They were all whores. Every last one of them. They deserved to be treated like the fucked-up bitches they truly were.

And yet, still he felt nothing. Absolutely fucking nothing.

Cursing, he yanked her head up and used his grip on her hair to toss her beside him. Straddling her chest, he gripped the sides of her face, forcing her mouth open. Holding himself above her, he thrust his dick into her open mouth and began fucking her face. Fast and hard. She was gagging prolifically now and her eyes were wide and watering and finally, motherfucking finally, he felt something. Some twisted sliver of satisfaction.

He came hard in her throat and immediately pulled out. She started gasping, coughing, and tried to turn her head. Slapping his hand over the girl’s mouth, he leaned down. “Swallow it,” he demanded, grinning down at her.

She tried but she couldn’t. She was choking, coughing too hard, and spit and semen erupted from her lips and between his fingers.

Disgusted, he climbed off her and wiped his hand clean on her hair.

“S-s-sorry,” she choked out, rolling away from him, still coughing.

“Yeah,” he muttered as he swung his legs out of bed. “You are sorry.”

Bending down beside his nightstand table, he grabbed his credit card, dumped out the last of his eight-ball, and started cutting.

“This shit is choppy as fuck,” he hissed.

“Do you know where we live?” she asked. “It’s hard to come by grade-A shit in the middle of nowhere. Don’t see why you didn’t just dip into your old man’s stash.”

Cage positioned his rolled-up twenty over the first line and inhaled every last granule before glancing back at her.

“Am I fuckin’ stupid?” he said, sniffing. “That shit is for sale, locked, stocked, and accounted for. Not for personal fuckin’ use. I tap into it and they’ll know.”

“I was just sayin’,” she muttered.

Cage shot her a dirty look before bending over to blow another line.

“Don’t fuckin’ speak then,” he shot back, pinching his nose with his thumb and forefinger and inhaling hard. The tingling burn hit the back of his throat and he swallowed that shit.

Wetting his middle finger, he swiped it across the wooden platform, picking up the last of it. Then, sucking his finger into his mouth, he rubbed it across his gums.

Ah, chemically induced energy. The only way he could find the will to get out of bed anymore. Grabbing his smokes, he lit one up and coughed through the first few drags, cursing as his lungs began to burn something fierce. Sitting down on the floor, he leaned against his bed and left his head fall back.

His left lung hurt all the damn time. Motherfucking constantly. And he’d been told, by several specialists in no uncertain terms, that it was going to hurt for the rest of his life. Apparently when one of your lungs was nothing but scar tissue or some such shit, living out the rest of your days in pain 24/7 was just one of the many perks.

He wasn’t supposed to be smoking. He wasn’t supposed to be doing anything that caused damage to his lungs, not that he gave two fucks about what happened to his lungs. In fact, he didn’t give two fucks about what happened to him or anyone else.

“You want me to see if Bucket’s got any of that China White left?”

Cage glanced over at her. “Bucket’s dippin’?”

She shrugged. “Fucked him a few months back, and he paid me in smack.”

“You fucked Bucket?” he asked, disgusted. She couldn’t have been any more than nineteen or twenty and Bucket was nearly as old as his old man.

She started laughing. “I’ve been fucking Bucket since I was fifteen,” she said. “Since my parents first moved me to this dump of a town.”

Nice. Really fucking nice. She looked proud of it too.

Fucking whore. They were all motherfucking whores. But the biggest of whore of them all, the one who’d fucked him so hard he wasn’t sure he’d ever get back up…

Tegen.

He’d been heavily drugged after he’d come out of surgery. He didn’t remember much, but as the pain had become more bearable and they’d begun weaning him off the heavy dosage, he clearly remembered Tegen not being there. At first he’d panicked, thinking something had happened to her, that ZZ had shot her, that she was just as fucked-up as he was or worse, dead.

