But Dixie wouldn’t let herself think of that. She wouldn’t even consider the possibility that Lauren, that bright beautiful wonderful young woman she loved like her own flesh and blood, might never come home again.

“They’re calling it a mistake,” Rhett said, his voice a growl. “No one seems to know exactly who’s responsible-the FBI and ATF are blaming each other, naturally. I told you they’ve had the main compound surrounded and the whole place under surveillance?” Dixie nodded. “The situation was that the ATF wanted to go in with their warrant to search for illegal weapons, on the assumption their man had already gotten Lauren safely away from SOL. The FBI-at my request, through the attorney general-has been holding off until they heard something definite from the ATF’s man. Meanwhile nobody’d gone in or out of the place, which in itself is suspicious.” He exhaled restlessly, trying to force himself to relax.

Dixie leaned back in the loose circle of his arms, and his hands slipped to her shoulders. “Last night…” he began, and had to pause to clear his throat. He was still looking past her out the window, and she could see a muscle working in the side of his jaw. How hard this must be for him, she thought. These were his people. He would hold himself responsible.

“Last night,” he went on in a hard determined voice, “apparently a couple of local sheriff’s deputies showed up and demanded to be allowed into the ranch-said they’d been asked by ‘concerned relatives’ to check on Mrs. McCullough to make sure she was all right. Claimed they hadn’t been able to reach her in a while. Which seems reasonable, except that, according to the information already given to ATF by their man on the inside, these two deputies were known to the members of SOL. As I understand it-” Rhett slowed and spaced his words as if summing up a complex scenario for a jury “-the two deputies got into an altercation with federal agents within view of the ranch house. Whereupon Mrs. McCullough, who knew the deputies as friends and did not know the agents from Adam, came to their aid with a shotgun.”

“Oh, God.”

Rhett nodded; his face was grim. “When ordered to put down the weapon, she refused and, instead, opened fire. She got off one round before they took her down.”

Dixie whispered, “Is she-?”

He shook his head. “As of this morning she’s out of surgery, but still in critical condition. Apparently-” he took a deep breath “-the bullet severed her spine.”

Dixie closed her eyes, but opened them quickly when she heard her husband’s soft anguished swearing, and laid her hand along the side of his face. “It wasn’t your fault,” she said in a tense grating voice. “It wasn’t. Those people took our daughter. They’ve threatened to kill her. If they-”

“But this woman was innocent!”

“You don’t know that. And even if she is innocent, it’s her husband who’s to blame for what’s happened to her, not you! If he hadn’t taken Lauren…” She fought for breath, for calm. He didn’t need her falling apart on him, not now. He needed her strength. Especially with the national convention due to convene in Dallas tomorrow.

She drew the calming breath she needed and asked the only question that mattered: “What does this mean…for Lauren?”

Rhett stared back at her with eyes almost black with fear. He didn’t answer.


Lauren resigned herself to spending the afternoon cooped up in the tent. Which she had to admit was a lot closer to the way she’d have expected a prisoner of war to be treated. But it was still hard to take after being allowed to enjoy an illusion of freedom all morning.

As for that, the time spent with the horses and Bronco in the meadow now seemed a strange and contradictory interlude. Looking back on it, she felt a lovely little burn of pleasure, like the feeling she’d get after a great day spent skiing or at the beach when she knew she’d had more sun than was good for her, but so much fun it was worth it. And yet, when she remembered conversations, specific words, expressions and gestures, she found her emotions leapfrogging from one mood to another. And it was a lot like trying to catch a frog, she thought; no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t quite hold on to one.

It was true that some of the things Bronco had told her had made her sad, but there’d been something exhilarating about it all, too, a thrilling sense of discovery. And was it really sympathy she’d felt for the little boy whose mother had gone away and left him, or had it been more like…kinship? She remembered the scalp-prickling tingle of recognition she’d felt when he’d told her, the deep inside ache of bewilderment and anger. That was me-me, too! she’d wanted to cry out to him. I know what it feels like to have your mother go away and leave you behind!

She’d been on the verge of telling him that when they’d been interrupted, and then Bronco had whistled to the horses and rushed them all back to the camp with great urgency. After a stop at the latrine, he’d zipped her into the tent and warned her to stay put or else, then had left to go down to the cabin to get her some food. And now she felt a restless frustrating disappointment, a sense of something important left undone.

Oh, yes, and there’d been those moments of fear, hadn’t there? But why was it she couldn’t remember exactly what it was she’d been afraid of? Was it possible it hadn’t been fear she’d felt at all, but rather some crazy sort of excitement? The kind that called up memories of a certain long-ago summer night, fireflies winking in the humid darkness, dock lights reflecting on black lake water and little girls whispering and giggling, running through the woods that separated their camp-Camp Kawea? was that the name?-from the boys’ camp nearby. She’d been thirteen that summer, her one and only summer-camp experience, memorable mainly because of the humiliating crush she’d developed on the boys’ swim instructor. Most of that summer had slipped through the cracks of her memory long ago, but she still remembered the sweet delicious heart-thumping apprehension.

And could that have been, she wondered now, because it was the last time she’d allowed herself the luxury of breaking the rules? She didn’t think she’d ever been a difficult child, even before her mother’s selfish pursuit of happiness had taken her off to that cliff house in California with the director of the Des Moines children’s museum.

