"Just looking for a little air," Pearce said, knowing that Phil had caught on years ago that she escaped to the roof when something was bugging her. Phil Matucci had befriended her when she was just a child, allowing her to sit beside him on a tall stool while she waited for her father on endless Saturday afternoons. She'd watched the World Series with him on his tiny portable television, they'd discussed politics when she'd gotten older, and on rare occasions when she'd been more lonely than usual, she'd told him about her dreams. Maybe it was because he had five children of his own that he never seemed to mind her company.

He'd chastised her when she'd started to smoke and made a deal with her that if she didn't buy her own, he'd give her one whenever she wanted. She'd broken their agreement on a few occasions when she'd been a teenager, and then felt guilty about it, tossing the illicit packs into the trash so he wouldn't see them.

"Let me know when you come down, so I know you didn't freeze to death up there."

"Thanks," Pearce said quietly. "I will."

The elevator stopped on the top floor, and she went down the hall and out the fire door to the roof. Before the Rhoads Pavilion had been erected with its state-of-the-art heliport, Penn Star--the medical helicopter--had landed here. She crossed to the concrete barricade surrounding the tarmac, hunched down against the wind, and lit the cigarette from a paper matchbook she kept in her back pocket along with other essentials. Taking a deep breath of cold air and smoke, she straightened and looked out over the city. There'd been a time when she'd been too short to see the Schuylkill River that separated West Philadelphia from the downtown area without jumping up and down, her hands pressed to the top of the wall for leverage. Now, she could lean her elbows on it, and she did, contemplating her strange day.

She couldn't figure out why Wynter got under her skin so badly. It had to be more than that Wynter was hot. Instant attraction was nothing new--hell, she got turned on by good-looking women all the time.

Sometimes they connected and sometimes they didn't, and either way, it never mattered enough for her to lose sleep over. When she thought back to their encounter that afternoon in the quad on Match Day, she could easily chalk up her reaction to Wynter to the fact that she'd been high on the excitement of the day, knowing that med school was almost over and she was finally about to start the journey she'd been preparing for her entire life--or so it felt. Wynter had literally walked into her, and for a few brief moments, they'd shared a pivotal point in their lives.

They'd been alone, and Wynter was beautiful, and so damn sexy, and she'd had the overwhelming desire to kiss her. It wouldn't have been the first woman she hadn't known whom she'd kissed.

But she still wanted to kiss her.

"Fuck," Pearce muttered, crushing out the cigarette beneath her foot. The wind lashed her shirt around her body as if it were a windsock, plastering it to her chest. Her nipples tensed in the cold beneath the thin cotton. The sensation was too close to sexual, the memory of wanting to feel Wynter's mouth beneath hers still vivid, and she hummed with another swell of desire. Perfect. I come up here to settle down, and all I do is make it worse than ever. I should've spent the time in my on-call room taking the edge off.

She wished for another cigarette, but Phil would rag on her if she asked for one.

"I just need to keep my distance until I can find a woman to spend some time with."

Armed with a plan, she headed back to work. That was her panacea--loneliness, arousal, anger--she could lose it all in work.

v Wynter noted with satisfaction that she was the first to reach the cafeteria. She couldn't put her finger on exactly why it mattered to her that Pearce was not there first, but it did. She was used to feeling competitive with her fellow residents; it was part of the world she had chosen to inhabit. From the time she had been in high school, she'd understood that if medicine was to be her choice, she would have to be the best at everything she did. Even though the field was not as competitive as it had once been, medical school slots were still at a premium, and once she'd decided on surgery, the field had narrowed even more. There were often hundreds of applicants for a handful of residency positions in the most sought-after programs. It was only because they depended upon one another for mutual survival, banding together against the pressure of long hours and constant stress, that the competition between residents usually remained friendly as opposed to cutthroat. There were exceptions, but she had never had any desire to win at the cost of others. Hers were personal goals. She wanted to be the best, because this was what she had chosen to do with her life and anything less was not acceptable.

She grabbed a cup of coffee and staked out one of the larger tables for their team. As she ran her list again, checking to see that she hadn't overlooked anything during her walk-through, she thought back to the case she had just done with Pearce. It wasn't the most difficult case she'd ever done, or all that unusual. It always felt good to operate--a personal challenge, a problem to solve, a wrong to set right with her own hands.

But operating with Pearce had added something special, something she hadn't experienced before. They'd accomplished something together, a mutual victory, and the sharing was...satisfying. She frowned.

Satisfying. That wasn't quite right. Exciting? Yes, it seemed so, but that didn't make much sense. She leaned back and closed her eyes, trying to figure out what it was about Pearce that confused her so much.

"Hey," Bruce said, pulling out a chair and dropping into it with a sigh. "What's up?"

"Not much," Wynter said. "We took Mrs. Gilbert back this afternoon. She dehisced."

"No shit. Wow." He made a note on his list of the new OR date.

"Did it go okay?"

"Not a hitch."

"I wish I could've been there," he grumbled. "I spent the afternoon holding hooks on that colon."

Wynter suppressed a smile. There was nothing worse for an eager young resident than to be stuck in surgery holding retractors while someone else had all the fun. However, it was a rite of passage, and the junior residents had to first learn to assist on surgeries before they won the right to do the operations themselves. It was a process that took years, not months. "It sucks, I know."