Then he’d made the mistake of asking about her and his old man had filled in the blanks. She was fine. Unharmed. And not here.

Not once did she come to check on him. He was laid up in her fucking city, for shit’s sake, and yet…nothing.

He wasn’t going to lie; that shit fucking hurt. Nearly as bad as the holes in his body. He’d faked more pain than he was actually in and went back to being too dosed up to care.

And he’d been dipping ever since. Because when he wasn’t fucked-up, that shit hurt. The burning inside his lungs…

Yeah, he take that over the ache inside his heart, any day.

He’d told that bitch he loved her. And she’d run out on him.

Stupidly he gone after her, gotten himself shot, and he’d motherfucking died. Twice.

And she’d run out on him.

If she’d been seeking payback for what he’d done to her, she’d fucking succeeded. And then some. And yet he was still thinking about her. He still fucking wanted her.

He was stupid. A first-class moron. He’d gone his entire life jumping beds, not giving a fuck, only to end up in love with the one bitch who’d, once upon a time, actually cared about him and he’d burned her. Fitting.

Grabbing the bottle off his nightstand, he took a long, deep swallow and washed away the burn of humiliation with a different kind.

He was on his fourth chug when his bedroom door swung wide open and hit the wall with a loud crack. He didn’t bother turning.

“You know what fuckin’ time it is?” a loud, angry, familiar voice demanded.

Cage didn’t turn his head. “Do I fuckin’ care?”

“Bitch,” Deuce said. “Get your clothes on and get the fuck out.”

Behind him, Cage heard the girl scrambling to get off the bed. A few moments later his door slammed closed and heavy footsteps crossed the room. His father’s face came into view, far too close and a little blurry. Cage wrinkled up his nose. “Back the fuck up, old man.”

Deuce’s eyes narrowed. “You think I don’t know what you been doin’? Half the time you ain’t even smart enough to clean off your fuckin’ nose.”

Cage snorted and Deuce’s nostrils flared. “Somethin’ funny?”

“Yeah. It’s funny that you think I give two fucks if you know or not.”

“My boys don’t fuckin’ use,” he growled. “You know this.”

“Yeah?” Cage shot back. “Tell that to Bucket.”

Deuce stood up straight and glared down at him. “Bucket’s got side business goin’ on, he ain’t usin’ shit. You’d know this if you picked your fuckin’ head up outta the powder for a fuckin’ minute.”

Cage took another long swallow of Jack before looking up at his father. “No, asshole, I’d know it if you actually told me somethin’ once in a while instead of treatin’ me like shit on your fuckin’ shoe.”

“You a little fuckin’ girl?” Deuce demanded. “You need me to wipe your goddamn ass for you too?”

Cage’s temper flared to life and before he knew what he was doing, he was whipping the bottle of Jack across the room. He shot to his feet, eye to eye with his father, just as it hit the wall and shattered.

“You’re a shit father, you know that?” he yelled. “You’re a shit person too! Yet you get handed every fuckin’ thing, none of it deserved!”

Moments later Cage was pinned up against the wall by his throat, his father up in his face. “You think I don’t fuckin’ know it?” Deuce spat. “You think I ain’t grateful, you’re motherfuckin’ wrong! I’ve been where the fuck you are, you little shit. I’ve been pissed off at the whole motherfuckin’ world, I’ve been fuckin’ shot a fuck of a lot more than you, and unlike you, I had an old man who didn’t give a motherfuck if I lived or died.”

Cage smirked. His old man thought he gave a fuck that he’d gotten shot. He didn’t. In fact, his old man could shoot him right the fuck now and he still wouldn’t give a fuck.

“So what you’re sayin’,” Cage drawled, “is that I should be followin’ in your fuckin’ footsteps, get you shanked in the showers like you did to your old man?”

Deuce’s nostrils flared.

“Shit’s been goin’ on long enough,” he growled, squeezing Cage’s throat. “Time for you to flush your fuckin’ bullshit and get back to livin’.”

