“Let me call Trevor,” Madeline said.
“Naturally,” Rachel said.
Madeline listened to the ringing of Trevor’s phone. If he didn’t answer, she would have an excuse to back out.
“Hello?” Trevor said.
She explained the situation sotto voce: looking at a writing studio, in town, not a bad price, six-month lease. Should she try it out, like an office where she could go to write?
“Hell yes,” he said. “It’s exactly what you need.”
It was exactly what she needed. But it was money out the door, the last of her advance.
She said, “I’m just worried… I mean, we promised Brick a car, and we still have six installments due to the hospital for your dad…”
“You have to spend money to make money,” Trevor said. “We can buy Brick a car when your next royalty check comes, and we’re on a payment plan with the hospital. You shouldn’t have to give up a dream situation because of bills my father left behind. This is an investment in your next book.”
Madeline took a deep breath. The only way she could describe this moment was as one where she decided to jump off a cliff, or out of an airplane.
She said, “I’m going to take it.”
Trevor said, “Good girl.”
Madeline hung up. She said to Rachel, “I’m going to take it.”
Rachel said, “You are the luckiest woman in the world to have a husband like Trevor. Andy would never let me do this. He would think it looked bad.”
She squinted at Rachel. “Do you think it looks bad?” she asked. “That I got my own place?”
“No!” Rachel exclaimed. “You have a reason. You’re an artist. A novelist.”
An artist. A novelist. Madeline basked in the warmth of those words.
Virginia Woolf. A room of one’s own.
Rachel handed Madeline the keys and gave her a squeeze. “Congratulations,” she said.
The next morning, Madeline packed up her legal pad, her pens, the novel she was reading-Family Happiness, by Laurie Colwin, for the fortieth time-and her own brown-bag lunch. Down the road, she would stock the apartment with groceries, but not today. Today, she was going to write write write write write.
The apartment was part of an old whaling captain’s home. It had been built in 1873, refurbished in 1927 and then again in 2002, when it was subdivided into apartments. Rachel said that the woman who had been living in the unit before Madeline had moved to the Virgin Islands because she couldn’t handle another Nantucket winter. It included a parking spot-that alone, Madeline thought, made the place worth the rent. Across the street was Madeline’s favorite breakfast restaurant, Black-Eyed Susan’s. It wasn’t open for the season yet, but soon enough Madeline would be able to pop over and get a veggie scramble and a latte to go. City living!
Madeline fit her key into the lock and stepped into… her apartment!
It was so exciting-although, in truth, the space was nothing special. The walls were painted flat eggshell white. The previous renter had, thankfully, left behind some basic pieces of furniture: a sofa and two armchairs covered in beige linen slipcovers, a plush area rug in squares of varying aquas and blues, a round blond wood dining table with four chairs, and-the only thing of interest-a wooden box with fifteen compartments, covered with a thin sheet of glass. In each compartment lay a bird’s egg nestled in straw-plover, eastern gray gull, black-backed gull, long-tailed duck, oystercatcher, least tern.
Rachel had apologized about the box with the bird eggs and had offered to dispose of it, but Madeline wanted to keep it.
There was a small galley kitchen with particleboard cabinets, a tiny bathroom with a fiberglass stall shower, and a bedroom containing nothing but a full-size box spring and mattress, bare of linens.
The apartment wasn’t remarkable in any aspect-except that it was hers.
So here was something she’d missed out on all her life: a place of her own. Madeline wanted to walk down the street to Flowers on Chestnut and buy a fresh bouquet, she wanted a selection of herbal teas, she wanted colorful throw pillows and a soft chenille blanket, she wanted beeswax taper candles that she would light when the sun started to go down, she wanted a wireless speaker so she could listen to Mozart and Brahms.
No time to dream about that now. Madeline needed to write! She turned her cell phone off. Nothing was a natural predator of productive fiction writing like the cell phone. Ditto the laptop. As she had well learned, the laptop could destroy a day.
Madeline took her legal pads, her pens, and the Laurie Colwin book out of her backpack and set up a “desk” at the round dining table.
Candles would be nice.
And Mozart.
But for now, she would have to go without.
Madeline had wanted to be a writer since she was old enough to hold a pencil. The desire was coded in her genes, but it was also a result of how she had been raised, or not raised. She had grown up in the help quarters of the Hotel del Coronado near San Diego, where her mother worked as a banquet waitress. In the long nights of her mother’s absence-every night potentially terrifying, as the Hotel del was known to be haunted by the ghost of Kate Morgan-Madeline would keep her imagination occupied by writing stories about a girl hero named Gretchen Green. Gretchen Green was the oldest of seven sisters, she had two glamorous parents, she lived in a beach mansion in La Jolla, and she was followed everywhere by her dachshund, Walter Mondale. Madeline had lost all of her Gretchen Green stories, but if she were to come across them now, she knew she would find blatant documentation of every single element that had been missing from her own childhood. Sisters. Parents. A home. A pet. A sense that she, Madeline, was special.
The passion for writing lasted into college. Madeline attended San Diego State, where she studied with a female writer who was so fabulous and inspiring that Madeline was terrified to disappoint her and therefore had handed in only incomplete stories. It’s not quite finished had been Madeline’s standard excuse. Since none of her pieces was ever truly done, they could not be criticized for imperfections.
