‘And it won’t make any difference to the Lords’ decision-making whether we are here or not.’ On the surface Owen was far more sanguine than I as he lifted Edmund up into his arms. ‘They’ll do what they will in their own good time, but you can’t travel, Katherine. We stay at Westminster.’ I did not think he was sanguine at all, simply more intent on soothing me. I would not be soothed, for my mind was full of Gloucester’s outrage. At every stir in the icy air I expected to see a group of armed men in Gloucester’s livery appear, sent to lay hands on Owen with some trumped-up charge that would put him in a cell.

The decision was taken out of our hands.

‘Owen!’ I clutched his arm, clinging with one hand as I spread the other across my belly. I felt him stiffen, brace himself against my weight, but before he could ask me if I was in pain, my waters broke, splattering on the paving. I clutched harder as the familiar pains gripped me, almost forcing me to my knees.

Passing Edmund to Alice, Owen was supporting me. ‘Well, fy nghariad. It’s decided. We’re staying at Westminster.’ His arm was around my waist, holding me firmly against him. When I tried to concentrate on his face it was stern and set, but he managed not to say ‘I told you so’. ‘We’ll make use of the chambers you used to occupy.’

‘Too far,’ I gasped, the wave of pain refusing to release me. I knew this rabbit warren of a palace well, knew how long it would take us to reach my accommodations. The pains ebbed, giving me respite, but I tensed for their renewed onset. Edmund and Jasper had taken their time in sliding into the world but now—Another wave gripped me. ‘This child is in a hurry.’

Still holding Edmund, Alice was there, clasping my other hand, searching my face where perspiration was already gathering on temple and upper lip. I groaned as the familiar agony washed over me. ‘She’s right, sir. There’s no time. Somewhere close.’

Owen held me upright with what might have been the ghost of a laugh. ‘There is one possibility, which could solve all our problems. Can you walk?’ When I nodded, with his arm clamped firmly around my waist he led me up steps, over cold paving, through one doorway after another until it seemed that I was surrounded by arches. When I looked up I could glimpse the early glimmer of stars in the winter sky but I was sheltered from the wind. Our slow footsteps echoed hollowly.

‘Where are we?’ The pain was intense again.

‘The Abbey cloisters.’ Owen settled me on the stone ledge that ran round the edge, where monks would sit to read and study. ‘It may be the answer—even if it does put the fear of Almighty God into the holy brothers!’ He turned to Father Benedict. ‘Go and—’ He saw the dazed look in my chaplain’s eyes. ‘I’ll go myself. Wait here.’ He pressed down on my shoulder, as if I could do any other.

‘Don’t go.’ It was too much to let him out of my sight. What if Gloucester’s men snatched him up and I did not know?

‘I’ll come to no harm.’

‘How can you say that?’ I panted.

‘I have an idea. I don’t know why I did not think of this earlier. Look after her,’ he ordered Alice, and strode off.

‘Where is he going?’ I was beyond ideas, feeling panic rise as his footsteps faded into the distance. Suddenly, although I had Alice and Joan and Guille and even Father Benedict fussing in the background, I felt very alone.

‘I don’t know.’ Alice patted my hand, helpless in this situation. ‘Hold this child,’ she ordered Father Benedict, handing Edmund over, and turned back to me. ‘Don’t fret. It will be some time yet.’

‘I don’t think so,’ I cried out in renewed distress.

The clip of footsteps crept back into my consciousness as I clung hard to Alice’s hands.

‘Thank God,’ Father Benedict muttered.

When I opened my eyes, there was Owen, flanked by two black-robed men. Old monks, dry as dust, cautious in their words, but compassionate in their way as they peered at me in the light of a lantern that one carried and held above my head.

‘My lady. You need our charity.’

‘This is Brother Michael,’ Owen murmured, touching his fingers to my cheek, bringing me back to reality.

The all-consuming pain receded momentarily. ‘I do indeed, Brother Michael. I think I am in desperate need unless I wish this child to be born here in your cloister.’

‘We can help. If you will follow me.’

But I saw Owen grip Brother Michael’s arm. ‘I need more than that, Brother Michael. I need to claim sanctuary. For me and for my family.’

The old eyes travelled over us. ‘Are you in danger, sir?’

‘It may be so.’

He smiled and nodded his head. ‘Then you are safe in God’s house. We will give you and your people sanctuary. Bring the lady.’

‘Thank God!’ Alice sighed.

I was beyond relief.

‘Can you walk?’ Owen asked again.

‘No.’ The pains were almost constant.

Owen swept me up into his arms and carried me after the two Benedictine brothers, eventually, when I thought I could no longer stop myself from screaming, entering into a long room lined with beds, some flat and empty, others occupied by the ancient and infirm. The infirmary, I acknowledged hazily. The infirmary of the monks of Westminster Abbey. Ignoring this strange influx of visitors, busy with their own tasks, were a handful of black-robed Benedictines and lay brothers who nursed the sick and needy.

‘In here.’ Brother Michael gestured. ‘We will pray to St Catherine for you and the child.’

‘And I will call her Catherine.’

I was carried into a small chamber, spare and narrow, furnished with one bed and a crucifix on the wall. Perhaps, I thought with a tremor beneath my heart, it was used for the dying. Owen did not hesitate. Shouldering his way in, he sat me on the edge of the bed.

‘We’ll put the boys to bed in the infirmary, my lady,’ Joan said.

I was past caring. The pangs of imminent childbirth were wrenching me asunder. Shadows closed around me as my belly was riven with hot pain, as if talons gripped me.

‘You should not be here, sir,’ I heard Alice admonishing Owen as she and Guille set themselves to the difficult task, given the constraints of space, of removing my outer garments.