And then, just as Lauren was entering what should have been her rebellious years, her dad had begun his first run for governor, and the last thing she’d wanted to do was give his political enemies ammunition that could be used against him in an election campaign. The years had gone by and one campaign had followed another, and she’d gotten used to living in the public eye, used to being the model daughter in the perfect middle-American family. She’d al ways believed that was who she really was. Until recently. She wasn’t sure she knew who the real Lauren Elizabeth Brown was anymore.

What’s wrong with me? Who am I, really?

She remembered, suddenly, sitting in her pickup truck in the parking lot outside Smoky Joe’s, feeling frightened and confused and so alienated from the person she’d always believed herself to be. Wondering how on earth she could be attracted to a bad hombre like Johnny Bronco, while even then her skin was growing hot and her heart beginning to pound and her breath quickening at just the memory of the way his hard supple body had felt lined up against hers.

And she remembered, suddenly, the way he’d looked this morning, standing in the meadow tying a rolled red bandanna around his forehead, with his long raven-black hair blowing in the wind and his eyes burning fierce and angry as a warrior’s. And the way she’d felt then-the strange violent lurch inside her, as if her heart had turned upside down.

Yes, Lauren thought, that was it exactly. She-or her whole world-had turned upside down. She didn’t know what to believe anymore.

The crackle of footsteps in the pine needles outside the tent sent her heart into her throat. Confusingly, it stayed there, hammering away, even after she heard Bronco’s voice growl, “My hands are full. Could you open up please?”

“Said the guard to the prisoner,” Lauren remarked sarcastically as she zipped open the tent flap. The surge of joy she felt at his return was so powerful the only thing she knew to do with it was to bury it in annoyance. “About time you got back. What took you so long? I’m starving.”

He stepped into the tent in one quick tense motion, bringing with him the smells of chili and of danger-Lauren wasn’t sure which it was that made her stomach churn and growl.

“Didn’t know if you like salsa or not,” was his only comment as he handed her a metal container of the pungent mixture of chopped tomatoes, peppers and cilantro, along with a foil-wrapped package that was warm to the touch.

She opened the foil. Burritos again-shredded beef, beans, rice and cheese this time. She sniffed and said sourly, “Since it looks like it’s the only veggies I’m going to get, I guess I don’t have much choice, do I?” She bit into a burrito, which was so delicious she had to fight to keep from moaning.

She stopped in midchew when Bronco pushed aside the tent flap and ducked down, preparatory to going out. “Where are you going?”

He paused and looked at her without straightening. He was wearing his hat again, with his hair vanished into a tight club tucked close to the nape of his neck, all but hidden inside his shirt collar. To Lauren he looked lean and lethal, like a panther on the prowl. “There’s a lot goin’ on in camp right now,” he said in a quiet voice. “I’ve got things to do.”

“And I’m just supposed to stay here?” The trembling fear and bitter disappointment she felt appalled her, and she chose once again to hide her humiliating emotions beneath a crackling crust of anger.

He straightened slowly, then came toward her.

Her breathing stopped; she swallowed the bite of burrito and it felt like a brick.

Crazy impulses went through her mind-and, oh, how glad she was that she was able to control them! What on earth would he have thought of her, and how would she have lived with the humiliation, if she’d followed the dictates of those impulses and thrown herself against his broad chest and begged him to stay?

But instead, she stood rock still and faced him, while her heart hammered against the base of her throat.

“You’re an intelligent woman,” he said softly. “I think you’ll stay here.”

And then he was gone.

As his footsteps rustled away into silence, Lauren’s legs buckled and she sank onto her sleeping bag with a sharp exhalation. She stared down at the food she still held in her hands-the bowl of salsa in one, and in the other, the foil wrappings in which nested three fat burritos, one with a bite out of it. Her stomach turned over. She would eat-she had to. She was hungry, and who knew when they’d feed her again? But how on earth would she swallow with this lump in her throat?

You’re an intelligent woman. Oh, sure. If she was so intelligent, how could she have forgotten for one minute the danger she was in or how truly alone she was? How could she have allowed herself to become emotionally dependent on the very man whose job it was to keep her prisoner? Stupid, Lauren, stupid. And weak.

Since the scolding seemed to be helping reduce the lump in her throat to manageable proportions, she ventured another bite of burrito and chewed mechanically while she thought about what Bronco had told her. There’s a lot going on, he’d said. What did that mean? Did it have anything to do with her? Probably, or why would Bronco be acting so…intense?

Something’s going on. I wonder…when will they come for me?

When they did come for her, she thought, it would almost certainly mean the end of this ordeal-one way or the other.

She took a small taste of the salsa. It was hot-very hot. She dipped the burrito in the salsa and bit into it. Tears sprang to her eyes. She sniffed and took another bite. She sat and ate burritos and salsa and thought about all the people she loved that she might never see again, while tears ran down her cheeks and dripped off her chin.


The evening news was on when Lucy Rosewood Brown Lanagan took her great-aunt Gwen her dinner tray.

“Anything interesting going on in the world?” Lucy inquired as she always did, placing the tray on the piano bench, which had been pulled up close beside the old lady’s wheelchair to serve as a table.

Gwen arched back as though it was a surprise to see Lucy there-as she always did. She gave her musical grace note of laughter when Lucy dropped a kiss on the top of her head, on curls as white and soft as dandelion fluff.