Living? Fucking living?

Rage boiled up inside of him and he found himself gripping his father’s wrist and yanking the man’s hands off his throat.

“FUCK YOU!” he roared, shoving Deuce backward and immediately advancing on him. “You call my life living? I ain’t livin’! I’ve just been followin’ you around, pickin’ up your fuckin’ messes! I ain’t never had anything that was mine!”

He shoved Deuce again. “It’s all been yours! All of it! The club, the boys, Eva and the kids! They’re all fuckin’ yours! I got nothin’! Fuckin’ nothin’!”

Cage would have known it was coming but as it was he was too pumped up on drug-fueled adrenaline and didn’t see his father’s fist until after it had collided with his face.

Lying on the floor, rubbing his jaw, he blinked up at his father’s towering form.

“You really are fuckin’ stupid,” Deuce said roughly. “You’re my fuckin’ kid, my son, and everything I have, it’s always been yours. Who you think I’m passin’ that gavel to?”

“Fuck your gavel,” Cage sneered. “Fuck your club and fuck you.”

Deuce stared down at him for a heartbeat and then he turned away.

Cage continued to lie on the floor long after his bedroom door had slammed shut.

Fuck his old man. Fuck this club. And fuck himself.

But most of all…

Fuck Tegen.

• • •

His head a mess, Deuce stormed out of Cage’s room, slammed the door closed behind him, and took off down the hall.

His kid was going to die if he kept this shit up. Barely a year after ZZ had blown two holes through his lung and he was not only still smoking but blowing lines and who knew what else. Fucking dirty whores too.

Sighing angrily, he scrubbed his hands over his face. Where the fuck did he keep going wrong? No matter what he fucking did, it was never enough, not for any of them. Except Eva. She was the lone person on this earth he’d ever been enough for.

“Jesus fuck,” he muttered. “I’d be fuckin’ screwed without her.”

One thing was true: In this fucking life, the dirty business he ran, you needed a good woman backing you. A strong one. One who knew her place; one who would be there for you no matter what. A woman a man could count on to give him what he needed when he fucking needed it.

“How’s the boy?” Mick asked as Deuce slid onto the barstool beside him. Reaching over the bar, Deuce slapped the back of Blue’s head, but the drunk old fucker didn’t so much as twitch.

“Fucked.”

“Reminds me a lot of his old man,” Mick said.

Deuce gave him a sideways glance. “Yeah? How fuckin’ so? I ain’t never used.”

Grabbing the glass in front of him, Mick downed the last of his whiskey. “Didn’t say it was the exact same. Said he reminded me of you. After Eva ran out on ya. Difference was, you had too many responsibilities to be fuckin’ up so bad. Cage don’t have jack shit to do but fuck up.”

“What the fuck you talkin’ about?” Deuce asked, grabbing for the bottle in front of Mick. “Ain’t nobody run out on Cage. Idiot got himself shot because of…”

Deuce trailed off and his chest began to tighten.

He glanced over at Mick and Mick gave him a grim smile.

“Tegen,” Deuce finished.

“Tegen,” Mick repeated, nodding his agreement.

“You tryin’ to tell me he loves her?”

“Think about it,” Mick said as he shoved off his barstool. “He was all up on her during lockdown last year, every damn second, and I ain’t never seen him pay a female any more attention than it took to get his dick sucked until her. Then she’s sneakin’ out on him in the middle of the night and he’s actin’ like a damn fool because of it. Next thing you know, he’s haulin’ ass to Cali and instead of goin’ to Oakland, he heads straight to her.”

Deuce closed his eyes. Fuck. Tegen hadn’t snuck out. He’d pushed her out the damn door.

“I gotta get home, Prez. See you tomorrow?”

“Yeah.”

He watched as Mick headed out and when he was alone, other than Blue passed out on the bar, he placed his elbows on the counter and dropped his head in his hands.