The crowd roars, the spotlight goes off, and Sarita gets even brighter at my side as the club is plunged into darkness. A siren starts up and a rocket-shaped missile descends from the ceiling. Inscribed along the sides are the words ATOM BOMB, blinking red lights outline its tail and fins. As it touches down, the darkness erupts with blinding flashes and thunderous explosions. “Superdevi” starts up again, and a horde of onlookers swarm to the dance floor. Zara insists we accompany her. “Your duty as newlyweds. Plus you need to burn up the floor in that sexy sari!” She goes on without us only after extracting a promise that we’ll join in for a future song.

The dancing makes me morose, bringing up memories of the one time I managed to drag Karun to a Gay Bombay disco. It took a good deal of further cajoling to actually lure him onto the floor, where he remained stilted and self-conscious. And yet, I found the awkward little twists I was able to coax out, the unsure waggles and bobs, completely endearing. I never did fulfill my new year’s pledge that winter to teach him the moves.

Sarita seems lost in nostalgia as well—could she have had better luck? At teaching Karun something more staid, like the waltz or foxtrot? I imagine them swirling down a polished ballroom floor, smoldering in each other’s arms. A burst of jealousy lances me at the thought.

She glances up at me, suddenly alert to my presence. Does she suspect something amiss, now that she’s had a chance to slow down and cogitate? I brace myself for more questions about the newlywed charade I pulled on the ferry, but she’s honed in on a more perilous slip. “When Rahim asked you about his uncle and auntie—I thought you mentioned your father died early?”

So she did catch Rahim’s inconvenient little revelation back at the hotel. “You misunderstood. He was asking about my father’s sister and her husband, not my parents. They’re auntie and uncle to both of us—my poor cousin, stuck in that hotel, doesn’t get to see them as much.”

She narrows her eyes and knits her brow, but lapses into silence. Just when I think I might slide by with my response, she springs the question I’ve anticipated all along. “Were you and Rahim—together?”

Normally, the Jazter is militantly up-front in such matters, but this is hardly the shrewdest moment to promote gay visibility, to wave the rainbow flag in her face. “It happened a long time ago. Kids try out all sorts of things, you know.”

I think that should do the trick, convince her to drop it, but I’m wrong. “And now? Is that what—? Has that become your—preference?” She has trouble enunciating the word.

“You mean men? You’re asking if I sleep with men? Not that it’s any of your business, but no.” Twenty questions is the last game I want to play, so I vent the words with all the offended self-righteousness I can muster.

She colors immediately. “I’m sorry. It’s just what Rahim was saying about a boy you followed—”

“Forget what Rahim says—he looks at everything through a lavender lens. That was just a colleague who brought me to Delhi for a job, not even a friend. The fact is, I’m not like Rahim—never have been.” The Jazter deserves to rot in hell for uttering such self-denying blasphemy. All in the interest of regaining his true love, he swears silently, to Allah or Jesus or Krishna or anyone else up there listening.

We go back to gazing at the crowd, Sarita’s forehead furrowed again. Perhaps I should ask her to dance—throw her off by flaunting my newly proclaimed hetero state. An ancient ABBA song comes on, the perfect opportunity, since it’s a tune even she must surely be familiar with. But she interrupts me as I try to summon up the right amount of swagger to make my bid. “Delhi’s such an interesting city. When did you live there?”

Her matter-of-factness makes me instantly vigilant—is she trying to figure whether Karun and I overlapped? Fortunately, Zara rescues me from having to respond, by bringing over Sequeira for an introduction. He looks even older up close than he did on the balcony, his face a palimpsest of deep-set wrinkles under powdery makeup. “My goodness,” he exclaims. “When Zara said you were a glowing bride, I didn’t think she meant it literally.”

“I told Uncle about your elopement. He said he’d help you find your brother in the morning.”

“Of course I will. But the morning’s a long way away. The night, as they say, is young—we have a lot to celebrate.”

The champagne a waiter brings over is nice and chilled, and most importantly, free. Though the Jazter can’t help feel a twinge if this is to be his last taste, and it hails from Nasik, not Reims. Sequeira makes several expansive toasts to us, barely sipping from his glass, but generous with the refills each time I knock back mine. “See, we must have known you were coming. Not only do we have disco lights instead of candles tonight, in honor of your wedding, but—you must have felt it already—air-conditioning!”

“Blowing your entire stock of generator fuel already?” Zara laughs. “Not to mention the champagne reserves. What if they don’t drop the bomb after all?”

“Actually, my dear, it’s all thanks to our intrepid merchant class—the Gujus, the Banias, the Marwaris, the whole lot. They’re so crazed by the idea of showing a loss in case their warehouses blow up that these last few days they’ve been coming door to door and practically giving away their stocks. In fact, have you looked in the cave? It’s the first time in months I’ve had the power to hook it all up.”

“Not the cave!” Zara grabs Sarita’s hand in excitement. “It’s amazing—you won’t believe it!” She leads us all past the dance floor, through a door in the backdrop of the mansion set. We find ourselves in a large chamber whose blue walls give way to the emptiness of the warehouse above. In the center two women zap and dart and fly through the air as they engage in a laser fight.

It takes a moment to spot the machinery whirring above, the wires holding them up, the straps and harnesses and levitating foot stands. The “lasers” consist of tubes that emit a green fluorescence—showers of sparks fly each time they touch a surface.

“The fights in Superdevi,” Sequeira says. “This is what they used. It’s quite a neat mechanism, actually. There’s a control lever they each have which raises and lowers them through the air, but the rest depends on how they thrust their bodies.”

