Then Napier was there and in his hands he was holding the rope.


* * *

The nightmare of that cave lives with me still. The drawings on the walls, the pictures, the knowledge that hundreds of years ago men had been brought there to die…And Alice…strange Alice…had brought her enemies to die in the same way. Roma…Edith…myself.

I caught at the rope. They were shouting to me to tie it about my waist. They would save me…these two men together who both loved me.

I heard Alice’s voice—strange, mad, chanting. “Hurry, my shivering sands. Take her…take her as you took the others.”

I kept my eyes on those two men.

“We’ll do it,” I heard Napier say.

And I knew they would.


* * *

I lay in bed, nightmare haunted. I kept starting out of my unconsciousness to feel the soft implacable grip about my knees. It was only the bed clothes. I was haunted by the memory of a nightmare figure holding a candle…a face revealed to me in all its horror which was even greater because of the guileless mask with which I had become familiar.

Napier was at my bedside; so was Godfrey.

“Try to rest,” said Napier; and the pressure of his hand on my wrist reassured me. It shut out the nightmare and brought me back to reality.

“Everything is all right now,” said Godfrey.

Then I was able to sleep.


* * *

I had been fortunate on that day. What luck for me that Godfrey should have been coming over to Lovat Stacy to show me pictures of Roman mosaics in a book he had found in a secondhand bookshop in Dover.

He had seen me descending the cliff with Alice. She had been right to fear that we were being followed.

As for Napier, he believed that I would marry Godfrey and in a jealous mood, believing that Godfrey was going to meet me, he had followed him. A set of circumstances which had brought them both into the cave when the strength of two men was needed for my rescue.

Yes, I was undoubtedly fortunate on that day.

I lay in bed thinking of it and I kept telling myself: the barriers are down now. The way ahead is clear for us.


* * *

And Alice? Why had this strange girl behaved as she had? What canker had eaten into her soul?

The girls were questioned…they who had lived so much closer to her than any of us and who knew so much of her.

Allegra said: “She made us do what she wanted. It started long ago. She used to find out things we’d done and make us do what she commanded…to show she had power over us. We had to pretend that she was a sort of goddess and we were ordinary mortals. At first it was little things like making a face at Miss Elgin when her back was turned or breaking the handle off a cup or picking roses in the garden when we weren’t supposed to, or going to Beau’s room and making fun of his picture. Then it was bigger things. We had to haunt the chapel. Sometimes with candles, sometimes with a lantern. It was to pretend Beau didn’t want Napier here and was haunting it. And one day I set fire to the altar cloth and it all blazed up. I ran away and the fire started. After that I had to do everything she said because if I didn’t she would have told what I’d done. I was afraid Grandfather would send me away. So we haunted the chapel in turns…and when Mrs. Verlaine suspected one of us the other had to do it, while Mrs. Verlaine was with the one she had suspected. And then when she thought that Napier was getting too fond of Mrs. Verlaine we pretended we had seen him digging a hole in the copse…”

Sylvia said: “I had to do the haunting, too. I was always hungry and used to take things from the pantry at home. She said she would tell my mother that I was a thief. And she knew that Edith was meeting Jeremy Brown and so Edith had to do what she was told. Then Jeremy went away and Edith said she wouldn’t do anything more and that she was going to stop Alice’s blackmailing…which was what she called it. And so…she disappeared.”

It was small wonder that we asked what canker of madness was working in that youthful mind.


* * *

And what should be done with Alice?

When she had been brought back from the caves she had resumed her docile demeanor. I was deeply sorry for Mrs. Lincroft who had become like a woman who walked in her sleep.

Strangely enough it was to me that she told her story. I was in my room, for the doctor had said I should rest for the whole of that day and the next for I had sustained a great shock, and it was when I was lying in my room that this strange woman glided in and sat by my bed.

“Mrs. Verlaine,” she said, “what can I say to you? My daughter tried to kill you…twice.”

I said: “Don’t distress yourself, Mrs. Lincroft. I’m safe now.”

“But I am to blame,” she insisted. “I only am to blame. What will they do with my little Alice? They will not punish her. It is not her fault. I and I only am the one to blame.”

She walked about my room—a strange shadowy figure in her long skirts and her chiffon blouse with the loose bishop’s sleeves caught in at the wrists.

“I am the murderess. I…Mrs. Verlaine…not Alice.”

I said: “Mrs. Lincroft, try not to distress yourself. This is a terrible thing. But the doctors will know what to do with Alice. Where is she now?”

“She is sleeping. She looked so strange when they brought her back. She behaved as though nothing had happened. She was so gentle…so sweet…as she always was.”

“There is something terrible wrong with Alice.”

“I know,” she said. Then: “I know what is wrong with my daughter.”

“You know?”

“She cared so much that she should live here; it was important to her that she should be Sir William’s daughter…she wanted to own this place…”

“But how could she?”

“She would never accept defeat. Even now…she does not. She behaves as though nothing has happened, as though…in time she will convince us of this.”

