?" she demanded, not caring how indignant she sounded.

"For what reason? Everything he could possibly want to know is told him before he need ask."

Her eyes flared wide. "By you?"

"Certainly. "

"You mean you tell him what we talk about?" she fairly shouted.

"There is no reason for this display of anger, Princess," Sasha said soothingly. "I haven't told him anything that might displease you."

"How would I know? And don't you dare tell him I asked if he misses me!"

"The subject is already forgotten," he assured her, only to venture to add, "But perhaps if he thought you wouldn't mind a chance meeting with him—"

"I would mind," she insisted stubbornly. "I would have to be a glutton for punishment if I wanted to talk to him again. Why, the very last time we spoke, he asked my price. My price, Sasha! Do you know how insulting that was? No, I like it just fine that he's arranged things so that we don't run into each other by accident or otherwise."

Sasha's cheeks flushed as he tried to explain. "If you were a whore, then you would surely be delighted at the mention of price. They all think you a whore, so half of what you take as insult is not meant as insult. Why do you not tell them it isn't so?"

She wasn't offended by such plain speaking, not from Sasha, and she didn't prevaricate either. "Why should I bother? Would it change their plans for me?"

"No. You are going to marry King Stefan of Cardinia. It is the old king's wish. It was the wish of the king before him, your own father. So there is nothing you can do to prevent it from happening."

"I can say no."

"It can be accomplished without your permission. You were raised in a country where many voices make the law, but you were born in a country where only one voice is the law. Stefan has merely to order it so, and this he will do because it is his father's wish. "

"But not his."

It was not a question, but Sasha treated it as one, admitting, "It was not his wish when he came to find you. Now I am not so sure."

Tanya was sure. Duty before preference, as Vasili had put it. Stefan would marry her whether he wanted to or not. And now she knew that she would have no choice either. She wouldn't even be allowed the satisfaction of putting them to the trouble of forcing her.

Sasha became disturbed by her silence. "Perhaps I should tell you how Stefan came by his scars, after all, to help you understand him better. "

"Don't bother," she said glumly. "I'm no longer interested."

Chapter 31

Tanya might have lost her interest in learning about Stefan's scars the day before, but it was the first thing she asked Lazar the next morning when he and Serge joined her for breakfast in her cabin.

"Stefan's scars? That is a touchy subject, Princess," Lazar began.

"One Stefan wouldn't like us to discuss," Serge added with a warning look at his friend.

"Well, heaven forbid you do something he wouldn't like," Tanya said with just enough scorn to goad them.

But Lazar merely grinned at her, aware of what she was doing. "That tactic won't work. If you knew how unpleasant it is to have Stefan annoyed at you—"

Serge wasn't amused, and he broke in, grumbling, "She knows. But like most females, she doesn't care how she goes about getting what she wants."

"That isn't so," Tanya retorted. She tried to look offended, couldn't manage it, so settled on a shrug. "Never mind. I suppose I can just ask Stefan, even though it's sucha touchy subject."

Both men were now scowling at her. "From one tactic to another—"

"Women always fight dirty—"

"Oh, for crying out loud." Tanya cut them both off in disgust. "You'd think it was a secret that could topple your whole country." And then she tossed out a challenge. "Or is it something Stefan is ashamed of?"

"Ashamed?" Lazar stood up to lean across the table so she couldn't mistake how angry she'd made him. "Stefan risked his life to save another's. There was no shame in that, your Highness."

"So why couldn't you just say so?" Tanya retorted, annoyed with herself now for pushing them. "It sounds like he was a hero."

"Tell her, Serge," Lazar said as he sat back down. "Maybe she'll be wise enough not to mention it again — at least not to him."

Serge began grudgingly, but soon he was merely relating the incident. "He was heroic, or foolhardy — depending on how you look at it. But he was only twentyone that year, with no important duties weighing on him yet, no worries other than his studies, which, unlike for some of us, were incredibly easy for him, and his every wish granted—"

"Stick to the story," Lazar complained. "She doesn't have to know how wonderful his life was up to that point, when her own life has been so deprived. "

Tanya blinked in surprise. Serge flushed with embarrassment. But she suddenly remembered Stefan's impassioned speech about what she'd suffered through fate when she was supposed to have been reared gently, with a fortune at her disposal. He'd been angry for her, not at her, though she hadn't seen it that way at the time. Did these two think she was resentful, perhaps, for not having had the privileged life that her birth should have guaranteed?

She hadn't even thought about it, but it was hard to feel resentment for lacking something she'd never expected to have in the first place. If she resented anything, it was how easily they all assumed she was tarnished goods just because of where she'd been raised, when one of the major concerns of her life, every day for the past eight years, had been how to stay out of men's beds.

"I'm sorry, your Highness," Serge told her with touching sincerity.

The man was apologizing for the wrong thing as far as she was concerned. But she would just get angry if she tried pointing that out to him.

"Don't be absurd," she said instead. "Stefan doesn't strike me as a man who feels very privileged right now, so what do I have to be envious about? The fact that he isn't allowed to choose his own wife?"

"There is no one else he wants to marry," Serge assured her, then added, "Not anymore."

"Serge!" Lazar admonished incredulously.

Tanya was amused by his objection. "What, am I supposed to be shocked that he wanted to marry someone else? He's thirty years old or thereabouts, isn't he? I'd be amazed if he hadn't wanted to get married at least once by now."

"I'm no older than he is, and I've never wanted to get married," Lazar said.

"Nor have I," Serge put in.

"But he did, and my oh my, that must have really set a fire under the royal temper when he was reminded he already had a betrothed. Is that about the way it went?"