“But where have you hidden the other machine, the one with the flying platform?” Zara asks. “That’s what I want to ride—it’s my favorite.”

“Ah, don’t remind me. It’s all too sad—I had to give it away. I’m not allowed to tell anyone what they’re using it for now—let’s just say it’s the price one pays. Even here in Bandra, to remain open, to remain safe.”

Zara tries to pry out more information about the missing machine’s whereabouts, which she says gives the illusion of floating in the air without wires or harnesses, but Sequeira remains secretive. Instead, he leads us to the head of a line of people waiting to take the place of the battling devis. “You’re newlyweds, so you get to jump the queue. Uncle Sequeira’s wedding present: the first fight of your marriage, for good luck’s sake.”

The idea is so absurd that I laugh. Zara chimes in that it’s a lot of fun and we have to try it, that it will look especially spectacular with Sarita already dressed in her devi sari. I am startled when Sarita nods yes. “Unless, that is, my darling husband is too scared.” She looks at me defiantly and I’m forced to take up the challenge.

“For the movie, they hid the harness under Baby Rinky’s clothes,” Sequeira explains as he straps us in. “That’s why you couldn’t see it. And the foot pedestals, being blue like the background screens, are invisible.” He shows us how to operate the motion lever and puts a laser in each of our hands. “May the best superhero win.”

It takes a while to get the hang of the contraption—for the first few minutes, we just dangle around, with little control. Then Sarita zaps me with her laser, and although it doesn’t hurt, the buzz and sparks make for a startling effect. I swing away, then turn around to attack, but she has compensated, and hovers out of reach. A determination, a fierceness, burns in her eyes, as if she’s assumed not only the luminous uniform but also the fiery mantle of the avenging, all-knowing Superdevi. It’s impossible, I think, my mind racing through our entire interaction to see if she could have perchance figured out I’m her rival from clues she’s received. She lunges again, her laser aiming for my throat like a sword, and it’s all I can do to twist away my body. Could some intuition, some sixth sense, have shown her the picture, like one of those game show contestants guessing an entire word correctly based on just a single letter?

Sarita lands another score, zapping me on the cheek. This time I strike back, and she yelps in surprise as a shower of sparks cascades down her body. She recovers quickly, and flies back at me, the end of her sari coming loose and swirling behind her like an incandescent cape. I dive towards her as well, swinging myself just out of the way in the last instant before we collide. Our lasers connect, creating a tremendous outburst of light and energy—the effect is dazzling, even if our choreography falls short of the finesse in swashbuckler movie swordfights. A crowd of onlookers below eggs us on, hoots and hollers, begins to take sides. Immersed as we are in our aerial duel over the one we both seek, Sarita and I barely notice their cries.


I HAD EXPECTED our goodbye meeting to resemble one of those sad old Hollywood romance endings—music swelling in the background, sepia cinematography, a wistful sense of drama. But seeing Karun ignited me—I felt five and a half years of buried emotion, of stifled passion, burst forth from deep within. “Karun,” I said, wanting to kiss and crush and engulf him with my body. Only my guilt restrained me.

He stood at the door and gaped. I noticed, through my euphoria, that he looked different—not exactly older, but more cognizant, as if he’d experienced more of the world. The weight he’d put on had helped fill out some of his most conspicuously skinny parts. Even his ears no longer stuck out as flagrantly. “I thought you were in Hyderabad,” he responded finally.

So he’d received my letters to Karnal. But not written back. “I returned to Bombay just a little while ago. Perhaps we were meant to meet again—our destiny.”

My comment flustered him. “How did you find me?”

“From your university. Can I come in?” He didn’t move, so I asked again. Still he didn’t respond, remaining there silently. “Karun?”

“Things have changed.” He looked down at the floor, then back up at me. “I’m married now.”

To my credit, I didn’t do anything outrageous. I didn’t call him a fool and storm away, or remind him of his predilections and guffaw in his face. In fact, I may have even congratulated him. “Are you going to call her out and introduce us, or do you keep her hidden behind a veil?”

Karun shifted uncomfortably, and I realized he hadn’t told his wife anything about us. “She’s visiting her mother until late this evening.”

I decided I’d set his mind at ease. “You don’t have to worry—I just came by to say goodbye. I’m moving with my parents to Switzerland in a bit.”

All through the elevator ride down, I kept playing the scene through my mind. The pat on his shoulder I’d contented myself with, the awkward way he had reciprocated. The disingenuous promise he’d made to keep in touch by email. I felt a sense of déjà vu as behind the door swinging shut, I saw him wave goodbye. Hadn’t he tried to pull the same escape at his hostel room the day after we’d met? I’d hammered at his door and spoken loud enough to force him to accompany me downstairs.

So I pressed the seventh-floor button again. I banged on Karun’s door, and when he opened it, pushed him aside and strode right in. He came running up behind me and I turned around and grabbed his shoulders. Summoning up Cary Grant and Clark Gable, I pulled him to me and kissed him.

Perhaps he hadn’t seen those black-and-white classics, because instead of melting, he broke free and staggered away. I caught up and kissed him again. This time when he struggled, I pulled him down to the floor and pinned him under my body. “What do you think you’re doing? Are you crazy?” He turned his mouth away.

I wanted to rip his clothes off and take him despite his protests. Perhaps a part of him wanted the same. But I could see the determination in his mouth, the stiff set of his neck. He got up as soon as I rolled off.