The writing professor was encouraging, nonetheless. “You have a way with language,” she told Madeline. “Your pieces have a lot of surface energy. I would be interested in seeing you delve deeper. You should try and finish at least one of these stories. You seem to have an issue with resolution.”
In her senior year, Madeline applied to four MFA programs, but she was accepted at only one, her last choice, Bellini University in Florida-otherwise known as Bikini University.
Depression ensued. Madeline had had her heart set on the University of Iowa. When the rejection letter came, she burst into tears. If it wasn’t going to be Iowa, then she wanted Columbia, but that didn’t happen either (the applicant pool, the letter said, was especially strong that year); nor did she get into the University of Michigan. It looked like it would be Bellini or nothing.
At that time, Madeline was dating a former USC football player named Geoffrey, who worked as a bouncer at the Coaster Saloon, on Mission Beach. She knew Geoffrey had strong feelings for her, but he was a loser. Mission Beach was seedy, and Geoffrey sold drugs on the side. When Madeline told Geoffrey that she was applying to graduate school, he panicked about her moving away and said he would go with her. When Madeline expressed skepticism about this plan, he got a tattoo of her name on the soft underside of his forearm. MAD, the tattoo said, because this was what he called her.
Geoffrey was excited to move to Florida and get something going there, which meant getting a job at a bar and finding people to sell drugs to.
No, Madeline decided. She wasn’t going to Florida. She would not settle for Bikini University, and she would not settle for Geoffrey. Late one night, after his shift, she broke up with him.
What transpired next was the worst thing that had ever happened to Madeline. On a night shortly after the breakup, Geoffrey went on a bender of tequila and cocaine, and he showed up at Madeline’s dorm room at three o’clock in the morning, when both Madeline and her roommate were fast asleep, and he carried Madeline out of the building. He loaded her into the back of a panel van he had stolen from the parking lot of the Coaster Saloon and bound her wrists and ankles with plastic zip ties. He gagged her with a bandanna and took her to a motel in Encanto, where he kept her for fifty-two hours, until he finally ran out of cocaine and passed out cold. Madeline was able to make enough noise banging her elbows against the flimsy hotel wall that a Hispanic cleaning lady heard her, opened the door, and called the police.
After Madeline testified and after Geoffrey was sent to jail, she wanted to get as far away from Southern California as she possibly could. With the help of her former San Diego State professor, Madeline found a bed for the summer in a “writer’s retreat” on Nantucket Island. The “writer’s retreat” ended up being a bunch of Chi O girls from the University of North Carolina who had majored in English and liked to host poetry slams. But the room was cheap, and Madeline found a job busing tables at 21 Federal, leaving her days free to write.
By the end of summer, she had finished her first piece of writing ever-a novel entitled The Easy Coast, about a young woman who is brutally kidnapped by her loser drug-dealing boyfriend.
With further help from her former San Diego State professor, Madeline sent The Easy Coast to three agents in New York, and within a week, all three had called saying they wanted to represent her. Madeline flew from Nantucket to New York to meet with these agents, and this was how she met Trevor.
He had been her pilot.
Trevor liked to describe the way Madeline looked when he first met her: she was a beautiful blond from Southern California on the day her greatest dream was about to come true.
That year, in Madeline’s memory, was a giant starburst, an explosion of heat and light. Her book found an agent-Redd Dreyfus-and shortly thereafter, a thirty-thousand-dollar advance from an up-and-coming editor named Angie Turner at the publishing house Final Word. And Madeline met Trevor Llewellyn, and the two of them fell in love. Nine months into the relationship, they were engaged. By that time, Madeline’s book had received two starred prepublication reviews, from the notoriously cranky Kirkus and from Publishers Weekly, both announcing the emergence of a startling new talent.
“Startling new talent.” Madeline turned that phrase over and over in her mind as she stared now at her blank legal pad.
The Easy Coast hadn’t been a huge commercial success-it sold around fifteen thousand copies in hardcover-but it did well enough that Angie offered her a contract for a second novel.
Madeline’s next book, Hotel Springford, had been about a girl growing up in a grand old storied and haunted hotel with her banquet-waitress mother. It hadn’t sold as well as The Easy Coast, but Madeline had written it when Brick was a baby and she was too consumed with changing diapers and pureeing squash to worry about book sales.
After Hotel Springford, Madeline was surprised to feel the urge to write subside, for the first time in her life, supplanted by the joys and exhaustion of motherhood. She decided to take a hiatus from writing and just enjoy being a mom for a while. She loved life with Brick; it made the bumps in the road-her three lost pregnancies, Big T’s illness and death-bearable.
When Brick entered middle school and Madeline’s hopes for another child were pretty much dashed, she got back to writing fiction on her own timetable. The result was Islandia, which earned her the six-figure, two-book deal and ultimately landed her in her current predicament.
It had seemed like so much money last year, but after Redd’s cut and taxes, what was left was enough to pay off their backed-up credit cards, invest the fifty thousand dollars with Eddie, who seemed to make money in his sleep… and rent the apartment.
Madeline stared at the blank page. Would scented candles help? It was quiet in the apartment, but Madeline could hear voices and passing traffic out on the street. Mozart or Brahms would block that out. Writing a novel on deadline was hard work, especially when she was so preoccupied.
She gazed out the window, down onto Centre Street. Back in the whaling days, Centre Street was known as Petticoat Row, because the men had all gone off on whaling expeditions, leaving behind the women to run the businesses.
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