‘Tell her that,’ Owen muttered. I was clutching his arm, nails digging through his sleeve as the pain seared through me. My whole world was nothing more than this room and the monster that had me in its maw.

‘Holy Mother, save me,’ I whispered.

‘Amen to that,’ Alice added.

It was a memorable hour. No seemly seclusion. No community of women to give support and succour. No luxurious cushioning against the outside world with tapestries and fine linen and warm water. Just a bare room without heat, the narrowest of beds and the distant monkish voices raised to sing the office of Compline. Just an hour of agonising travail, then a squalling child, red-faced and vigorous, was delivered onto the coarse linen, Owen catching the baby as it slithered from my body.

‘Not Catherine,’ he said as he placed the mewling child in my arms.

‘Another son.’ I looked down, bewildered at the speed of it all, at the furious face with its no longer surprising thatch of black hair.

And then we were surrounded, the old monks drawn from their beds in the infirmary by the new life in their midst and the now dying whimpers as my child slept. There they stood, black cowled around my bed, giving me their silent blessing.

‘Give him to us,’ one said, his seamed cheeks wet with tears. ‘He’s ours, I reckon. I don’t recall ever having a child born here before. We’ll make a fine monk of him, won’t we?’ He looked round his fellow brethren, who nodded solemnly. ‘Has the little one a name?’

‘Owen,’ I said. ‘He is called Owen.’

And I fell into exhausted sleep. At least it had taken my mind off my worries over Gloucester and the Council.

It was a strange time, suspended between the reality of my new son, the incongruous setting of sanctuary that had been forced upon us, all overlaid with the constant fear that Gloucester might still be biding his time. I stayed for two days in my makeshift chamber in the infirmary before being allowed to walk slowly round the cloisters when the monks were engaged elsewhere, granting my newly extended household and myself some privacy. I would have travelled home sooner, but Owen and Alice were at one and I bowed before their joint will. The Council was ominously silent. As long as we stayed as guests of the monks, we were safe.

But we could not remain there for ever. What would it matter if the Council did not judge in our favour? I tossed the thoughts, catching them as they spun and returned in a constant circling. It would not change the pattern of my life with Owen. We would live out our days far from policies and laws and Gloucester’s hostility. It could not come between us. Our love was strong, stronger than any outside influence.

Now that we had laid our case before the Council, surely not even Gloucester would dare to impugn justice. Surely not?

‘They will decide in their own good time,’ the Prior said, come to admire the babe. ‘And if they decide against you, it is the will of God.’ He made the sign of the cross on my infant’s forehead.

‘The will of Gloucester,’ I responded bitterly, then regretted my lack of courtesy to this kind man.

He bowed. ‘And sometimes they are not the same,’ he conceded.

After two days I had had enough of the smothering kindness and the Council’s continuing silence. I wanted to go home, urgently, and Owen relented. He knew as well as I that we had used all the weapons in our armoury, so we would go home. As our coffers were packed, Alice took my swaddled baby into the infirmary, where the old monks bade him a final farewell. They gave him a blanket woven of the finest wool.

‘Are we ready?’ Owen asked, returning from overseeing that our carriages and horses were made ready, impatience a shimmer around him. This was the moment I had been waiting for, its outcome uncertain.

‘Not quite.’

One coffer still stood, unpacked, at my feet. Stooping, I lifted out an item wrapped in cloth. At Hertford, adopting a degree of guile, I had taken it from Owen’s personal chest, without his knowledge, without his permission and with no conscience at all. It had travelled to Westminster, deep in one of my own chests: it would not, if I had my way, travel back again in the same manner, no matter what decision the Council saw fit to make.

And Owen knew what it was, still draped as it was, the moment I held it out. His eyes darkened, his face taking on the rigidity of a mask, and I read there the pride of ownership, rapidly displaced by rejection in the name of what he saw as good sense. Would he listen to me? Would he listen to the voice of inheritance and family honour that I was sure beat in his mind, against every denial he made?

I held it out like a holy offering.

He did not take it. ‘Where did you get that?’ he demanded.

‘From our chamber at Hertford.’

‘And you brought it with you?’

‘Yes.’

Still I held it out, offering it on the palms of my hands.

‘Wear it,’ I said.

I knew his argument against it. I knew his pride in Llewellyn, his magnificent ancestor, just as I understood that, discriminated against by law and rank, he felt himself a man without honour, reluctant to don the weapon of so great a man. But I also knew the fire that burned in his blood.

‘I care not what the Council says,’ I told him. ‘We did what we could. We know your lineage to be as noble as that of any one of those men sitting in judgement against you. You have nothing to prove to me. Wear it, because it belonged to a great warrior and does not deserve to be packed away in a chest at Hertford. Wear it for me, because without it you put yourself into danger. I cannot bear that, even now, Gloucester might be sending men against you, and you not be armed.’

How long I seemed to wait. The low winter sun emerged, slanting coldly through the high windows, then dipped behind a cloud again. I let the cloth slip partially from the blade so that its lethal edges glowered.

‘Wear it, Owen.’ I put my whole heart into that plea. ‘Wear it for me because I cannot live with fear that you cannot defend yourself.’

And at last he took it from me, allowed the cloth to slip wholly to the floor. He held the sword up so that the pale sunshine, well timed in its reappearance, glimmered along its length and played on the furled wings of the dragon hilt. Running his hand reverently along the chased blade, he pressed his lips to the cross of the hilt.

‘I have brought the sword belt too.’ I smiled. ‘You have no excuse, you know. You have a new son. You cannot lay yourself open to Gloucester’s vengeance. You can’t refuse me.’