Marie Harte - Raising the Bar

Derrick preened. “Why thank you, Dr. Dork. Now tell me. You need help getting laid? Because maybe that will get your ass out of Mom’s business.”

“Oh my Lord. Derrick Warren. Watch that mouth.”

Dylan and his brothers started as their mother pushed through the kitchen door wearing a huge frown.

“Ha! For once she didn’t catch me saying it.” Dylan high-fived Gage, and the pair of them gave Derrick wicked grins when he flushed bright red.

“Oh, ah, hey, Mom. You’re back early.” He took the bag from her and hurried to the counter with it.

She rubbed her hands together. “Well, I see you’ve done absolutely nothing while I was gone.” She sighed. “Guess I’ll get the eggs and bacon on.” She moved to Dylan and kissed him on the cheek as if they hadn’t been distant from one another at all. “Good to see you, Dylan.”

“You too, Mom,” he said softly, meaning it. “So where is James?” She remained quiet, and he groaned. “He’s not here because I’m an ass, is that it?”

“Truth hurts.” Gage shook his head.

“Well, he thought it might be nice if just the four of us spent some time together. We’re always being tugged this way and that with our new families, and I miss having my boys to myself.”

Derrick’s eyes narrowed. “Did you say something to Sydney and Hailey about this?”

She shrugged. “When Hailey suggested she might skip our breakfast today, I merely mentioned she might want to take Sydney as well, to give me a chance to reconnect with my boys. I also might have used you as an excuse, Dylan. You have been difficult lately.”

“Great.” Now I’m the pathetic loser who can’t adjust to Mommy getting a boyfriend. And, oh man, I deserve it.

“I told her you were having a hard time with me and James. But that’s not the case anymore is it?” She beamed at him, and he had the uneasy feeling she’d overheard them. Then she added, “Because after our meeting in your office, you assured me that’s no longer an issue. Is it?”

The whole kitchen seemed to come to a standstill.

Dylan knew he had to let go—of the guilt, the selfish need, and, most importantly, the hurt that his mother might choose another over his father. The living needed to love, not wallow in memories of the dead. Sure she’d always care for his father. But Andrew couldn’t hold her or hug her or kiss her. Not here, not now.

“No, Mom. I’m glad you’re happy. James is a good man.” He didn’t like the glossy sheen in her eyes, or the sudden burning behind his own. So he coughed and slapped Derrick on the back of the head.

“What the hell, man?”

“I just wanted to show how I’d express my disdain for someone not worthy of Mom’s affection. I’d never do that to James, even if he does hate the Bears.”

Derrick started to go for his throat when their mother made a hum of disapproval. They separated as if scalded by hot water.

“Excellent. Everyone’s happy. My boys are in love…” She took the eggs and bacon from the refrigerator and tossed the bag of coffee beans to Dylan. “Let me rephrase that. Gage is engaged. Derrick is working on proposing to Sydney. And Dylan…where are you right now? In a relationship?”

“Boy, girl or other?” Gage taunted.

“Don’t tease our bisexually minded brother, Gage,” Derrick said with a huge amount of insincerity. “It’s not about gender, it’s all about the person inside,” he said, quoting one of the many instances Dylan had set him straight.

“Derrick, behave.” Their mother tried hard not to laugh.

“Et tu, Barbara?” Dylan tried to project pain into his voice. But thoughts of his partners had him smiling.

“Oh man. Bro is getting some.” Gage stared, wide-eyed. Then, realizing what he’d said, he amended, “Er, ah, I mean, Dylan’s dating, apparently.”

“Girl or boy?” Derrick just had to know. The idiot thought it funny to poke fun at Dylan’s lifestyle. Since he only did it out of brotherly love, Dylan didn’t much mind. But it would be fun to really throw him a curve.

“Both.”

Everyone tried to laugh it off while he ground beans and prepared the coffee. While it brewed, he leaned against the counter and crossed his arms over his chest, wondering what they might think if they knew the truth. A truth he had no intention of hiding.

Derrick was the first to realize Dylan wasn’t kidding. “Oh. My. God.”

“Wait a minute.” Gage frowned, staring from Derrick to Dylan. “Both meaning…both?”

They all turned to see Barbara gaping.

“Problem, Mother?” Dylan smirked.

“N-no problem.” She cleared her throat, blushed, and then narrowed her gaze. “Are you screwing with us?”

“Sounds to me like he’s screwing with an us, but it ain’t, us us.” Gage shook his head.

“Oh yeah, that made sense.” Derrick huffed. “So. Who is it?”

“You really want to know?” Dylan asked.

“I do.” Barbara nodded emphatically. “And just to be clear, is this some way of getting back at me and James? An immature way of responding to a relationship you don’t approve of by trying to find one I’ll object to?”

“Do you object?” Dylan was curious.

His mother’s smirk reminded him of his own. He really did take after her. “Not at all. Love is an emotion to be shared, regardless of gender or number. So long as everyone is accepting and legally of age.”

“So telling you I’ve fallen in love with Hailey’s niece and the neighbor’s sixteen-year-old babysitter would be wrong?”

“Holy shit.” Derrick gaped.

“Jesus, Derrick. Be a little more gullible, why don’t you.” Gage chuckled. “Good one, Dylan. Hailey doesn’t have a niece.”

Derrick scowled. “You may be handsome, but you’re not funny.”

“And yet I retain my intellect and superiority over my younger brothers.” It annoyed the crap out of Derrick when Dylan reminded him of their two-minute difference in age. Stupid, but he’d take what he could get. “How upsetting that must be, to always linger in my shadow.”

Gage and Barbara laughed at that, as Derrick grudgingly acknowledged Dylan’s sally.

