Barbara Metzger - Truly Yours

"What if I said I am not a maiden? Would that ease your mind?"

Lud knew nothing but two days in bed with her, maybe three, were going to ease his body. "Say it."

So she did, and she was lying, as red as the virgin's blood that would flow for him and all the world to see, branding him a dastard. "Good try, angel, but I do not believe you. But I am too weak willed to let you go. We can still enjoy each other's company." He would not take her innocence, but he could still give her a woman's pleasure.

She wept anyway, at the revelation of what her body could do, what he could do to her, for her. "I never understood how, how extraordinary the feelings are. But there is more. I know there is more."

"You are not strong enough yet. I am not strong enough."

"But you have not had your pleasure."

"Yes, I have." Listening to her cries of excitement, of ecstasy, of surprise, learning what she liked, were more sensuous than anything he could imagine, and more satisfying. To be entirely truthful, the experience was not quite as satisfying as being inside her would have been, but this way he could worship every inch of her tender skin, adore each curve and crevice, without the weight of guilt on his shoulders. "I am well pleased. Now you must go."

If he had any second thoughts about her leaving, he was too late. She was already asleep. He could have woken her, but he was too busy studying her by the dying firelight, how her eyelashes had one tiny teardrop, how her sweet lips were partly open. Had he ever truly worshiped a woman's body this way? He doubted it.

Rex was content, despite being unfulfilled. That no longer mattered. He fell asleep himself, smiling.

He woke up to the noise of the household awakening, dawn's light edging through the drawn curtains. He kissed Amanda awake, and she immediately responded, her hand trailing down his chest where the sheet had become disarranged, on a mission of hesitant exploration. He brought her hand to his lips and kissed each finger. "No, angel. I am not enough of a saint to withstand that. You have to go to bed."

"Hmm," she murmured drowsily, rolling over against him.

"In your own bed," he told her, groaning. "Murchison must not find you here in the morning, or Nanny find you missing. Can you imagine the uproar if you are not where you belong? Come, sweetings, it grows light, the servants will be up."

"I am too weary. You have stolen away the stiffness of my bones."

He knew where it had gone, too.

Rex climbed out of bed, glad she was turned away to hide his injured leg and his all-too-healthy manhood from her sight, and picked up his robe and her gown. He put his on, draped hers over his shoulder, and lifted her into his arms. "I seem to be making a habit of this, don't I?". She laughed softly, sleepily, sexily. Heaven help him, he wanted to carry her to the rooftop where no one could find them, no one could interrupt. He headed for her door. "I must be a saint, after all."

She patted his cheek and kissed him, feeling the new growth of beard. "You are perfect. I think I love you, Lord Rexford."

Luckily they were at her chamber, because he almost dropped her. "No, little goose, you are just in the afterglow of passion. Like Verity adoring Daniel because he feeds her. Not that you are anything like the dog. You smell much better." He kissed behind her ear, where the scent of perfume still lingered.

She shook her head, the blond curls whispering against his shoulder. "No, I would not feel the passion if I did not love you."

She truly, bluely, believed that. "Maybe women are different. But you have not known me long enough for such strong emotion."

"You do not believe in love at first sight?"

"I hardly believe in love at all."

"Well, I do. I shan't ask anything more of you after tonight, however, I swear. Except to find the killer."

"I'll do that, and more." He set her down atop her own bed, amid the tumbled sheets, and backed away quickly, before he was tempted to join her. "Things will be better, I swear. I'll make everything right."

"I trust you will," came from the hallway.

Amanda squeaked and pulled the covers over herself. Rex turned, too fast for his bad leg, and had to catch himself against the wall. He straightened.

"Thank you for taking such excellent care of my goddaughter, Jordan. You may leave her now. I am assuming she took ill in the night. That is correct, Amanda, is it not?"

"Yes, ma'am," she croaked from under the blankets. "Very ill."

Rex thanked heaven not everyone could see the truth. He walked toward the door and shut it behind him, then he took stock of the woman he had not seen since before he left for the army. She looked tired and pale, likely from the hurried journey, but she was still a handsome woman, with a proud, erect bearing. She was staring at him, in turn, which made Rex uncomfortable.

"I shall be moving out shortly," he told her. "I will be staying on in London seeking evidence to prove Miss Carville's innocence."

Lady Royce raised an eyebrow.

"She is untouched."

"Not quite untouched, I would gather." The countess lifted the gossamer nightgown from his shoulder. "We shall speak of this later, when we are both better rested. I shall expect you for luncheon."

Ah, mealtime with Medea. She was the one, Rex recalled, who killed her children and served them up for supper.

He bowed.

Rex left the house early that morning, taking his horse to Hyde Park before anyone was out and about. Daniel would not rise that day-and if he did, he was bound to wish otherwise, with the headache he would suffer and the antidote Murchison would pour down his throat. Maybe that would teach him moderation.

Rex went in by the servants' entrance on his return from the stable mews. Finally, wonderful smells of baking bread, frying bacon, and kippers came from the kitchens. If the cook was not accustomed to gentlemen in her domain, she must have been warned, because she set a plate in front of him without ordering him to the formal dining room. "Happy to feed a hungry man, I am, after all these years of cooking for your lady mother."

Which reminder ruined his appetite.