"Tell me about it."

"Tell you about what?" Pearce asked as she settled down across from Wynter. "Problem?"

"Nope," Bruce said quickly. He wasn't going to complain to his chief about anything, especially not when the attending surgeon for whom he'd been holding back the abdominal wall all afternoon had been her father. "Everything's cool."

"Where's Liu?" Pearce felt Wynter's eyes on her, but she kept her gaze on Bruce. She didn't need to look at Wynter to remember the shape of her face or the color of her eyes or the way she tilted her head and looked out from beneath those long honeyed lashes when something amused her. She didn't need to look at her to feel that tug deep in her belly. Man, I am not looking forward to spending the next six hours or so with her. She put her mind to the job, hoping to block out Wynter's effect on her. "Page Liu and tell him he's late. If he's not here in five minutes, I'm leaving, and we'll have sign-out rounds in an hour."

Bruce bounded up and practically ran across the room to the wall phone.

"Works every time," Wynter murmured. There was nothing worse than spending an extra hour in the hospital when you didn't have to. The most effective way to make sure that residents showed up where they were supposed to when they were supposed to was to punish tardiness by making them wait longer to go home. Unfortunately, the entire team suffered if one member was late, so peer pressure was relentless.

Pearce couldn't help but grin. "Well, I'm not going anywhere tonight. If they wanna hang around, it's fine with me."

Wynter nodded her head toward the far side of the cafeteria. "Here he comes."

Liu looked as if he might hurdle the chairs in his path in his haste to reach them. He slid the last few yards and crashed into a chair. "Sorry.

Sorry."

"Six thirty means six thirty," Pearce said flatly.

"I know. I know. I was trying to get that culture report on Hastings, but..." He caught himself as he saw Pearce's eyes narrow. "Won't happen again."

Pearce didn't bother to respond, but focused on Bruce. Never a particularly fit-looking guy, he'd gained a good twenty-five pounds in the last six months. It wasn't uncommon for residents who were deprived of just about every pleasure in life to turn to food, which was always available, as a source of comfort. She controlled her own weight by jogging every morning and lifting several times a week at the university gym. "Let's start at the top."

Bruce pushed up his wire-rimmed glasses and said, "1213.

Constantine. Fem-pop bypass..."

Evening rounds took longer than morning report, because all the critical leftover work of the day needed to be discussed and eventually taken care of by the person on call. Even though Liu would also be on call, Pearce, in addition to covering the ICU and the ER for their service, would need to see that everything got done before morning.

Everyone made notes. When the last patient had been covered, she put down her pen.

"Okay. Bruce, you're done. Dries at five thirty."

"See ya," Bruce said and within seconds, was gone.

Liu rose and said, "I'm gonna grab something to eat while it's quiet. You want anything?"

Pearce raised an eyebrow in Wynter's direction. Wynter shook her head.

"No, thanks," Pearce said. "I'll check in with you about eleven.

Call me if you need me, but remember...To call--"

"Is a sign of weakness," Liu replied, grinning. It was the first thing she'd said to him his first day on the service. It was the first thing that every senior resident said to a first-year resident the first day on any surgical service. It was the great paradox of surgery. Responsibility warred with autonomy, and the need to stand alone in the midst of uncertainty underlay every action.

When he left, Pearce looked across the table at Wynter. "You should probably eat. Things could get busy."

"What about you?"

"I was thinking about street dogs."

Wynter gave her a hard stare. "I don't know you well enough to know if you're kidding, but I'm not going to stand by and watch you take your life in your hands twice in one day. Let's go next door to Children's and get McDonald's."

Children's Hospital was part of the university system and had a self-contained McDonald's on the ground floor. It was always busy, twenty-four hours a day. Against her better judgment, Pearce countered, "What do you say to dinner at the Penn Tower restaurant?"

"It's my first day. I don't want to stretch the rules quite that far,"

Wynter said quietly.

"You're not on call, I am."

Wynter regarded her steadily, annoyed that she couldn't decipher anything in Pearce's expression. She'd seen those dark eyes hot with desire once, and the answering surge of longing Pearce's gaze had stirred within her had surprised and disconcerted her. She'd written her response off as momentary insanity and chaotic hormones, but now she found the inscrutable coolness even more unsettling. She didn't like that Pearce could shut her out so completely. Her voice betrayed her irritation. "I'm not sure I want to help you break the rules either."

"My father is the chief of surgery. Do you think anyone is going to complain if I walk across the street for dinner?"

"I don't believe you. I don't believe you'd take advantage of your father's position for one minute." Wynter leaned forward, resting her forearms on the table, fixing Pearce with a blistering glare. "In fact, I bet you push the envelope just because your father is the chief of surgery, and you don't want anyone to think you're getting special treatment."

Pearce laughed. "And you base this all on what?"

The sadness in your eyes that you think no one sees. Wynter said nothing, because she had a feeling that Pearce Rifkin did not want anyone to see her vulnerability. And she didn't want to threaten her.

More importantly, she didn't want to risk hurting her by bringing up her father. She shrugged. "It's your ass, not mine, if we're in the middle of fettuccine Alfredo and someone calls a code in the SICU."