They ate breakfast together, and Dylan felt as if nothing had changed while everything had changed. Gage was no longer the uncouth jock who couldn’t deal with women. Derrick had matured enough emotionally to fall for a female his equal, one who had more going for her than a nice body. And his mother had moved beyond her grief and safe little world to find love with a man who’d always been there for her.

Dylan, oddly enough, realized he’d been the last to come to the table. He, a therapist who had helped many see the error in their ways, had been blind to his own discontent and the reasons behind it.

The meal wound down. Gage left to pick up Hailey, since her car was in the shop. An excuse to be with her, since her friends could have driven her home, but the family let it pass. It was nice to see him so in love with a woman Dylan approved of.

Just as Derrick made his excuse to leave, Dylan decided to have a little fun with him.

“You know, when you asked me if I was dating earlier, I wasn’t lying.”

Derrick stared at him. Barbara continued to sip her coffee and wait.

“You don’t mean…” Derrick tapered off.

“Yep. Both.” Dylan grinned and held out his cup toward his mother. “More coffee, Mom?”

Derrick just watched him.

Dylan smiled. “Their names are Harper and Freddy.”

Derrick’s eyes grew wider. “Two dudes?”

“No. Freddy’s a girl. A beautiful woman.” Dylan sighed. He hoped she and Harper hadn’t been too upset with him for ditching them this morning. But he’d been late for breakfast, and he’d needed to settle the disquiet inside him for too long.

“Wait.” Derrick sounded strangled. “You said Harper. My Harper?”

Barbara gasped. “Derrick? Is there something you want to tell me?”

Apparently comprehending how possessive he’d sounded, Derrick stuttered a denial while Dylan nearly fell off his stool laughing. It took the slamming of a door to calm him down.

“Wh-where did he go?” He had to wipe tears from his eyes. My Harper. He couldn’t wait to tell Harper and Freddy about this.

“He’s in the bathroom,” his mother said wryly. “He said you made him sick. Now, care to explain?”

Dylan calmed down and sat across from her, comforted by the familiar. Despite all that had changed in their lives, he felt secure, sitting across from his mother at the kitchen island, discussing life and the foibles that came with living.

“I met Harper thanks to Derrick.” He grinned, not quite wanting to share the particulars with her. “Needless to say, the two knew each other before I came into the picture. But not the way you might be thinking. They were associates, working together because of WCC.” The construction company.

“Oh.”

“You sound relieved.”

“I am.” She glared at him. “Do you know how worried I’ve been that Derrick will mess up the good thing he’s got going with Sydney? If he’d cheated on the girl, I’d string him up by his toes.”

Derrick returned, much calmer than he’d been. He sat with them and pursed his lips.

Dylan sighed. “Say what you need to say.”

“So…you’re an orgy guy now?”

Barbara shook her head and groaned.

“You’re such a dick. Sorry, Mom, but it’s true,” Dylan muttered. “Call it what you will, but Harper and Freddy are terrific people.” Dylan turned to his mother. “And Harper is really handsome. Big, muscular, a good head on his shoulders.”

Derrick made gagging sounds.

“And Freddy?” Barbara’s eyes twinkled.

“She comes up to my chest. A petite little thing with big blue eyes. Her eyebrow is pierced, she has a few tattoos and she works at a sex club in town.”

“Augusta has a sex club? What, like a strip club?” Now Derrick sounded interested.

His mother shook her head. “No. The club is a sophisticated place on the outside of town.”

He and Derrick stared at her.

She blushed. “What? I haven’t always been just your mother, you know.”

“Anyhow,” Dylan hurried, wanting to stop that train of thought before it took off, “I met them and we sort of clicked. I don’t just mean physically either.”

“God. TMI.” Yet Derrick sat there without blinking. “So you like this pair. What do they think about you?”

Remembering last night, he grinned. “They like me just fine.”

“Oh man. My brother, the porn star.”

“Stop it, Derrick.” Barbara had to work at not smiling, Dylan noticed. “You’re serious about them? How long has this been going on?”

“Not long.” He’d always felt better after talking things out with his mother, so he turned to Derrick and said, “Get out.”

“What? Now? No way.”

“I need to talk to Mom. Privately.”

Derrick opened his mouth, but Barbara beat him to it. “Derrick, let me and your brother talk.”

“Well, fine. But don’t think I won’t get answers later,” Derrick warned. He kissed their mother on the cheek, slugged Dylan on the arm, then left.

Dylan plunged in. “About James… I’m sorry.”

Barbara smiled. “Don’t be. It was a long time coming, I think.”

He groaned. “Hell. You were listening, before. I knew it.”

“I was. Oh, Dylan. Why didn’t you ever tell me any of that? Sweetie, I’m supposed to be here for you, not the other way around.”

His hostility and fear completely melted away in the face of her forgiveness, and Dylan fought back tears, annoyed with himself for losing control of his emotions. He had to cough to clear his throat. “I guess I never knew, or never wanted to look that hard at myself. I’ve tried to deal with the idea of you and James for months. I saw the way you two looked at each other. But I wanted you for myself.” He groaned. “That is so Oedipal.”

She grinned. “Yes, dear. But you realized the truth without my help. You’re so smart, son. I’m prouder than you know that you’ll be joining us. James loves you too, Dylan. It hurts him to think you don’t respect him.”

“I do.” Dylan knew he’d have to talk to James and explain things. “I just had to work it out for myself.”

They held hands for a moment, the love so strong and pure Dylan knew without question he’d always have a place in his mother’s heart, no matter what. “Mom?”

“Yes?”

“How did you know? With Dad, I mean. And James.”

Her grin widened. “My, my. I’ve been waiting to have this talk with you. Do you realize that in all the time you’ve been dating, you’ve never once asked me that?”