After eating what he could, so as not to offend the cook for Daniel's sake, he took himself to Bow Street, to offer his services for an hour or two to Inspector Dimm. He found the work satisfying. Lud knew, he needed something in his life that was. Without his cousin, he found a deck of cards and played patience at the desk outside Dimm's office while the inspector interviewed suspects. One tap for the truth, two for a lie.

Dimm came out after twenty minutes, lighting his pipe and apologizing that there was not much work for the viscount today. "We're getting caught up, praises be, and thanks to you, sir." Then Dimm looked over Rex's list of initials and suspects. He nodded. "That Cuthbert chap's had some run-ins with the law. A bootboy in his household a few years ago, iffen I remember right."

"Killed?"

"An accident, they declared it." He knocked his pipe against the desk top in disgust. "With his neck snapped? The swells get away with a lot, and pardon me for saying so, my lord."

"Whoever killed Sir Frederick will not get away with it, no matter his station. I promise you that." One tap.

As the hackney neared Manton's Shooting Gallery, traffic came to a standstill. A dray had overturned, spewing cabbages all over the street. Rex got down and walked, figuring his bad leg could use the exercise anyway. He had not counted on dodging rolling vegetables, the street urchins who were snatching up all they could carry, angry drivers, and curious spectators. He walked toward a side street to avoid the mess, but as soon as he left the main thoroughfare he felt an odd sensation, like a prickling behind his neck. Many of the officers in Spain used to claim they felt some such self-defense instinct, and they always listened to their bodies. Rex had not truly believed them, finding his own brand of magic bad enough. Of course, if he had honed those other instincts he might not have a bad leg and a scar on his cheek. He listened now.

He stopped to look in the window of a print shop, pretending an interest in a display of cartoons lampooning Prinny, as usual, while he studied the glass reflection. The only person nearby was a young clerk carrying a stack of books. So much for instincts. He went on, swinging his cane, knowing full well his scarlet uniform made him easy to track.

Damn, the odd niggling feeling persisted, so he detoured down a different street. A quick glance showed the same clerk still following, more closely. At the next alley, he pretended to stop to check his boot, and came up with a knife in his hand, which was quickly at the young man's throat, as he dragged the clerk into the alley.

"You are following me. Who sent you? And do not lie.

"Mr. Harmon."

Blue.

"I do not know any Mr. Harmon."

"Oh, um, Major Harrison. Yes, that must be who. But I mean you no harm, sir. The gentleman sent me to tell you to watch your back. He said you made more enemies than a fox in five henhouses in one night."

Rex pulled the knife away from the man's jugular. "Why not come up to me honestly if you had a message, instead of using stealth?"

"He wanted to see how vulnerable you were."

"As you can tell, I am not. You can tell your superior that I do not need the warning, or a bookish bodyguard." Then he felt the unmistakable pressure of a gun between his ribs. He looked down, and the pistol's barrel was poking between the books in the clerk's arms. He slowly lowered his own knife to his side. "Point taken. Tell your master I have learned his lesson. I shall be more careful in future."

"You might want to mind your manners, too, he said, begging your pardon, Captain. Better for your health, he said." The clerk tipped his hat and disappeared.

The senior salesman at Manton's recognized the gun in Rex's sketch instantly.

"Oh, yes, we made that firearm. One of a pair, it was. And we have an order for another because one was stolen. In fact, I have the widowed one here, to match. Unless you found the missing piece? Mr. Cord would be delighted to have it back without the expense of having another made. They were his father's, I believe."

"Mr. Lysander Cord? Who resides at the Albany?" Rex recited from his list.

"You know the gentleman? Excellent. Then I am sure you can relieve his mind. Sentimental value, don't you know."

Rex did not know the man, but called at his rooms anyway. Sure enough, Cord explained that his prized weapon had been stolen a few weeks ago from his coach while he attended the theater. He spoke the truth.

Cord was also appalled that his missing gun had killed Sir Frederick Hawley, truly. He was not the murderer.

"But you knew him? Did you know what business he was in?"

Cord looked around his lodgings, obviously wishing he-or Rex-were elsewhere. "Sir Frederick was a gentleman. He could not have been in trade."

"Surely even gentlemen make investments, help finance promising endeavors. Do you?"

"Me?" The man's voice rose an octave. "I have money in the Funds."

Which was true, but not complete, Rex felt. "Do you have any enemies?"

"Me?" he squawked again. "Shouldn't you be asking if Sir Frederick had anyone who wished him ill?"

"Everyone wished him ill, it appears. But you? As I read the situation, the killer might have been a random thief, robbing first your carriage, then Sir Frederick's house, but that seems altogether too coincidental. On the other, more devious hand, perhaps someone purposely left your gun at the scene of a crime. After all, the authorities had only your word that the pistol was stolen."

Cord went white.

"I'll see if Bow Street will give your pistol back when they are done."

"Do you know, if it has been used in a murder, I don't think I want it back. Manton's can make me another."

"Good idea. Good day."

It wasn't. It was lunchtime.

Daniel refused to get up for the noonday meal, the traitor.

"I might never eat again," he said with a groan, rolling over in bed with the pillow on his head to keep his brains from falling out.

"I consider that pudding-hearted, abandoning me in my hour of need."

"Don't mention food."

"You felt badly enough that I got shot up by the French after you left me in the Peninsula."

"I might shoot you myself if you don't leave me to die in peace."

Miss Carville, Rex was informed by a very superior ladies' maid when he scratched at Amanda's door, was resting after her recent indisposition, on Lady Royce's advice.