Mrs. Lincroft was silent for a moment and then she went on: “I shall have to tell the truth now. There is no holding back. Perhaps I should have told it years ago. But I kept my secret. I kept it well and no one knew. No one at all…least of all Alice. I felt it was important that no one should know…not only for my sake but mainly for hers. But you are supposed to be resting. Perhaps I shouldn’t tell you. It will only disturb you. Anyone would be disturbed by such a story.”

“Tell me, please, Mrs. Lincroft. I want to know.”

“You already know that Sir William was my lover and that I came here as a penniless girl to be a companion to his wife. You know of the position between us; you know of the death of Beau and how Lady Stacy shot herself soon afterwards. The gypsy spoke the truth. It was because of us…Sir William and myself. There was a scene when she found us together and that, added to her grief over Beau’s death, was more than she could endure. I went away when she died. We thought it best for a while. I was very unhappy. I did not think Sir William would want me back, and I was terribly shocked by the tragedy for which we were responsible…and I could only remind him of it. During the years he has tried to convince himself that she killed herself because of her grief over Beau—but in his heart he knew that that wasn’t true. It was her grief over his infidelity. But for that, he could have helped her over the tragedy. But Sir William tried to force himself to believe that it was due to Beau’s death. He blamed Napier; and every time he saw his son he was reminded of what he had done. And so…he could not bear the sight of Napier. He blamed Napier for everything so that he could stop blaming himself. People often hate those to whom they are unjust.”

“I know this is true,” I replied. “Poor Napier.”

“Napier knew this. But he could not get over the fact that he had killed his beloved brother, and he seemed to want to be blamed. You see he took the responsibility for Allegra’s existence on his own shoulders.”

“People’s motives are so mixed…so difficult to fathom.”

She nodded and went on: “I was frightened when I left here. I knew I had to find another job. First though I took a little holiday.” She shivered and it was evident that she found it a great effort to go on. “I met a man. He was charming, attentive…and I was greatly attracted to him…and he to me. He talked of marriage and all in the space of a fortnight we became lovers. He left me at the boardinghouse where we were staying and said he would go back to his home in London and in a week or so send for me. We were to be married there. He was arrested and I learned that my lover was a homicidal maniac who had already murdered three women. He had escaped from Broadmoor and in his lucid moments appeared to be perfectly normal. I believe that had he not been arrested he would have murdered me in time. Perhaps it would have been better if he had. I was completely shattered when this was discovered. I hastily left the boardinghouse and tried to lose myself in London. And then I discovered that I was to have a child: ‘Gentleman’ Terrall’s child.”

I caught my breath. Now I understood why she had been upset when she had seen the announcement of this man’s escape, how relieved by his recapture. This man…Alice’s father!

“I was desperate!” she said. “What would you have done, Mrs. Verlaine? What could anyone have done? Tell me that. I was alone in the world…about to have a madman’s child. What could I do? I made a plan. I wrote to Sir William. I told him I was going to have a child…his child. It was easy to delude him by making Alice six months older than she actually is. He sent me money…enough to enable me to get comfortably through my difficult time. And when Alice was two years old I came back as Mrs. Lincroft, a widow with one child, and that is where I have been ever since.”

“Oh, Mrs. Lincroft, how sorry I am for you.”

She rocked herself gently to and fro. “What tragedies we hide behind our masks,” she murmured. “And one builds a little refuge and one feels one is safe but there is the slippery step…at everybody’s door.”

“And now?” I asked.

“Who knows?” she answered. “I expect they will take her away from me now. I must tell them the truth. My poor child…She was so like him…I used to watch for the signs. He had her gentleness. He wanted to be good, I am sure.”

I could only murmur my sympathy. I could offer her nothing else.

“What will become of us?” she murmured. “What will become of us now.”


* * *

Alice herself decided what should be done.

The day after we had come back from the caves she was missing. Her little room was as neat as ever, the bed made, the coverlet smooth; everything neatly folded in her drawers.

But there was no Alice.

I knew where she was. She had heard that she was not Sir William’s daughter, that she would have to go away. This was something she had vowed she would never do. She had determined she would stay at Lovat Stacy forever. She would not accept the fact that it was not her home.

She would always think of the dramatic effect. Beside the shifting sands she had dropped a handkerchief with A neatly embroidered in the corner.

I pictured her standing there, holding her candle in her hand. Now she would be buried forever in the land which she had determined should be her own.


* * *

Nothing would be the same again. Between the new and the old life was a great chasm which could never be crossed. The past was dead and the future was vital and living. For one thing Death had taught me when it had come close to me and all but taken me by the hand was that I wanted to live. I wanted desperately to live. I wanted to build up a new life over the ruins which should be so completely hidden that it would be as though they had never existed.

There were two men waiting for me. One was cool and charming, so certain of his place in the world; and the other was scarred by life. Godfrey was so sure, Napier so unsure.

They had both been at hand when I needed them; they had both been watchful since the fire; in their different ways they loved me. Godfrey tenderly, kindly, gently and perhaps dispassionately; perhaps he had chosen me because I would make a suitable wife. And Napier fiercely, possessively, desperately.

“Marry Godfrey,” my head told me. “Go right away from here and forget your nightmares. Live graciously…bring up a family in ideal surroundings…comfortable and easy.”